My activating event:
I tried on my wedding dress (which i brought on line) and thought i looked fantastic, i then tried it on at my friends house with a different mirror and someone of normal healthy size standing next to me and i realised (yes it was a BIG realisation and one i had successfully denied for a long time) i was really, truely FAT, and that i would look like the Good Year Blimp travelling down the isle.
It wasn't so much the thought of being the Good Year Blimp that motivated me, but rather finally accepting the truth and reality of the size i had become.
(My mother reckon's we have some kind of reverse anorexia which we pass on daughter to daughter - in that we eat and eat and get fat, but think we are still a healthy and attractive size. So my self perception and high self confidence just masked the truth!)
I decided to join Weight Watchers or Jenny Craig and so i googled "Weight Loss" and explored all the different options, i found the actual Cohen's site and read all the success stories.
I then researched as much as i could over the net...Including many hours of pouring over these pages.... Found a clinic locally, rung and asked as many difficult questions as i could possibly think of, and took the jump!
I must add, it wasn't so much of a jump as an educated decision armed with the knowledge that if i didn't do something fast i would regret it for the rest of my life.
I made the choice and am sticking to it. It's time to not just FEEL like i'm healthy, sexy and attractive but to actually REALLY AND TRUELY BE healthy, sexy and attractive!
Previously i had made attempts to loose weight as i found it more and more difficult to haul my big bargey arse up onto my horse.... but after i lost weight i would celebrate with a night out at a fancy resturant, or a weekend away devoring Cheeses, Pate, Antipasto, Crackers and loads of Red Wine.... Basically a Weight re-gaining cocktail!
Iv'e had to wake up to myself, do a bit of soul searching and make the decision.
I will get to my ideal weight which is 57-59kg!
I can't remember when i was that weight, but hey, i'm looking forward to both the journey and the arrival. As Lessfatty say's "Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels!"