Today I had very nice lunch. I had green salad with cucumber and tomatoes, 2 sausages and some potatoes. I also had a slice of bread. I used olive oil as spread on the bread (still avoiding milk for stomach issues) and on the salad. In the evening I had a lovely salad with tomatoes, cucumer and seeds. If you probablz noticed, so far I was eating only once a day, which it is 1) not healthy at all, and 2) it causes binges at some point. So I am introducing other meals little by little. My goal is to reach the 5 meals per day recommanded by the doctors. 3 main ones and 2 light snacks. Today I had Zumba classes and run for 3km on the treadmil. Actually I planned to run 7km, but I could not manage to set the right input in the machine. Arghh!! Once I thought of restarting over, but I already stopped and my legs started to fill the pain after the Zumba class. Tomorrow I will run 7km, no matter what. Today while I was at the Zumba class I was brave and went in the first raw just behing the trainer. I am not crazy about Zumba, in fact I don’t like at all. But I know it is good for me, expecially because I am not coordinated at all. I never had any kind of dance course in my life, and I noticed it helps a lot with being more coordinated and even with balance (another thing I suck at). The ironic part was that today I was also wearing much tider cloths than usual (I forgot to do my gym bag the day before). While I was jumping and following all the movements I also looked to myself in the mirror. It is something I try not to do, because usually I get really demotivated. I see myself as far and I body shame myself in my mind. Today was different. I saw myself in such tidy cloths and I thought “hey, not THAT bad”. I still had some fat roll showing when I bended and all, but I noticed I actually have pretty long tapered (?) legs. Also my arms are pretty long. I should tone them up because they do look floppy. What I thought was my worse part ever was my core. It is not good looking, but in such tide cloths, it was not THAT BAD. So I thought, what if I only would need to tone up and not actually lose weight? I mean, I have always liked the idea of not being a slave of the number of the scale. Whatever it is, 50, 60, 70… if you feel good and you look good in your opinion, whatever number the scale says, it is fine. But sometimes listening to that number it is just easy. After all, how can you easily measure how “toned up” you are? There is not really a scale for that. So many factors affect how you perform a workout, so the scale it is just easier as a reference. However I should try not to think too much of numbers and go with how I feel (I love how exercise and runs make me feel) and how I think I look.