ski_bunny30
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This is not the first time I have said this and I am 100% sure that it wont be the last but it's time to start again!!!!!
I already had a diary on here but the past few months I have been feeling really down about work issues and financial worries etc and this was coming across in my diary entries and it just wasn't me. So to have everything in the one place here's some background on me:
About 5yrs ago I weighed 251lbs. I went on holiday and the seatbelt on the plane would not fit me so I had to get a special seatbelt for pregnant women. I was so embarrased and I swore then that that would NEVER happen to me ever again. So that's when I decided I had to lose weight. So I lost 14lbs and kinda kept it at around 237lbs for the next 2yrs. Then last year I continued with the weight loss and got down to 196lbs. My gym that I was attending shut down and without the excercise my weight has creeped up and up and up and now I weigh 235.75lbs which means I have put on nearly 40lbs in just over a year. Can you imagine my horror when I seen that on the scale today??? I am so disgusted with myself and I know I had things on my mind regarding my personal life but I have turned into someone who is just not me. Even when I was at my highest recorded weight it wasn't gained through depression, it was gained by boozing when I was in college and constantly feeding hang overs 4-5 days a week - I was just young and having fun so I was not eating out of boredom or depression. But this time it was different. I gained the weight in exactly that way, boredom...maybe not depression as such but just a general unhappines. I cannot go on like this and I certainly don't want to be a person who is scared to go anywhere on holiday in fear of not having the seatbelt fit me.
So I decided to start again. Start a new diary cos the last one was just so depressing reading it and I'm not going to be that person any more. I am going to be me, the happy bubbly person that everyone loves. I've spent the last few months looking for quick fixes and results that I was just not getting. I'm in it for the long haul this time. If it takes me 2yrs to lose the weight...it takes me two years.
My first mini goal....lose 10lbs by Christmas.
Watch this space guys.
I AM WORK IN PROGRESS!!!!!!!!
I already had a diary on here but the past few months I have been feeling really down about work issues and financial worries etc and this was coming across in my diary entries and it just wasn't me. So to have everything in the one place here's some background on me:
About 5yrs ago I weighed 251lbs. I went on holiday and the seatbelt on the plane would not fit me so I had to get a special seatbelt for pregnant women. I was so embarrased and I swore then that that would NEVER happen to me ever again. So that's when I decided I had to lose weight. So I lost 14lbs and kinda kept it at around 237lbs for the next 2yrs. Then last year I continued with the weight loss and got down to 196lbs. My gym that I was attending shut down and without the excercise my weight has creeped up and up and up and now I weigh 235.75lbs which means I have put on nearly 40lbs in just over a year. Can you imagine my horror when I seen that on the scale today??? I am so disgusted with myself and I know I had things on my mind regarding my personal life but I have turned into someone who is just not me. Even when I was at my highest recorded weight it wasn't gained through depression, it was gained by boozing when I was in college and constantly feeding hang overs 4-5 days a week - I was just young and having fun so I was not eating out of boredom or depression. But this time it was different. I gained the weight in exactly that way, boredom...maybe not depression as such but just a general unhappines. I cannot go on like this and I certainly don't want to be a person who is scared to go anywhere on holiday in fear of not having the seatbelt fit me.
So I decided to start again. Start a new diary cos the last one was just so depressing reading it and I'm not going to be that person any more. I am going to be me, the happy bubbly person that everyone loves. I've spent the last few months looking for quick fixes and results that I was just not getting. I'm in it for the long haul this time. If it takes me 2yrs to lose the weight...it takes me two years.
My first mini goal....lose 10lbs by Christmas.
Watch this space guys.
I AM WORK IN PROGRESS!!!!!!!!
OMG I have been the most grumpiest person EVER today!! Talk about being a grumpy gumperson lol! Sods law...yesterday I was only just saying that I was so unhappy etc etc and today it will all change lol! I dunno why I was so grumpy...I'm also feeling kinda sleepy 
Maybe it's just the Monday blues or maybe it's just because it's so dark and miserable all the time. Who knows I'll maybe get an early night tonight and see if that helps.