Transformation: Katie is alive...

protectiva

protectiva

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Well, today was actually my third day of being on Katie's Transformation Program, and it has not been easy, but it has been rewarding. Someone once told me that if you can do something for two weeks, it gets a lot easier, and something for three weeks becomes a habit. Well, I am still far from two weeks, so it isn't easy. I can't wait until it's a habit.

(woo hoo)

For breakfast today I had 3/4 of a protein bar. It was a pretty good protein bar. For a protein bar, anyway. As good as they can get. No wait, the Balance Golden is best, this one was no Balance Golden, but it was good enough. I was not hungry after eating 3/4 of it, which was great. I think my stomach might be shrinking. This happens if you aren't eating large portions, right?

For lunch, I had some barbecued chicken, rice, cabbage, and macaroni salad from Ono Hawaiian BBQ. If you haven't been to this place, you should go. It is very tasty food and their menu is pretty healthy, mostly just rice and meat and vegetables, unless you get something fried.

For dinner I had an apple and a bran muffin with butter. I thought about having a cookie and a glass of milk later in the evening, like about 1/2 hour ago, but decided against it. Not eating after 7 is part of The Program. I must listen to the Maker of the Program....

which is myself. So anyway, I didn't have the cookie and milk and I was very happy about it. My stomach feels sort of empty and growly now, but I kind of like that feeling. It makes me feel fiery. I think in aruyveda that feeling is called the digestive fire. You want it to be well stoked.

I think that's what they say.

But anyway, I also weighed myself today and I lost 3 pounds since yesterday. And yes, probably that is mostly due to just regular fluctuation or water weight or whatever, but I will take the 3-pound loss and be happy.

Also

I think on here somebody said something about taking a 5-day average to weed out the daily fluctuations and stop them from messing up your data. So, I will try and do that, get a 5-day average.

But I still am very happy about the three-pound drop, because maybe some of it wasn't normal fluctuation.
 
Congrats on resisting your cookie craving! It sounds like your calories are pretty low though. You really only had one meal. I suggest little snacks throughout the day (like fruits and veggies) to keep your cals within a nice range. :) I'm not the best at that myself... I often end up only eating three times a day. But it's really much better for your body to eat 5 little meals/snacks.
I like what you said about it getting easier after 2 weeks and becoming a habit after 3 weeks. It really is true! Keep trying and you'll get there. Thanks for stopping by my diary. :D
 
Well, today there was a potluck at work, and despite all of my tough words on here, I didn't exactly resist temptation. I ate a lot of unhealthy food. I feel too embarrassed to go into detail here, but suffice it to say, I ate a lot of things I am trying to avoid.

So, that was like
oops

BUT, the good thing was that I didn't eat until i was stuffed, which I usually do once I start eating bad. Usually what happens is, I cheat a little bit and then I go cuckoo bananas and go on a big binge, eating so much that my stomach hurts at the end of it, and I feel miserable. And then usually, once I have done this once, I continue to do it for the rest of the day, with a constant stream of food into my already full belly, with a great big Fast Food Ben and Jerry's Extravaganza at the end of the day which takes the place of a workout because I am feeling so weighted down physically and mentally with a promise to myself that I will

that's right...

start over tomorrow with a clean slate. I can't even tell you how many times I have done this.

But today, after work, I still went to the gym for a full cardio workout, did NOT eat anything except for a pear for dinner after the potluck mistake. When I weighed myself today (after the potluck), I weighed 164.5. That is up 1.5 pounds from yesterday, but is still lower than my starting weight of 166 on Monday of this week. So, I am glad. If I had followed my usual pattern after I cheat, I would have not gone to the gym, not eaten the healthy pear, and I would have definitely gained back all of the weight and then some.

So anyway, today wasn't as good as it could have been food wise, but I didn't go off the deep end like I usually do once I cheat.
 
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Hello! I just wanted to drop in here. I've seen you around others diaries quite a bit, so I thought I'd say HI!:)
 
Hi Mechelle

I will need to peep your diary a bit later. Thanks for saying hi. I really like this diary thing--it helps to keep you accountable. and it's free! so who can beat that?

So...

this morning when I woke up, my stomach looked visibly flatter than usual, so that was great, very encouraging. There is actually a scale at my work that I use to weigh myself, so I will be doing that a little later this morning. I really, really want it to be 164 or lower. I really, really hope so (please, baby please!)

But no matter what the scale says, my stomach definitely does look flatter. If this keeps up, I will be able to bare my belly in another week or maybe two. Which is great. Because I love to dress sexy, but I will not do it unless I know I look good. Nothing's worse than seeing someone in denial about the way their body looks. I don't want to be one of THOSE chicks. So, here's to a good weigh-in in an hour and a half....

=)
 
Hi!

I'm pretty new here and just thought I'd come give a little support. We all have the days when things just don't go right and our will power isn't the greatest! We just have to pick back up as soon as possible and keep moving towards our final destination which isn't just a # on a scale, but a healthier more fulfilling lifestyle both physically and mentally!

I have found that I really love the diary aspect; and since starting mine a few days ago, I too realized how embarassing it is that you ate more than you should have and don't want to even bring up. I thought about not posting it, but I thought that for me if I "denied" (didn't write it down) that I would allow myself to do this in the future (not making any assumptions about you or others here; I just know how I am).

Anyway, welcome aboard and hope to see you around!
 
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woo hoo! On the scale at work I weighed 164 pounds. That means 2 pounds lost since I started on Monday, and, if I average out all of my weights, I get 164.4. So that is great. I still have two and a half more days too, to get more weight off.

Also, at work today, my coworker told me, out of the blue, that I looked thinner. I was talking about something, and she interrupted me mid-sentence to tell me, and I have not been telling her that I have been trying to lose weight. So that was really cool! I have a party I am going to tomorrow, so maybe I will buy a new outfit to wear and feel cute in.

And yes, photocrazed, you are right, having to admit publicly that you messed up is good, makes you less likely to do it again, or, like in my case, less likely to mess up for the rest of the day because you want to say SOMETHING redeeming about yourself after you've made a pig out of yourself, lol!
 
Congrats on the 2 lb weight loss! Way to go! I'm glad to see that you're being realistic about the potluck incident - you realize you overindulged but you're not beating yourself up and you went ahead with your workout anyway. That's the right attitude. Keep it up!
 
oh HELL yes...

162.5

that's right... woo hoo! And this is what I had yesterday:

Trail mix for breakfast
Banana for mid morning snack
Calzone and shrimp for lunch
Trail mix for afternoon snack
nothing else after this...

So that means that I have lost 3.5 pounds since Monday. This is great! And the five day average is: 164. So, that is a good baseline. I am so excited!

My friend lent me this book last night too called "The Four Agreements." I can't wait to get started on it. It has nothing to do with weight loss, it's more of like a guide to life. I am probably going to start reading that this morning, go the gym, run other errands and then go out later to my friend's Bday party.

=)
 
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Who needs friends like this?

You know, I am getting frustrated with one of my friends, we'll call her Melissa. I come out of the bathroom all happy because I had lost some more weight, and she says

"I can still be happy for you because I weigh less than you."

And then she giggles like it's real funny and she says something along the lines of, at least I'm honest or whatever.

And I thought

you know what, that's fucked up. And it is a pattern with her. It's like she can't stand it if something is going good for me, unless it's something with my work. But if it's anything with my body or my looks or male attention, she has to make some sort of biting comment. It's real weird, because other than this, she is nice and sweet, but in these areas, the claws come out. It really sucks. If I say I get a raise at my job, she's happy and seems geuniunely cool with it, but if I meet a cool guy that I am interested in, or I lose weight, or get a new haircut that I feel good about or anything like this, she has to be so mean, or bring up how much better her boyfriend is than any guys I am interested in or how long and beautiful her hair is or how she weighs less than I do. I guess that makes sense because looks and relationships are major areas where women get their self-esteem (men are the ones who draw a lot of self-esteem from work, or so I have heard), but

dude

it's like

get some self-esteem and just be cool. I don't think I will share any good news with her anymore unless it's work-related. I will keep everything else to myself and share it with people who won't have to be Ms. Buzzkill.

...::k::..
 
I totally agree!!

Who does need friends like that! Wow!

I wonder if she even knows that she makes the biting comments that she is making when you are being successful in those particular areas?! It seems crass that she would even bring out the "I... still.... weigh less than you" card.

You are doing a great job 3.5 lbs in one week is awesome especially when doing it the right way and for the right reasons!

Keep up the great work!
 
Dang! I think I would have had to tell her exactly what I thought about that comment. Good for you taking the high road.

& you can share all your successes with us on here.

Congrats on the loss!
 
oh no! i cheated again

crap~! I overate too much today. It wasn't by much, probably no more than 570 calories, but that still is overmuch. I am disappointed in myself. I will have to make up for it somehow.

Tomorrow was going to be a day I rewarded myself with anything to eat that I wanted, that's what Sundays are on my little "program," days of purposeful "cheating" so that I can stay good the rest of the week, but you know what? Instead of doing that tomorrow, as consequence for my slipping up twice this week, I am going to fast all day Sunday. That's right, fast.
All day. No food, nothing. i will drink lots of water, but not food.

I know, I know, that's kind of extreme, and I am sure many of you will want to give me kind warnings about letting my metabolism slow down and my body go into starvation mode, and I appreciate it and understand why you are saying it, but seriously, this is something I need to do to teach myself a lesson and make it so that I will not be able to cheat. Sundays are supposed to be something I look forward to as a reward, so not getting it and having to restrict myself instead of indulge myself will make me remember. So, while it will be hard, it iwll be worth it. And also that way I will be sure that I will continue losing weight and still weigh less than I did a week ago instead of gaining it back. Actually, probably I will be lower on Monday than I am today if I fast all day tomorrow.

I will let you know how it turns out. Try and be hopeful for me even though many of you probably disapprove of fasting.
 
Many people fast for different reasons. Personally, I wouldn't use it as a punishment though, because I know me and what would happen if I told myself I couldn't eat anything at all, plus I get really sick when I don't eat or wait too long in between eating. Good luck to your fasting tomorrow.

P.S. I overate today as well.

Also, is it possible for you to do some type of exercise to help work off some of the extra calories consumed?
 
Maybe add some juice to that fasting program. I'm not going to tell you not to just because its not my place. Just hope you can do it in a way that doesn't harm you & we both know that NO CALORIES is asking for trouble.

I know I don't have the will power anyway to do something like that.

Hang in there & don't beat yourself up over one day. Just think about how many days you have made it through & how many days there are in the future. Sounds to me like you need a day of freedom from judgement. The start being disciplined again on Monday.

Either way I wish you a day of comfort & happiness. & just know that I'm on your side whatever you decide to do.
:)
 
thank you, i think you guys are very sweet. I really want to do the fasting thing though, i think it's necessary for me. I have fasted before on a weekly basis for a few months several years ago, and it worked well for me. It would make me feel like I was in control of my body, and could rein it in when I wanted to.

I really appreciate you being supportive of me. I have made a commitment to just be honest and authentic on these boards, so it's great to have people respond positively to what I am putting out there, because it is all the truth.
 
And I also decided that tomorrow, instead of taking the day off of exercise like I usually do, I am going to work out

for 24 minutes on the bike at level 6 (which I have never done a full 24 minutes at level 6)

i know i can do it! This will really help me balance out what I did today

so thanks for the suggestion!

..::katie::..
 
Your "friend" deserves a kick in the pants! That's so rude. But kudos to you on realizing that you can get the kind of support you REALLY need from coming here :) You keep that chin up.

I think it's important to remember that there are weight-loss calories, weight-gain calories, and maintenence calories. You say you overate by about 570 cals, but how many cals was that in total? If you were still under 2000 for the day, those are likely just maintenence calories, meaning you won't gain or lose - you'll just stay the same. So don't beat yourself up when you eat more than you've allotted for yourself. You have so much to be proud of and I hope you never doubt that for a second! I hope you have a great day. I think it's a good decision to workout today anyway - not to punish yourself, but so you'll feel like you're doing something good for yourself.
 
I ate around 1770 calories yesterday. I don't like to eat more than 1200. I ate three cookies from Trader Joe's--that's what I feel most bad about. Here is everything I had yesterday:

3 cookies
parmesan cheese
granola
2 dark chocolate candies
1 piece of bread with peanut butter on it
beef jerky
yogurt

I did my measurements today, and I lost .25 inches around my waist, but added .75 onto my hips. And I lost some around my butt, now I am 25.75 inches there. I need to go check and see how much that was lost...
 
Oh you didnt do that bad!

Just think about how good you are doing overall. I agree that as long as you are under 2000, there is nothing to beat yourself up over. Granted I know what a disappointment it is when you dont hit your goal calorie range, but you are still working very hard to get to where you want to be & are conscious about what you are eating, which is more than I can say for most of the world.

Hang in there & I hope today is a much better day for you.

Becareful not to put to much stress on your body or expect too big of a workout if you are doing the only water fast thing today.
 
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