Weight Loss/Gain and Self Esteem

SammyGetsFit

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Hey everyone!

This is my first post and I figured I would start with a little introduction. My name is Sam, I'm from NY and I have struggled with my weight of the past 8 years or so. I'm very petite, only 4'11, and currently weigh almost 160lbs, which is the heaviest I've been.
When I was 24 I was diagnosed with depression. At that time, as far as by body was concerned, I was a healthy 115-120lbs. Even though I was not in the best state mentally, I was still working out regularly, and even though I was a huge junk food eater, I was able to maintain a steady weight.
After my diagnosis, I began taking Zoloft, and noticed a slow but steady weight gain. It's been 4 years, and within that time, I have gained about 40lbs.
I'm no longer a huge snacker, but my cravings turned to fast food. I was eating McDonald's at least once a week or more. I knew it was becoming an issue when I became friendly with the drive trough guy, and felt ashamed each time I ordered a meal. It even got so bad that I was driving to different locations to avoid anyone recognizing me, and lying to my family that I had eaten a healthy dinner.
I am so thankful to my therapist and doctor for helping me improve my moods, and that I don't feel upset and tearful all the time anymore. It's been very significant and totally life changing. However, whenever I look in the mirror, it knocks my self esteem down a few pegs that the reflection I see does not match how I feel inside.
About a year ago, I found a wonderful group of ladies called Fit Girls Guide. I stuck with the program for about 2 months, and was beginning to notice changes. But then of course I fell off track with the holidays and eating out with friends often. So I've decided to rededicate myself to the program and try to stay positive, exercise regularly, eat healthy, and true that the results will come.
I read somewhere once that it takes 21 days to break or make a habit. So I'm trying to give up by fast food habit and started doing beginners yoga! Taking it one day at a time and being forgiving and gentle with myself.
Anyway, I'm excited to become a member of this weight loss community and share in the success of others!
 
Hi Sam - so glad you're here :) What does the programme involve? Is a mix of exercise and calorie counting?
 
Hi Sam - so glad you're here :) What does the programme involve? Is a mix of exercise and calorie counting?
Hi Sunflower!
Thanks! Good to be here!
No calorie counting. It's a mix of daily workouts ( all things you can do with your own body in your own home. No equipment needed) and healthy recipes that already have the calorie math figured out for you! Honestly, the recipes are easy to make and delicious! I'm using their 28 day jumpstart ebook. All the months recipes, grocery lists, meal prep and workout guides are included. Makes it super simple! You can follow them on instagram @fitgirlsguide. It's another supportive weightloss community, so you can follow the same program with other women all over the world.
 
Hi Sam, & welcome to the forum.
I am so thankful to my therapist and doctor for helping me improve my moods, and that I don't feel upset and tearful all the time anymore. It's been very significant and totally life changing.
I'm so glad that you have received the right help. Depression sucks. You sound like you are in the right place mentally to get back to being healthy & I wish you well. You will do this Sam, I'm sure. Welcome to our part of the world, xo Cate
 
Hi Sam, & welcome to the forum.

I'm so glad that you have received the right help. Depression sucks. You sound like you are in the right place mentally to get back to being healthy & I wish you well. You will do this Sam, I'm sure. Welcome to our part of the world, xo Cate
Thank you for the kind words Cate!
 
Well, this first week of getting back on track has gone pretty well! I got my exercise in each day, and I have been alternating between beginners yoga and zumba. Both are making me feel great at the end of the workout, but it's also made me realize how little I've been using my body! I used to be a very flexible person, and now even the most basic of yoga moves are difficult. I'm excited to see how much I progress with time.
Eating has been a bit of a challenge. I think I did quite well with the fit girls guide meals I laid out for myself this week. Yesterday was the only day I cheated, and it was a big cheat! Now on to another week and hoping I can keep the positivity going! :hurray:
 
Alternating beginners yoga & Zumba? Jealous :) Exercise makes you feel SO much better about everything. You can keep this going Sam!
 
Hey Sam (I'm also Sam), what you're describing with depression is REALLY normal. We start to feel better and food is yummy - whereas when you're depressed, you're clinging to things you can control (like food) or just don't want to eat. It's such a battle but it does get easier as you're starting to see :)

Congrats on having such a good week! The first couple of weeks are always hardest - after that, it starts to become a habit (especially when you start feeling the benefits).

I'm not a Zumba fan but I am a fan of whatever works for you, keep on doing it!!! That's awesome that you've found something you enjoy and like!

Take care and have a great week.
 
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