Hmmm...where to begin? lol...
For starters:
I tend to try to walk fast to whereever I go..now I have no trouble...but soemtimes I get out of breath really quick...and if its a warm day...perspirations a problem. But it's no problem right? Wrong...I perspire like noone else's business..and I hate it...I get so embarrased.
I play tennis a lot...and frequently on a non beginner's level. After tennis day, my knees KILL me while walking up stairs...after 1 day it heals.
I'm a paranoid freak...if I see someone to happens to look at me..I begin to wonder what they're thinking...something like "wow look at that fatass...can't he lose some weight???" etc...
When I sit on the metro bus to go to class, sometimes the chairs sqweak....I get embarrased thinking its my weight causing the problem and probably it is...
I loathe eating in public...even drinking anything other than water...I eat everything either at home or alone by myself when outdoors at school etc.
Clothes is a no brainer...I hate shopping at casual male...but im almost to the point where I can get 2-3 XLs and itll fit me, what a relief!
I've had trouble holding a job for more than 2 months. I have a big self esteem issue where I hate myself to the point where I think im no longer qualified for the job because I'm ugly/fat, and my clothes don't fit properly.
Thats all for now im sure theres more...ill be back to finish it up.
edit: back for more.
Sitting in public places especially in class rooms; i swear some seats are designed only for anorexic people, even the skinny people complain!
I dislike the way my parents respond to my weight. I love my mom to death, but she sometimes can worry too much for me and it gets me sad. She's spent so much money to aid my weightloss, and i think if I don't lose it for her, shes going to stress herself out.
My father on the other hand....is very verbal abusive. He doesnt support me at all, and I could care less whether he loves me or not. He has been nothing but a negative thorn in my life.
My brother, he wants me to lose weight and I want to lose it for him. He has never told me, but Id like for him to be not embarrased when his friends come over and he introduces me to them as his older brother.
Meeting old friends and relatives....its really hard

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My biggest fear is summer. I hate doing out on hot weather with a t shirt on. I soo hate the way I look in a t shirt. I so hate the way I look PERIOD.
Anyways...its late and thats my rant. Ill think up somemore.