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Pinky2

Pinky2

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Hey guys... well i'm back on this weight loss journey once again!

Was looking through some old photos of me on facebook and it just made me think how depressed i am with my current weight... I hate the way i look! Infact i'm the fattest in my life now then i have ever been... the last time i went shopping to buy new clothes was months ago... I refuse to buy anything because i dont want to accept my size 18 (uk size) body. My boyfriend disagrees with me... saying that i'm not as fat as i think i am etc but i know i wont be happy until i do something about it.

I dont have much internet access but this helped last time so i thought i should give it a go again. I'm working at this slowly... Am trying to do more exercise in a day and to eat a little more healthly then i have been. Like for example i'm going to have soup and fruit at work for lunch and only that. If i don't take anything else with me then i wont be tempted by it! Sounds like a plan right? I think i should also try and do sit ups or something at night time... just to get this belly flab working!

So... here's today... the start of the new me! I'm not going to give up this time! and this time i really mean it!

Breakfast:
Bowl of shreddies with semi skimmed milk

Lunch:
Bowl of soup
Packet of crisps
tub of grapes, melon and pineapple

Supper:
A medium size bowl of lamb stew

Drinks:
3 cups of coffee
1 cup of tea

Exercise:
25-30 mins of walking the dogs.
20 crunches before bed
One thing i've noticed actually is that i drink too much coffee and tea and not enough water. Will have to take a bottle of it with me to work.
 
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Pinky said:
Hey guys... well i'm back on this weight loss journey once again!

Was looking through some old photos of me on facebook and it just made me think how depressed i am with my current weight... I hate the way i look! Infact i'm the fattest in my life now then i have ever been... the last time i went shopping to buy new clothes was months ago... I refuse to buy anything because i dont want to accept my size 18 (uk size) body. My boyfriend disagrees with me... saying that i'm not as fat as i think i am etc but i know i wont be happy until i do something about it.

I dont have much internet access but this helped last time so i thought i should give it a go again. I'm working at this slowly... Am trying to do more exercise in a day and to eat a little more healthly then i have been. Like for example i'm going to have soup and fruit at work for lunch and only that. If i don't take anything else with me then i wont be tempted by it! Sounds like a plan right? I think i should also try and do sit ups or something at night time... just to get this belly flab working!

So... here's today... the start of the new me! I'm not going to give up this time! and this time i really mean it!

Breakfast:
Bowl of shreddies with semi skimmed milk

Lunch:
Bowl of soup
Packet of crisps
tub of grapes, melon and pineapple

Supper:
A medium size bowl of lamb stew

Drinks:
3 cups of coffee
1 cup of tea

Exercise:
25-30 mins of walking the dogs.

One thing i've noticed actually is that i drink too much coffee and tea and not enough water. Will have to take a bottle of it with me to work.
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Hey Pinky,
Welcome back!!
I noticed you on the Xenical thread, so I thought I would stop by ...

Your menu sounds good! Better than mine ... I have been binging like mad, but I think its because I was procrastinating on the paper, haven't touched a bite since having done said paper ..goody!

I am going out to eat tonight! But thats more to work me out of my depression, I like discussing things over dinner at restaurants ..haven't been to one in a month, but thats cool .. I go once a month ... as a treat ... not a comfort thing ..but it sounds like one tonight .. I am desperate ..anything to get me out of this mood ...

but I wouldn't use the Xenical hun ..it will harm you more than help you ... I weighed 285 ...went down to 275 .. I was thrilled ..than I stopped taking it ..and I ballooned up to 295 and than to 320 ...

since just doing a lifestyle change and much exercise I have lost virtually thirty pounds ... it was thirty five until I lost my motivation ...

but you can do this with out a pill ..its better to do it with out ..trust me .. I know .. my mother even warned me that I would gain double the weight back ..so I came off of it ..and she was right .. I didn't want to end up down where I wanted to be and gain double the amount of weight back ... trust me ..not the solution ..neither is starving yourself ..which I did too ..and lost sixty pounds in three months ..but I also almost died at the hospital because of that ...


so ..just eat right and exercise ... you can do this!!

Just keep on a trecking and you will see results ... :cheers2:

best wishes
natalie jo

sorry for the ..depressing post lol
 
Have a wonderful time out to dinner tonight... I love going to resturants... its nice having the choice of what you want to eat without having to worry about wether or not you can cook it... and the washing up! I hate washing up!

Part of me understands where you are coming from with the whole taking a pill thing isnt right... but then the other half of me just really wants to! I've seen results happen by taking the weight loss pills which has helped me carry on with what i have been doing. I suffer greatly from motivational problems... if i don't see results after a week then i get discouraged and think a *bleep* it!!! its a *bleep bleep bleep* waste of time... end up binging and then im back to square one!

Also its that motivational thing of actualy getting off my big round bottom and donig exercise. Once i'm doing it then its normally fine... i work out and then feel great about it afterwards.... But its getting off the sofa thats the hardest part for me... My favourite phrase is 'Ill do it tomorrow!'

Sorry to hear you were in hospital because of your diet... thats not good at all!! At least your all better now though. :) by the way how long did it take you to loose 30lbs?
 
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Pinky said:
Have a wonderful time out to dinner tonight... I love going to resturants... its nice having the choice of what you want to eat without having to worry about wether or not you can cook it... and the washing up! I hate washing up!

Part of me understands where you are coming from with the whole taking a pill thing isnt right... but then the other half of me just really wants to! I've seen results happen by taking the weight loss pills which has helped me carry on with what i have been doing. I suffer greatly from motivational problems... if i don't see results after a week then i get discouraged and think a *bleep* it!!! its a *bleep bleep bleep* waste of time... end up binging and then im back to square one!

Also its that motivational thing of actualy getting off my big round bottom and donig exercise. Once i'm doing it then its normally fine... i work out and then feel great about it afterwards.... But its getting off the sofa thats the hardest part for me... My favourite phrase is 'Ill do it tomorrow!'

Sorry to hear you were in hospital because of your diet... thats not good at all!! At least your all better now though. :) by the way how long did it take you to loose 30lbs?
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Its taken me a year. lol March to March. Now I hope to lose another thirty pounds... Twenty by October to November .. I would like to be 265 on my Birthday... I am in the Birthday Challenge. I lost nine pounds over the VDAY challenge..which was a month and a half ..but I have been binging myself. Emotional myself. And I have a hard time with binging too. I am a food addict ...but I enjoy walking ... which is a good thing, but sometimes its very hard for me to get going. I just step out the door and feel the embarrasment if I walk back inside I look like a fat chick giving up. So once I am outside that door I know I want to go, because I don't want to let people intimidate me to stay inside. No way! but eating is the problem right now. I walked 45 minutes yesterday, which was really good, seeing as I had a hard time convincing myself to do it. I walk during blizzards and what not. Its the only way you lose weight over winter, just brave the storms..and we are getting a lot of storms ...but I had set backs during the year .. I was in a bad relationship, very emotionally abusive ... he fed me bad food too .. I refused it ..but he wouldn't let me as well ..every time I am in a relationship I gain around fifty pounds, which is what I did ... I went from a size 260 three years ago to a 320 ... Now I am at 285 ..exactly thirty pounds less .. I actually have twenty five more pounds to go and I will be down to what I was three years ago ..which is kind of nice to see I am so close ..but it will take me another year to reach that goal ..its been tuff being on meds that made my appetite increase and what not ...I am not on them anymore ... but now I have to try to erradicate the reprecussions ...

but .. a year ...
and you can do it ..and if you feel the pill will kick start it than maybe it will do a good thing ... if thats what you need for motivation ..than go and do it ...

I do agree it can be hard mustering up a little motivation to get off the duf and walk or something ...but you sound really dedicated this time ..and I commend you for that ...

best wishes in your weight loss hun :cheers2:

natalie jo
 
March till March?! Wow!! Thats dedication! Well done you! I bet you must be so proud of yourself... Hell i know i would be if i had managed that!

Sadly i didn't get around to doing any exercise today... unless i decided to go for a quick swim right after i log off here... which in the mood im feeling right now seems a little unlikely. Had a rubbish day at work... I mean rubbish! Felt in such a bad mood that i wanted to eat the whole house... I'm quite pleased with myself though because i came home and made my dinner (without picking) and didn't gorge on any 'bad' foods at all!! Okay so i may have eaten a little too much for dinner but it was still all healthy stuff! All in all i'm feeling pretty good with myself... kinda. haha

Breakfast:
Small bowl of shreddies and semi skimmed milk

Lunch:
Tin of Soup (85 calories)
apple
Orange

Dinner:
peice of toast with pate on it
bowl of pasta with ham and sausage with (just a little too much) cheese.

Drinks:
2 pints of weak orange squash.
2 cups of coffee
2/3 cups of tea.

Exercise:
none at this presice moment. *cringe*
 
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Pinky said:
March till March?! Wow!! Thats dedication! Well done you! I bet you must be so proud of yourself... Hell i know i would be if i had managed that!

Sadly i didn't get around to doing any exercise today... unless i decided to go for a quick swim right after i log off here... which in the mood im feeling right now seems a little unlikely. Had a rubbish day at work... I mean rubbish! Felt in such a bad mood that i wanted to eat the whole house... I'm quite pleased with myself though because i came home and made my dinner (without picking) and didn't gorge on any 'bad' foods at all!! Okay so i may have eaten a little too much for dinner but it was still all healthy stuff! All in all i'm feeling pretty good with myself... kinda. haha

Breakfast:
Small bowl of shreddies and semi skimmed milk

Lunch:
Tin of Soup (85 calories)
apple
Orange

Dinner:
peice of toast with pate on it
bowl of pasta with ham and sausage with (just a little too much) cheese.

Drinks:
2 pints of weak orange squash.
2 cups of coffee
2/3 cups of tea.

Exercise:
none at this presice moment. *cringe*
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Hiya Pinky,

Sounds like you had a good day eating wise. Good on you!! :hurray: And you will find your exercise eventually. We all like different things, different work out. You will find something that you won't dread. Swimming huh? Where about do you live? Lucky you, be able to swim!! lol I wish I could...lol Right now we are expecting snow flurries tonight. Not much to get in the way of tomorrow's walking. Already did my paper, just need to edit...

I did pretty good with the food today. I have only had breakfast today so far. Going to have a half of a sandwhich with Wheat bread. Whole Wheat, with double the fibre than normal break, one piece of half, 1/2 a slice of prov cheese. Trying not to binge ..

but I must say your menu sounds interesting

Orange Squash? Where did you get that? and how does it taste? I have never heard of Squash juice of any kind ... very interesting... hmm ...

well ttylater hun
have a nice day and evening ..

best wishes :cheers2:
natalie jo
 
Right now i feel like crying.... I'm so ashamed of the amount that i ate today that i can't face putting it up here. :(

I nearly quit at work today because i had such an awful day... ended up shouting at one of my workmates about how he wasn't doing his job properly and that he get off his bottom and start because it was creating a load of hassle for the rest of us... Which is true! He's not the one that has to deal with the customers ringing up and saying bla bla bla hasn't rung me back bla bla bla.... I had a man on the phone shouting and screaming at me for 15 minutes because my workmate hadn't done what he asked... I didn't ask for it! It wasn't my mistake so therefore i shouldn't have had the result of it... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry... i've calmed down now... its just so frustrating. I'm only a temp at where i work which means there are certain things i just cant get away with saying... Its not like i really hate my job.... its just... sometimes i really really cant stand it.

Had to stop off at the shop on the way back for some milk... ended up buying a bag of 10 mini brownies and have just scoffed the lot.... And now i feel miserable.. fat and really alone. :( :(

*sigh*

Sorry... Lets start again.
 
Pinky said:
Right now i feel like crying.... I'm so ashamed of the amount that i ate today that i can't face putting it up here. :(

I nearly quit at work today because i had such an awful day... ended up shouting at one of my workmates about how he wasn't doing his job properly and that he get off his bottom and start because it was creating a load of hassle for the rest of us... Which is true! He's not the one that has to deal with the customers ringing up and saying bla bla bla hasn't rung me back bla bla bla.... I had a man on the phone shouting and screaming at me for 15 minutes because my workmate hadn't done what he asked... I didn't ask for it! It wasn't my mistake so therefore i shouldn't have had the result of it... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry... i've calmed down now... its just so frustrating. I'm only a temp at where i work which means there are certain things i just cant get away with saying... Its not like i really hate my job.... its just... sometimes i really really cant stand it.

Had to stop off at the shop on the way back for some milk... ended up buying a bag of 10 mini brownies and have just scoffed the lot.... And now i feel miserable.. fat and really alone. :( :(

*sigh*

Sorry... Lets start again.
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Hiya Pinky,
Sorry u had such a horrid day!! :grouphug:
I can understand, kind of, I eat out of frustration, saddness, happiness..etc ..so I can understand ...

You may want to read the book I am reading, it has helped me learn, for the most part, how to control my eating behaviors, because it really is behavior and not hunger. Its "mouth hunger" .. not stomach hunger...

mouth hunger is eating out of emotion and pick up the habit and behavior of eating when you are in emotional need, or just plain bored, or procrastinating ..
if any of this sounds familiar ..just ask and I will give you the name of the auther and title of the book ..its not that expensive.. its in paperback ...

Its called Conquering Your Food Addiction.

its helped me, so far I have lost nine pounds. and after I stopped reading it I gained weight back ... I wasn't training myself to think the way I should about food ..so I fell off the wagon ...

but if you want the author or title ...just tell me And I will be more than happy to give you the info ..

anyway ..just think ... tonight will be better ...tomorrow you can start this ... You can do this journey ..it will be hard learning how to eat ..and it will be a long journey ..but if I can do it ...you can do it ..
its hard, but you can do it!!

best wishes
always
natalie jo :grouphug:
 
First of all i want to apologise greatly for yesterdays post. Re-reading it just makes me wanna cringe!!

After i had kinda sat here in a depressed state i actually went and did 15 minutes of stepping on one of those step things....while playing a shooting game on my step brothers xbox... it helped out a lot actually! Think ill have to do it more often. I also went and did 20 crunches and 10 girl push up before bed so i feel a bit happier then i did before.

But thank you so much Natalie Jo for your kinda words... Its nice to know that someone is out there watching out for me. :) I sort of know what my triggers are... it's just trying to stop them before they happen if that make sense... like yesterday i did two of my major triggers before even thinking about them... 1) shopping when hungry, 2) impulse buying because of being hungry.. oh wait... i did 3 triggers! 3) eating when emotional.. hahahah oh what am i like?? A nightmare! But anyways... i kinda got back onto track today so im not worrying too much... so i will just have to keep going!


Breakfast:
Bowl of shreddies with semi skimmed milk

Lunch:
Tin of soup (85 calories)
Packet of crisps (100 calories)
Tub of fruit
Malteasers (160 calories)

Supper:
Small bowl of pasta with a tomatoe sauce, 2 peices of ham and a sprinkle of chedder cheese.
2 mini brownies *cringe*

Drinks:
1lt of orange squash
3 cups of tea
1 small glass of apple juice
1 small glass of water
1 cup of coffee
 
Hey,

I haven't deserted you! Just spent a very busy weekend and hardly had time to get to the computer. I have to say it wasn't a great weekend for diet wise. *sigh* I went out to dinner to a friends house with my man and ended up not only eating far too much but also drinking far far too much red wine! Woke up on sunday morning feeling very very fragile... But i'm pretty much back on track today... excluding my 3 cookies today.... I really fancied something sweet and thats all that was there.

But i've bought myself a new work out dvd. :D Just off to finish the washing up and then will work out to it. Thought i would pop by before hand while i had a minute just to let you all know that i hadn't given up....



Not given up... merely lost the track for a bit. :p
 
Pinky said:
Hey,

I haven't deserted you! Just spent a very busy weekend and hardly had time to get to the computer. I have to say it wasn't a great weekend for diet wise. *sigh* I went out to dinner to a friends house with my man and ended up not only eating far too much but also drinking far far too much red wine! Woke up on sunday morning feeling very very fragile... But i'm pretty much back on track today... excluding my 3 cookies today.... I really fancied something sweet and thats all that was there.

But i've bought myself a new work out dvd. :D Just off to finish the washing up and then will work out to it. Thought i would pop by before hand while i had a minute just to let you all know that i hadn't given up....



Not given up... merely lost the track for a bit. :p
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Hey Pinky!! *waves*

Well you may have lost track, but remember, we all lose track sometimes. It happens hun. And you aren't beating on yourself, because you did, and thats excellent. Very positive!! Awesome! You go girl!! Keep it up!~

and does Red wine taste good? There is another girl on here who loves red wine? I have never tried wine ... just Wine coolers. I dont know if that counts. Are wine cooler like Red wine or anything?

well ttylater hun
always
natalie jo :)
 
Hey nataliejo! :D

Never tried wine??? what not at all!?! I'm shocked! Where do you live? I dont know what wine coolers taste like because i have never tried them i have to admit.. sorry. But red wine is quite strong... i get drunk very easily on it... whoops! he he he.

I kinda found my way to the cookie jar again and ate about four. *looks embaressed* Felt so ashamed about half an hour afterwards that i jumped onto my stepping block and did about 35minutes on it while watching music channels on tv... i actually found it quite good fun and reasonably easy to do! Was sweating by the end of it... but at least i've found something reasonably easy to do exercise wise.

On another note i'm really dissapointed with my work out dvd that i bought... its really hard to follow and the woman's voice annoys me a little. But i'll pick it up again in a couple of days time and try it again.

Breakfast:
A bowl of fruit
1 slice of toast with butter and strawberry jam.

Lunch:
Tin of chicken and noodle soup (85 calories)
a small slice of home made lemon cake.

Supper:
Haven't had it yet!

Drinks:
2ltrs of orange squash
2 cups of tea


Exercise:
35 mins of step-upping! *go me!* hahaha
 
WTG on the excercise! :hurray:

what dvd have you got that you find annoying. i've got nell mcandrews peak energy which is really good. really pushes me!

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Hey everyone!

So sorry i haven't been for a while. I haven't had the internet for the past couple of days. *kicks computer*

The past couple of days have been mixed... I haven't completely blown it but i haven't been really strict with myself. Weighed myself this morning however and i've dropped 3lbs! Wooo! Its just nice to see that something is actually happening. I was beginning to get discouraged again.

The Dvd i got is... erm... i can't remember the girls name! Its called then and now.... she's wearing pink on the cover.. sorry!

Anyways im sorry this is such a rushed entry but i got to go again..

Hopefully catch up soon!
 
Congratulations! I hope seeing some progress gives you motivation because it should! You can do this!
 
Pinky said:
Hey everyone!

So sorry i haven't been for a while. I haven't had the internet for the past couple of days. *kicks computer*

The past couple of days have been mixed... I haven't completely blown it but i haven't been really strict with myself. Weighed myself this morning however and i've dropped 3lbs! Wooo! Its just nice to see that something is actually happening. I was beginning to get discouraged again.

The Dvd i got is... erm... i can't remember the girls name! Its called then and now.... she's wearing pink on the cover.. sorry!

Anyways im sorry this is such a rushed entry but i got to go again..

Hopefully catch up soon!
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Pinky! Whoot Whoot! 3 Pounds down girl!!
When I first started losing weight .. I thought it was going to take forever to lose those first few pounds ... I had only lost .. five pounds from June to August ..and I stopped exercising from discouragement. No movement on the scale sucked. But than I realize I had to recharge my battery and get moving ..and it hurt at first to move, but I did it

and you can do this ..it will take a while .. you may not see results as quick as you may ..sometimes you will lose maybe only two pounds a month ..but every oz is worth jumping up and down exuberantly for Pinky ..so keep trecking hun
we know you can do this
we all believe in you!!
and dont apologize for not being here for a while ...
your doing awesome!
its a slow process as I said ...
keep up the good work hun
Three pounds is a big deal!! :hurray::hurray::hurray:

always
natalie jo :cheers2:
 
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