When Your Fat Jeans Become Your Skinny Jeans

I am in heaven right now... Fat free chocolate pudding cup, a few walnuts, a little bit of shredded coconut... Delicious!!
 
Haven’t posted in nearly a week…

Misc thoughts :
Emotional week last week… I was hormonal, and dealing with stuff with the ex, and due to those two things was acting like a stereotypically over-emotional girl. The result was that I ended up causing issues with the boyfriend which were 100% my fault. He, on the other hand, is just about the most rational and calm human being on earth, and kept things good. Everything is better now, though. Better than better, actually, everything is amazing :)

Food thoughts:
Looking back, last week probably wasn’t AS bad as I think it was, but only because I had nothing in my house to snack on but light popcorn and fat free pudding. Had I gotten my hands on anything else, it would have been ugly. As it was, I didn’t drink any night but Saturday, my portions were overall decent, and my major slip-ups were Reese’s eggs on Tuesday and Friday. Could have been better, could have been worse. I did cut up a whole red pepper one night while I was watching TV. And you know what? It was delicious!

With my plans this week I should have very little time for snacking. I may have a little more alcohol than I generally do, but I should also be running more and eating less frequently. Hopefully it balances out.

Exercise:

Did virtually nothing last week… a few short trips to the elliptical, but that was it. The emotional state I was in would have been improved had I gone for a run, of course, but the motivation was not there. Didn’t get it back until this morning. I set out for an outdoor run, was hoping for close to 5 miles. I use a Nike Plus chip with my ipod that tracks my distance. I don’t ever look at it unless I stop to walk. Didn’t stop today, looked at the end of the run, and it was 6.24 miles. Had NO idea! Thought maybe it was wrong, but mapped it out online and sure enough, 6.24 miles. I always run in the same area but I change up the exact route a little. I took my last run, added a little loop that is apparently 8/10 of a mile, and also avoided a shortcut I took last time that added another mile. It’s amazing when you suddenly realize what you’re capable of. I am SO happy I didn’t go to the gym, because I guarantee you I would have done maybe 2 miles on the treadmill. Instead I got to run outside nice and early, hear some owls hooting, and realize how far I’ve come in the past few months. I don’t recognize it all the time, but it hit me today that I did this, I trained and worked hard and now I can run more than 6 miles without even thinking about it. CRAZY.


Wow... I read on all your post and very inspiring.... I would like to share some thoughts too... And will right inspiring journal like this... Thanks for sharing.. :)

Hi there! Thanks for dropping in! I definitely don’t feel as inspiring now as I may have felt in the beginning, but thank you! I looked for a journal for you but didn’t see one yet… they’re so great, you should definitely start one soon!

I had to chuckle about your klutziness - you sound just like me! I'm forever spilling stuff on myself or other people (or onto my computer!) and am known for tripping over the lint on the carpet. I even once accidently stabbed myself in the chest with a paring knife, and another time stabbed myself in the side of the nose with a grass clippers narrowly missing my eye! Thank goodness I wear glasses normally, or I WOULD have!

I've lost count of how many times I've cut or burned myself while cooking. And not just little cuts either. One time I thought I just knicked my finger, but that darn thing was gushing blood and WOULD NOT STOP! I was running late to pick up the kids, so just wrapped a ton of gauze on it and was heading out the door when I walked past the cutting board and noticed something stuck to the side of the knife that I had left setting there. It was a chunk of my finger! I had cut the whole side of my finger off right next to the fingernail, from the last knuckle to almost the tip. No wonder it wouldn't quit bleeding!

When I brought home a treadmill hubby asked me if I thought that was a wise decision due to my lack of natural gracefullness. Well, I'm proud to say that I've only actually fallen off the thing once! We just won't mention all the near misses I've had though.... :biggrinjester:

TIGTIGTIGTIGTIG! How we miss you when you are away! (I know, I know, I’ve pretty much been gone for a week, too…) Your stories are always so fun to read, hahaha. I don’t feel so bad about a few broken dishes now! I totally cringed at your knife story, that sounds awful. How bad does it hurt to fall off a treadmill???? I thankfully don’t have that experience to deal with! A few near misses, definitely, but (knock on wood) so far nothing major. My computers have definitely gotten more punishment then they deserved… I knocked over a bottle of nail polish remover with acetone on one. Worked just fine but the acetone ate through the plastic in lots of places. I claimed it had leprosy after that!
 
Seeing identical looks of shock on old co-workers' faces when they casually ask if you're still running and you casually tell them yes, you did 6.25 miles this morning - PRICELESS.
 
Seeing identical looks of shock on old co-workers' faces when they casually ask if you're still running and you casually tell them yes, you did 6.25 miles this morning - PRICELESS.

:iagree: I love it when that happens!!! Good for you!

I thought of you this weekend when I was helping my girls clean up their play room - found a ziplock baggie full of petrified gummy bears. I have to confess that I LOVE them when they are old and hard, and hate them when they are fresh and soft. Therefore I must also confess that I ATE THEM ALL!!! :banghead: I hid them behind some toys on a shelf (so I wouldn't have to share with the kids) and as we were cleaning, every time I walked past the shelf I'd grab a few more.

As for how much it hurts to fall off a treadmill.... Actually not as bad as I thought it would. My treadmill used to face away from the doorway, and one time my oldest came in and yelle MOM! I was in the zone and it scared the crap out of me - so I sort of stumbled and stopped running. Shot right off the back! And with the momentum of my body going backwards, and my feet hitting the carpet and coming to a dead stop, I went kerplop! Right on my butt. But I bounce pretty good I guess and hurt my pride more than anything.

Ever since then my treadmill faces the doorway, AND I always lock the door while I'm running.

I'm jealous of your longer runs - all I seem to get time for lately is a quick 3 miles or so (but I make sure to get them in 3 to 4 times a week!). I'm itching to try running outside again before it gets too hot and bugs are so thick that I can't run without swallowing an extra serving of protein in the process.

Enjoy your week!
 
Food thoughts:
Today was the best eating day I’ve had in a while!!!

Breakfast - Coffee with one creamer (10 calories) and a serving and a half of all-bran cereal with skim milk. Went with co-workers for another coffee, with milk, which lasted me til 1:30 in the afternoon (that was about 4 hours later!!)

Lunch - PB&J with one serving of chocolate candy for dessert (although admittedly, I ate the candy before lunch!)

Snack - 4 peanut butter crackers

Dinner - A coffee-cup sized serving of clam chowder, 5 crackers, and two pieces of cheese (I was cleaning out the fridge, basically, haha).

I just finished working out and will probably have a cup of yogurt with a few walnuts for a snack.

Exercise:

Swimming lessons were tonight, so 40 minutes of that. I was treading water for a little while, and we basically just swam the rest of the time, back and forth across the whole pool and then a few times just halfway. Got home and decided to throw on P90X, shoulders and arms. Did that whole video, with the exception of the side tri rises… I do NOT like those. But they’re in the bonus round, so I feel like it’s ok to cheat there.

Misc thoughts :
I have GOT to start getting more sleep. It’s 10:30 right now, I still have to shower quickly, and I get up at 5 am on days that I need to run. Sometimes I feel like I should NOT be working out after swim, but I’m always motivated. I get home around 9, but I gotta take advantage of those times I WANT to be good, right??

Tig, I’ve stumbled on the treadmill tons of times in this new apartment because of being scared by someone coming in!! Not because they’re yelling, just because the door shutting is loud. Good to know that if I ever actually fall, maybe it won’t hurt so bad, haha. Although I do find that most falls hurt your pride a ton more than they hurt your body. Us clumsy folks would know that best, I guess!! And ok, so you’re talking about how it’s pretty much still snowing where you are, but you also have to try to get some outdoor runs in before it gets to hot?? Do you have ANY spring at all or is just winter and summer???
 
Well, it has been a while... Hana, you are always so sweet to check up on me. Sometimes I need a little nudge.

Food has been overall better, but not enough to support weight loss. I don't think, no... I KNOW I never figured out how to keep my food routine good and balanced when running a lot. I have taken pretty much all the junk food out of the apartment though, and now mostly snack on fat-free yogurt with walnuts and bananas, or low-fat/light butter popcorn seasoned with cayenne pepper. Normally I eat a whole bag at a time but last week I managed some portion control and divided it into three containers immediately. But I also was pretty busy for a while, so eating out with friends, co-workers, and the BF was a little excessive. Kept the drinking low on a couple more occasions than I expected. On a night when we had an open bar from 4-7 and the co-workers went out after, I had one drink right at four, left at 6:30, ran 5.5 miles and woke up early the next morning to run 4.5 more.

The relay race is THIS WEEK!!! I did my last long run yesterday. 10 miles on a completely flat beach walkway. A personal best by more than a mile. Was dehydrated and felt very sick for a bit after, but boyfriend fixed me up something to eat that wouldn't hurt my tummy and that made me feel better almost immediately. Weighed in after the run at 141.3. I know that number was falsely low, but it still felt good to see. Truthfully, folks, I've been more like 145 lately. I stopped losing weight months ago, but that also stopped being a goal. I can now run 10 miles, and that's much more important to me than hitting 135.

That being said, I'd still love to see 135 eventually!!!

Hmm, what else... Bought lots of workout clothes last night so I wouldn't feel too frumpy around all these rich foreign colleagues I'll be seeing on Thursday. It is expensive to replace a wardrobe!! I have added a few things here and there but most of my stuff is still too big.

To anyone who may be reading this, especially those with the experience of losing some weight but not a crazy big amount - Did you get rid of all your baggy clothes once you lost weight? I can't decide what to do. I've donated some stuff but only the items that were pretty much always too big. Those things that did fit, and now I'll still wear but probably shouldn't.... I just don't know. I only have a little one bedroom apartment so I don't want to hang on to stuff but I'm definitely still not accepting the fact that I'll never fit into this stuff again. On the other hand, keeping them around means I continue to dress frumpy and have trouble convincing myself to buy new stuff. I don't know what to do!!
 
Had quite the snack-y day today. As I lay in bed feeling bloated and yucky, I decided to download a calorie counting app, with the hope that I can get over the need to be exact in all of my calculations. A rough estimate is good enough, right? Better than nothing, anyway. Take today.. My rough estimate of 2,500 is enough for me to know I did something wrong. Argh!!!
 
Laura.. I am trying to burn my bridges.. I got rid of most of my BIGGEST cloths (Like size 18 and 20) because I find that if I'm having a 'fat day' I would go rummaging through my closet for something more comfortable, then end up wearing those pants all the time, and absent mindedly throwing out all my smaller clothes and buying ones that fit!

I'm not confident about this, and I did save a few pairs of pants because I wanted to take after shots and sometimes remind myself how big I used to be :) But I also made this goal not to buy a size larger then 14 because its sooo easy to think, oh that 14 runs small, I should get a 16 till soon all 16's are running small! Aaaaah....

I know you can do it!!! Heres a match... hehehe
 
Definitely get rid of your biggest clothes if they are really huge and a long way from where you are now. There's no way you are going back. Commit yourself to staying within your healthy weight range. Get inside it and stay there. Never not weigh yourself because you binged or something.

That said, I've got one pair of size 14 winter jeans that i keep. I haven't worn them for a few years now but they are the sort of thing, that i would be pleased to have on hand if things went really wrong - but i do'nt expect them to.

So i say just keep a few classic non-descript expensive-to-replace sets of clothes - particularly if its something like a suit for work. Jumpers, and knit tops and tshirts are easy to always find cheap. Just keep the odd trousers or skirt. But not too much.

Get rid of as much as possible but keep a bit in the size one or two up from where you are now.

Always weigh yourself as i said above.

I know you say you are a bit lacking in motivation at the moment and are not losing anyway.

I wonder if you eating could use a bit of a shake up from what i can see.

Can you give up the PB and J sandwiches and eat something better, ditto the deserts and peanut butter crackers.

I"ve just posted a link to a new diet book that i strongly recommend in the ON topic section. You might want to take a look at the sample meal plans.

I think its great that you are taking swimming lessons. Swimming is such a beautiful thing. And i always feel sorry for people who are not good swimmers and can't appreciate the sensuality of swimming because of fear of the water or physical weakness or even poor technique. I hope you keep going til you are a strong swimmer.
 
Last night's snacking did a number on me... Mental note - need to remember this feeling, ugh. I think I may have a slight intolerance to dairy, too. Been trying to keep track of foods that have been causing unpleasant intestinal issues, and so far the major common threads have been milk, cheese, and lettuce. I read online that the stuff many restaurants wash lettuce in causes some people to have problems, and we have catered lunches with salads once a week at work. May avoid that for a while. My sources weren't exactly reliable, but it's worth a shot.
 
Yay, you're back! Chuck your clothes out! BURN THEMMMMM!!! You'll never go back!

My friend just found out at 24 that she's intolerant to dairy :/ Maybe go doctor? x
 
Yay, you're back! Chuck your clothes out! BURN THEMMMMM!!! You'll never go back!

My friend just found out at 24 that she's intolerant to dairy :/ Maybe go doctor? x

I'm always lurking, but I definitely go in spurts with posting!!

My friend has been going through similar issues with foods bothering her, and her doctor just keeps saying to keep a detailed food diary so she can tell what's likely bothering her. That's what made me decide to start keeping track of my issues, too. It's not awful... Just unpleasant! Hopefully I can get things taken care of on my own by adjusting my diet slightly. Good thing I love soy milk! Just not in coffee, blech.

In other news, I am headed off to sunny Florida next week and just realized I don't have many cute warm-weather clothes. Shopping trip at lunch?? Yay!!
 
Final relay race preparations have begun! For a 24 hour event, packing is tough. Of course, I leave Boston at 7 am tomorrow (Thursday) and don't come back til 4 on Sunday, so it's more than a 24 hour trip. But packing to run three times and to stay overnight in a van is tricky. You need to be as much of a minimalist as possible, while having enough to keep yourself comfortable. I'm more stressed about packing than running, that's for sure, haha. Who would have thought that would be the case???
 
Hey Laura! How did the run go this weekend??? I can't wait to hear...

Sounds like you are doing the same as me - just maintaining 10 lbs from goal, but not too terribly worried about it. If you find some extra motivation somewhere to get that last 10 off, please send some my way!
 
How's running going Laura?? It's awesome that you're so committed!! How are you training for the races? Oh, and to answer your post about clothes, I would give up the old ones...will fuel your motivation I think! Hope life is treating you well! Will post again soon! =)
 
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