fetthaltig
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I'm so tired of being a depressed, self destructive, fat sack of crap. In the past, I was able to lose a decent amount of weight (27lb), but I guess I must have some emotional baggage from a family issue, because I can NOT get back on track and it's seriously ridiculous. It shouldn't be that hard to just NOT EAT SO MUCH and maybe MOVE once in a while.
Right now, physically, I just feel horrible. My back hurts really bad, I never have energy, I'm always physically and mentally tired or in a fog, with aches and pains or just no motivation. I also do get sick easily, so doing much outside until it warms up a little more is kind of a "well, what's it look like outside today?" day by day thing.
My boyfriend is great, but we never have sex. Part of it is due to his job and the medicine he takes for depression. There's no way that the other part of it isn't me just being unattractive. We have a good relationship and I love him. Don't want to lose him. So, there's that, too. You would think I'd be willing to do it for him, at least, but STILL I can't get my shit together.
I don't have the money or time to see a therapist. My health is fine, I'm just fat. And I'm on meds for depression. I'm usually OK, when I remember to take them. I just need to do it.
I don't know, can someone maybe kick me in the ass or something? Because I'm afraid I'm going to just come home with Tim Horton's again. Yeah I feel bad about it now, but once I have it, the bad feelings are gone and I'm happy. That isn't normal.
I need to leave for work now.
Fuck me.
Right now, physically, I just feel horrible. My back hurts really bad, I never have energy, I'm always physically and mentally tired or in a fog, with aches and pains or just no motivation. I also do get sick easily, so doing much outside until it warms up a little more is kind of a "well, what's it look like outside today?" day by day thing.
My boyfriend is great, but we never have sex. Part of it is due to his job and the medicine he takes for depression. There's no way that the other part of it isn't me just being unattractive. We have a good relationship and I love him. Don't want to lose him. So, there's that, too. You would think I'd be willing to do it for him, at least, but STILL I can't get my shit together.
I don't have the money or time to see a therapist. My health is fine, I'm just fat. And I'm on meds for depression. I'm usually OK, when I remember to take them. I just need to do it.
I don't know, can someone maybe kick me in the ass or something? Because I'm afraid I'm going to just come home with Tim Horton's again. Yeah I feel bad about it now, but once I have it, the bad feelings are gone and I'm happy. That isn't normal.
I need to leave for work now.
Fuck me.