ChefChiTown's Rebirth: I'm Back, BABY!!! (In More Ways Than One)...

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Alright, today is the day I start incorporating cardio back into my routine. I started my current leg of this journey two weeks ago. The first week I adjusted myself to eating healthier and didn't exercise. The second week I added weight lifting into my routine. This week, the third week, I am adding cardio into my routine. It will make my days a little bit longer (with work, the kids being in school, baseball, lifting weights and household tasks already being a part of my day), but the kids get out of school in a few weeks and baseball only lasts for about a month longer, so my super long days won't last forever.

Since it is my first week adding cardio back into my routine, I am just going to get on the treadmill. Next week, I'll start running again. I'm thinking of getting on the treadmill two days per week and running three days per week, maybe a M, W, F and T, TH sort of thing. We'll see.

Just like Jen, I have a closet full of clothes. Most of mine are clothes I can't fit into yet. I still have shirts I can wear right now, but most of the shirts hanging in there are all too small for me...for now, anyway. I know, as long as I keep doing what I'm doing, I'll be wearing all of those new shirts within the next few months. I went through the closet yesterday and organized my clothes. I also threw away clothes that didn't fit, had stains/holes or were just super old and needed to go. There are 68 more days until the Olympics start. In 68 more days, I am going to go through the closet again and get rid of clothes that don't fit. My goal? All of the shirts that I can wear now, I want to be able to throw out in 68 more days. Not because they're gross, but because they're too big for me.

jen_renee said:
You've definitely lost weight. You can tell! :)
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Aww, thanks!!!

Hey, honey? You've been doing GREAT too. I couldn't be more proud of you. I just think you should add this exercise into your routine. You know...for reasons.

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I'm having another one of those "I can't sleep" nights. I went to bed about an hour and a half ago and I did nothing but lie there. It's hot in our room. My body hurts from throwing up all day. My back is sore from lying down all day (I didn't get out of bed until about 8PM tonight). And, my mind is racing. Add all of that together and you get me, getting out of bed, walking my hot, tired ass into the living room (only to find our cat sitting in my spot - but she's so CUTE!!!), turning on the TV and opening up my laptop. So, here I am.

Luckily, I don't work tomorrow. So, I'm trying not to sweat it too much.

Anyway, Jen and I were a little bad last night (me more than her) and my body literally paid for it aaaaall day today. Me throwing up all day was nothing more than my body's way of saying, "Dude, you were doing SO GOOD, Chef. Why in the FUCK did you be shitty last night, you stupid dipshit? Get...this...shit...OUT...OF...ME!!!"

Now, part of me is totally full of regret. I wish I had just toughed it out and pushed threw my urges. However, there's also a part of me that is happy it happened. Why? Because, the fact that my body literally rejected the unhealthy evening I had last night is a sign that I'm changing. My body has finally gotten used to eating and being healthy. Once I put unhealthy shit inside of it, it literally rejected it - about 15 times. And, that means I HAVE made some genuine progress during the past two and a half weeks. So, good for me. On a side note: the way I felt today is something I don't want to feel again. So, it's going to be a long, LONG time before I cheat again.
 
So, it's 3:00AM and I'm officially lost in the depths of YouTube. I started off by searching for and watching videos for different exercises, but it didn't take long before I veered waaaay off track. Clicking on "related" video after "related" video has gotten me to see very off-topic shit. First, I ended up here...


Now, I'm always very skeptical when it comes to alternative forms of medicine, especially when it involves pressure points, acupressure, whatever you call it. However, I'm tired and went along with it. I actually tried the bullshit that he's doing (grab the top of your head and pretend your splitting a pumpkin? Like, what the fuck is THAT shit?). It didn't really work, but at least nobody else is up to watch me trying it like an idiot.

Quick side note: I'm currently watching reruns of Blossom on the TV and David Schwimmer from Friends is on the episode that's currently showing.

Then, I ended up here...


Gross. Super gross. But, now I want to go get my ears cleaned.

And, currently, I am watching THIS gem...


I don't know if it's because I'm tired or if I actually think it's that funny, but I about lost it at "I wanted to make some seafood."
 
I like it chef, I like it. I love that you are becoming much more aware of what is really best for you. I'm sorry you have suffered, but......It's a good thing xoxo
 
Well, I found out that my super fun puke-filled day miiiiight have been caused by more than just consuming shitty food. There are two people with whom I work that have been calling out sick the past few days...and guess what their symptoms are? They both woke up in the morning, were running a high temperature (sweating, feeling extremely hot) and did nothing but throw up for most of the day. Then, they were tired and did nothing but sleep the next day or two. Gee, sounds familiar.

So, I'm wondering if I was actually sick and didn't know it. Oh well. Either way, it won't break my stride.

I'm up a little early this morning so I can take the kids to school. When I get home I'm going to pack my lunch and then lay down on the couch until I have to leave for work. I didn't sleep all that great last night and I could use a few more minutes of rest before I head off to work. I find that I actually sleep better when I lay down on the couch (because SOMEONE is a bed hog and doesn't stay on her side of the damned bed...but I won't say who).
 
So, I haven't updated in a while. A month or so, it looks like. I don't know, I just wasn't in the mood. My head has been elsewhere for a while now and weight loss, including this forum, hasn't been anywhere close to being on my mind lately. Now, just so people know, things aren't all bad. I fucking hate my job, my managers are a complete joke and my co-workers are childish pieces of shit who drive me insane on a daily basis...but everything at home is really good. So, not all is bad here.

Anyway, there's one thing I've realized during this time that I wish I would've realized years ago.

When it comes to weight loss (MY weight loss, anyway), planning ahead does nothing but set me up for failure. Every single time I've had a game plan, I fail. Maybe not right away, but I always fail when I make weight loss plans. Why? Because, following a plan isn't going to fix my problem in any way, shape or form. Plans have a beginning and an end, and that's why I fail. Who cares if I try to exercise for 30 days in a row? Or eat a low-carb diet for X number of days? I mean, it's good that I do it, but then what? What happens when that 30 days is over? At that point, I'm done. I've accomplished my goal and I'm done. After that, I go right back into my old habits.

To fix my problem I need to just change my daily habits. Not temporarily. Not for a limited amount of time that I deem acceptable. No. I need to change my habits on a daily basis. No plans. No challenges. Just change. So, that's what I'm going to do. I'm fat and unhealthy for a reason, and no 30-day challenge or silly short-term goal is going to fix me. I need to just change my ways. So, that's what I'm going to do.
 
Everyone is so different chef. There sure aren't any easy answers to weight loss & maintenance. We all have to find what works for us. It's nice to have you back. You & Jen brighten the place up :D
 
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