Going to make it to 1-0-0

Welcome back! I hear you about the winter weather. So ready for it to be done. I know you can get rid of these 19lbs!
 
Welcome back! I think it's a smart idea to get the treadmill. My wife and I turned one of our rooms into a fitness room -- small trampoline for her and a stationary bike for me (+ 2 yoga mats). Having the bike in the house has made it so much more possible for me to actually get the workout done, instead of having to trek outside in the cold or heat or over to the gym. Good luck!
 
Thanks for your comments Cory and Green Smurf! The winter has been so amazingly brutal that I got the treadmill but the delivery company left it in the garage - they didn't take it downstairs to the basement. So I now need to buy a mat to put underneath the treadmill and then need help moving it to the basement. And need to make some space in the basement.

My work hours have been incredibly hectic and unhealthy. There are weeks where I have worked 80 hrs+ - i work consultant hours and I am not getting paid like a consultant and I've sacrificed my health for this job. So I have been going to the gym the past 2 weeks- and it makes me tired with the anemia, and I can't get as much work done and my projects have been getting delayed but I am really trying to strike a balance between work (which I hate), the gym and sleep. Anyways, enough of me complaining. The point is, I want to get back to at least my original weight of 109lbs. I am 122.6 lbs as of this morning- it's really disgusting but that's what I am.

I'm finding that my diet has gone completely south- and I don't know how to curb my cravings. I am really struggling with food right now. Today my stomach felt like a bottomless pit, and combined with emotional eating, I reached out for ALL the wrong things. It makes my 3 mile gym workout useless. If anyone has any advice, and I will read through the forum as well, about how to overcome emotional eating or how they manage a stressful job with healthy eats, I'd love to hear about your experience.

So right now, my motivation isn't there but I know that I want to look good, feel good, so I'm trying to tackle weight loss for the millionth time. I'm going to write it down:

IDEALLY, these are what my weight goal targets are:

April 6th 120 lbs
April 10th 118 lbs
April 17th 116 lbs
April 24th 114 lbs
May 1st 112lbs
May 8th 110 lbs
May 15th 108 lbs
May 22nd 106 lbs
May 29th 104 lbs
June 5th 102 lbs
June 12th 100 lbs
 
Okay so slowly incorporating greens into my diet (again)- slowly becoming more consistent with gymming- not eating past 7pm and all that jazz. And now I will watch the lbs melt away.....just melt away....anytime now....lol I have to have fun with this or I'll go crazy.
 
I did 3 miles at the gym today. I'm not seeing any weight loss so far- I think it may be diet- I feel a bit disheartened- but I know I got to keep going.
 
Hey all, I am back! I weigh more than ever lol but ready to make a change.

Some updates: So I've been legit depressed, slumped into a depression, packed on the lbs, over 30 now and weigh 136lbs. It's as bad as when I first started the weight loss journey in 2007. I don't feel that motivated to work it all off but a tiny voice inside my head is screaming to get back to my lowest weight of 105lbs - I was also the healthiest then.

Depression is a horrible, soul consuming feeling and it's been worse since my grandmother passed away 3.5 years ago. I felt sad, miserable, upset. I have one more grandparent left- and she means the world to me. Anyways, being out of school and kind of going through a death in the family just put me in a bad mental state (I cannot say I am fully out of it). That coupled with horrible reminders of the past of my abuse relationship, and the fact that I'm starting a second career, which has put me back a few pay gradees, single, over 30 with anemia and some symptoms of pcos and no direction or motivation to go on has really put me in a black hole. But at the same time, I cannot stay in this black hole. Life must go on and I must fight until my last breath. I don't have any other choice. So anyways, while my motivation is not there a 100% like it used to be, I'm trying. And I hope I can do this. I really really hope I can.
 
Hi Misty, kudos for making a commitment to your own health even at a time when that´s rough.
 
I haven't weighed myself today but I thought that I'd write in the journal as I find it cathartic. I've had a cup of coffee and a bowl of cereal this morning (approx. 275 calories). I'm not sure what I will do for lunch today- with my hormone imbalance, clean eating is important (I've already kind of violated it with coffee and cereal- coffee is a hard vice to give up).

I've been trying to plan my lunches, it's typically been apples, avocado and broccoli- yesterday I was feeling blah so didn't end up packing a lunch for today. I'm trying to keep my dinners light as well- but it's tough.

Anyways, I'm glad to be back on this forum. Thanks for all the supportive comments, look forward to making this change for the better.
 
Hi Misty & welcome back. We started in the forum around the same time. I'm sorry you have been having such a rough time but glad to have you back. I have suffered from depression for much of my life & know that eating well & looking after my physical health really helps my mental health. 136lbs (62kg) sounds like a good weight to me. Do you play any sport at all or are you interested in any in particular? Exercise can make you feel so good, but exercise in good company is even better. Look forward to catching up some more Misty, xo Cate
 
cate said:
Hi Misty & welcome back. We started in the forum around the same time. I'm sorry you have been having such a rough time but glad to have you back. I have suffered from depression for much of my life & know that eating well & looking after my physical health really helps my mental health. 136lbs (62kg) sounds like a good weight to me. Do you play any sport at all or are you interested in any in particular? Exercise can make you feel so good, but exercise in good company is even better. Look forward to catching up some more Misty, xo Cate
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Hi Cate! Thanks for the message. Look forward to connecting with you more!

Yes, 136lbs is really healthy for a tall person! I'm 4ft 11" so it means I have to work harder to get down to a healthy BMI and ideal weight. In university I used to be around 120lbs (54 kg) and I was still taunted for being heavy. Weight has always been a sensitive issue for me. The lowest I've been is 105lbs and I looked/felt healthy. Some sites go as far as to say an ideal weight for someone my height is 95lbs but I'd really be happy at 105lbs.

Yes, depression has really impacted my motivation levels. And I'm not a patient person, lol, so weight loss has been a challenge. I'm taking small steps, my diet is nowhere near perfect. I've not been dating because I'm so unhappy because of my weight- which you may think is silly- but almost every guy I've dated has commented on my weight so it's a sensitive subject and I just want to be happy with myself before I look for a partner. Sort of doing a disservice to myself as I'm over 30 and getting older - very few healthy baby-making years left- but I can't get over the mental block of I need to look good to be able to put myself out there.
 
I went to the gym yesterday- felt good.

My motivation today is so-so- I may jump on the treadmill at home instead of the gym.

I really need to start sleeping early and getting to the gym first thing in the morning (that would mean a 5am start). But sleeping early is an issue because I have so much on my mind that I can't fall asleep easily. But anyways, I'll figure it out.
 
misty22 said:
Hey all, I am back! I weigh more than ever lol but ready to make a change.

Some updates: So I've been legit depressed, slumped into a depression, packed on the lbs, over 30 now and weigh 136lbs. It's as bad as when I first started the weight loss journey in 2007. I don't feel that motivated to work it all off but a tiny voice inside my head is screaming to get back to my lowest weight of 105lbs - I was also the healthiest then.

Depression is a horrible, soul consuming feeling and it's been worse since my grandmother passed away 3.5 years ago. I felt sad, miserable, upset. I have one more grandparent left- and she means the world to me. Anyways, being out of school and kind of going through a death in the family just put me in a bad mental state (I cannot say I am fully out of it). That coupled with horrible reminders of the past of my abuse relationship, and the fact that I'm starting a second career, which has put me back a few pay gradees, single, over 30 with anemia and some symptoms of pcos and no direction or motivation to go on has really put me in a black hole. But at the same time, I cannot stay in this black hole. Life must go on and I must fight until my last breath. I don't have any other choice. So anyways, while my motivation is not there a 100% like it used to be, I'm trying. And I hope I can do this. I really really hope I can.
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You can do it. It's really about those small steps that you have been doing. The good news is, if you've done it before you can definitely do it again.
 
Hey Misty, today is your day! I saw this yesterday (Wednesday) & it made me smile. I used to wish that I was petite as a teenager. I was a bit of a galumpher- tall, big feet, not into girly stuff........I never thought I was faintly attractive.
I think if the men you have dated have commented about your weight they certainly were not the right men. Rude!
 
cate said:
Hey Misty, today is your day! I saw this yesterday (Wednesday) & it made me smile. I used to wish that I was petite as a teenager. I was a bit of a galumpher- tall, big feet, not into girly stuff........I never thought I was faintly attractive.
I think if the men you have dated have commented about your weight they certainly were not the right men. Rude!
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Haha! Short girl appreciation day- that's funny! Thanks Cate :) P.s. I made it to the gym today yayyy!
 
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