Hi, My name is Casandra! I am 20 years old. I am currently living in the UAE. When i was about 14 through 18, I was perfect weight. I never had a problem with my weight. One day, when i was about 16, I decided I thought i was fat, and started to starve myself in order to lose weight. I lost enough weight for people to notice. As I grew out of 16, and into 17, I picked up on the fact that you can eat whatever u want as long as you work out. So, i ate, but worked out like crazy, people thought i was break down cuz of how much i worked out. anyway, that went well, until we moved over here. When i moved over here, i lost control of my eating and exercise, because the envirnment does not encourage any sort of physical activity, and i got depressed and just started to eat carelessly. I then went ot another country close by, and stayed with family there. I thought, this is my chance to do the starving again, sicen my family is not around. So for two months, i starved myself, losing a good amount of weight, again, enough for people to notice and worry. People started to pick up on my eating behavior, and how i go days without eating, they started to worry, almost sent me to a doctor, but i assured them i was fine, and they beleived me!! (sigh)..
After those two months, i get back to my family in this country, and start university. But my eating was again out of control, i just keep eating and eating..like there is a whole in my stomach. So, in order to make up for al the eating i did, i started my own aerobics program to stay fit, and did so. Unfortunately, i got that feeling of needing to be thinner again, but this time went on a diet. I tried the low carb thing for abou a year off and on. Dong it off and on causedme to gain like 20 pounds. OMG. Now, I am back to normal. Have been for 2 days. I work out every day, and try to eat normal. But i am frustrated. I am so sick of doing this. My family thinks I am crazy and sick for thinking the way i think, but i told them i can't help it. I told them that i am bored, and can't stand living here, and it is the reason why i have this problem. I am so bored, i am depressed, and use food to comfort me.
What should I do?? I know that low carb diets work, cuz they worked for me, but i could never stick to them. and that caused me to gain weight at the end. Every time I think about my weight it makes me want to do drastic thigns, like taking diet pills, or starving myself, or going back to low carb again.
I need help from all of you! You guys may be my lifesavers.
Thanks for reading.
Casandra
After those two months, i get back to my family in this country, and start university. But my eating was again out of control, i just keep eating and eating..like there is a whole in my stomach. So, in order to make up for al the eating i did, i started my own aerobics program to stay fit, and did so. Unfortunately, i got that feeling of needing to be thinner again, but this time went on a diet. I tried the low carb thing for abou a year off and on. Dong it off and on causedme to gain like 20 pounds. OMG. Now, I am back to normal. Have been for 2 days. I work out every day, and try to eat normal. But i am frustrated. I am so sick of doing this. My family thinks I am crazy and sick for thinking the way i think, but i told them i can't help it. I told them that i am bored, and can't stand living here, and it is the reason why i have this problem. I am so bored, i am depressed, and use food to comfort me.
What should I do?? I know that low carb diets work, cuz they worked for me, but i could never stick to them. and that caused me to gain weight at the end. Every time I think about my weight it makes me want to do drastic thigns, like taking diet pills, or starving myself, or going back to low carb again.
I need help from all of you! You guys may be my lifesavers.
Thanks for reading.
Casandra