What matters most is how well you walk through the fire.

[Artsytown]

And so it begins.

Go little smiley, go.

So...I'm overweight, as many of you are. I'm not particularly proud of it, nor do I enjoy being all jiggly. Honestly, I've been so oblivious to the world for the past year and a half I barely noticed myself gaining it. Then, as so many do, I woke up one day, looked down and said "Holy sh!t. What the Hell happened to me?" Whiiiiiich resulted in more depression. (That is a battle I may never win, but one thing at a time. Lordy.)

A couple weeks ago, I felt a little bit more like the self I was a few years ago. At that point, I became royally pissed. How in the woooooorld had I gone from a dancer and martial artist to this blob sitting on the couch? Where did all that sh!t around the middle COME from?

Oh yeah.

Thus, I have decided to get my rather large ass in gear. I'm only twenty-three, for goodness sake! I should be enjoying waking up in the morning, not dreading it. I should be enjoying going to see people I know and love, not being paranoid about what they're going to think of me. And I should love myself.

I don't want to waste my life. So I won't.

Weeeeeeeeee!

 

[Camy]

Gppd fpr you for deciding to change your lifestyle in order to be who you really are (dancer and martial artist) underneath the chub.

I can see you already made it out of the 40 BMI category and I wanted to say congrats for that: awesome!

I am also 23, and while my weightloss is peanuts in comparison to your project, I think it is a good age. For me it fit nicely into my life because I am not a fully grown adult yet (or so I tell myself), I was finishing college and now I started my non-college life (complete with new house, new car (soon), new job, new country, new continent even) being 20 pounds lighter and a new me. One that loves herself and how she looks, one that makes an effort to look pretty.
I also had given up on myself, I never wore any makeup because I told myself "why make the effort, I am still going to be a fat ugly person", I dressed in giant sweatshirts a basically never tried to look nice. I think I had a tad of depression going on, but as soon as I started losing the weight and showed myself how I COULD do it and how great I felt and how I could be proud of myself, I started to feel worth "it" again.
I really hope you experience a similar journey. You deserve it!

And yesterday (I am going to brag) for the first time I managed to hike/climb for 4 hours, something I did not think I could do and I am sure I could not do 25 pounds ago, but I managed.

I would love it if you shared what your "plan of action" is: what in your diet do you need to change? How will you do that? Will you exercise? If yes, what are you planning on doing? Who is your support network?

Have a great week, I will certainly pop back in to see how you are doing,
love, Camy

 

[Artsytown]

Gppd fpr you for deciding to change your lifestyle in order to be who you really are (dancer and martial artist) underneath the chub.

I can see you already made it out of the 40 BMI category and I wanted to say congrats for that: awesome!

Why thank you! I'm ready to let her out again, and I'm glad I've gotten out of that category as well. Now I'm just obese as opposed to morbidly so. XD

I am also 23, and while my weightloss is peanuts in comparison to your project, I think it is a good age. For me it fit nicely into my life because I am not a fully grown adult yet (or so I tell myself), I was finishing college and now I started my non-college life (complete with new house, new car (soon), new job, new country, new continent even) being 20 pounds lighter and a new me. One that loves herself and how she looks, one that makes an effort to look pretty.
I also had given up on myself, I never wore any makeup because I told myself "why make the effort, I am still going to be a fat ugly person", I dressed in giant sweatshirts a basically never tried to look nice. I think I had a tad of depression going on, but as soon as I started losing the weight and showed myself how I COULD do it and how great I felt and how I could be proud of myself, I started to feel worth "it" again.
I really hope you experience a similar journey. You deserve it!

That's exactly how I feel and what I do. My hair is always up, no make up, big baggy clothes...I'm right sick of it, myself. I'm hoping it goes as well as it seems to have gone for you!

And yesterday (I am going to brag) for the first time I managed to hike/climb for 4 hours, something I did not think I could do and I am sure I could not do 25 pounds ago, but I managed.

Brag away! That's a real accomplishment. You should be proud!

I would love it if you shared what your "plan of action" is: what in your diet do you need to change? How will you do that? Will you exercise? If yes, what are you planning on doing? Who is your support network?

My plan of action is really simple: cut out most of the processed foods, soda, etc., monitor my caloric intake, and dance my ass off for the next -insert number- months. Toss in a little weight training and pilates here and there and bamph!

I'm stubborn. It'll get done. It will take me awhile, but it will.

As far as my support network goes my husband is behind me but the majority of my friends and family don't really know how much I've gained. My husband is military and I haven't been home in over a year...no one has seen me, and I'm far too embarrassed to mention it. I'm not very close with my family and although I'm sure they love me at least materially, I'm finding it very difficult to open up about it considering their feelings on the subject. Unfortunately, no one on my mother's side of the family has this problem (and I don't see my father's so they don't really count) and there is very little understanding from my 5'4" 120lb mother, 5'5" 130lb grandmother and my 5'0" 109lb sister. (I'm 5'8" and currently 260. I would think that I was adopted were it not for having met my father several years ago. O.O) As for my friends, most of them are also theater nerds/dancers/a combination of both so while they understand how difficult it is to maintain weight none of them have had to lose a large chunk. That's where I'm hoping that perhaps this place might come in, at least a little. I know that people here will understand how I'm feeling and what I'm going through. I don't expect some sort of crazy love and hugs and bunnies type deal with this site -I'd probably run for the door were that the case...- but just having that understanding will do for me.

Have a great week, I will certainly pop back in to see how you are doing,
love, Camy

Thank you, I really appreciate that.

 

[Alta818]

WELCOME !!!! Glad you made it here, and Glad to hear you want change!!!! You go girl, you can do this!!!

 

[lena410]

welcome and good luck with your goals. we'll be here to support you
Lena