bigguy64
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During my run today I was doing a lot of reflecting... When I got home I sat down and wrote this out...
Big Guy
Tongue in Cheek, it still hurts
Hello, I wanted to take some time and let you know how you made me feel. I am the guy you made the comments to. I am the person you made the comments about. You are my friend, you are my family, you are my acquaintance, you are the person I just met, and you are the person I don’t even know.
As I was waiting in the line to get food, you decided to tell me to not take all the food, or that you should get in front of me because nothing will be left. You told your friend right in front of me that you were following me because you figured I knew where the food was. You have made statements to me like this all my life.
Perhaps I should let you know a little bit about who I am. Ever since I was a child I have had a weight problem, and throughout the entire course of my life it has caused me so much hurt that you cannot imagine. As a child and throughout my adulthood I have been teased and made to feel like I was different. This has left a permanent scar on me and has caused me to continually question my self-esteem and very self worth. Not a day goes by when my self-reflection does not cause me to question myself and the person I am today because of my weight. You don’t need to make comments to remind me about my problem.
I avoid water parks and swimming pools because I cant find a bathing suit and could never be without a shirt on in front of people. Sometimes I avoid going out all together because of the way I think I look. At times every facet of my life is somehow crippled by my weight problem.
I don’t know why you have said these things; does it make you feel better about yourself? Are you self-conscience about something within yourself that you need to point out others flaws? Because I think it makes you less of a person. It shows me how ugly you are. A person who has grown up like me has an inside perception on the true beauty in people. The truest and most pure form of being beautiful comes from the inside. It involves who you are and not what you are. Once your shell fades away inside you are nothing compared to how deep of a person that I am.
It may be a joke to you, but I do not think it is funny. I may smile in spite of your comments. But they actually make me cry on the inside. It is because I care and the person I am…
I do want to thank you though. You see I have collected all your comments in the back of my mind. Ever since I was a child I have held onto painful things that involved my weight. I have decided I am going to make a change in my weight. I am not making this change for you; I am making it for me. I am not making this change because of you, I am making it because I am ready. Understand, when things are hard, you will be part of my motivation. I will remember you.
Losing weight with my relationship with food is hard. I have used food for so long to deal with the stress that life has presented. The stress is not going away…but I will survive. Losing weight will be one of the hardest things I will have done this far in my life.
I may have setbacks. But no matter what you, or a scale says about me… I will always be beautiful….
From a BigGuy
Big Guy
Tongue in Cheek, it still hurts
Hello, I wanted to take some time and let you know how you made me feel. I am the guy you made the comments to. I am the person you made the comments about. You are my friend, you are my family, you are my acquaintance, you are the person I just met, and you are the person I don’t even know.
As I was waiting in the line to get food, you decided to tell me to not take all the food, or that you should get in front of me because nothing will be left. You told your friend right in front of me that you were following me because you figured I knew where the food was. You have made statements to me like this all my life.
Perhaps I should let you know a little bit about who I am. Ever since I was a child I have had a weight problem, and throughout the entire course of my life it has caused me so much hurt that you cannot imagine. As a child and throughout my adulthood I have been teased and made to feel like I was different. This has left a permanent scar on me and has caused me to continually question my self-esteem and very self worth. Not a day goes by when my self-reflection does not cause me to question myself and the person I am today because of my weight. You don’t need to make comments to remind me about my problem.
I avoid water parks and swimming pools because I cant find a bathing suit and could never be without a shirt on in front of people. Sometimes I avoid going out all together because of the way I think I look. At times every facet of my life is somehow crippled by my weight problem.
I don’t know why you have said these things; does it make you feel better about yourself? Are you self-conscience about something within yourself that you need to point out others flaws? Because I think it makes you less of a person. It shows me how ugly you are. A person who has grown up like me has an inside perception on the true beauty in people. The truest and most pure form of being beautiful comes from the inside. It involves who you are and not what you are. Once your shell fades away inside you are nothing compared to how deep of a person that I am.
It may be a joke to you, but I do not think it is funny. I may smile in spite of your comments. But they actually make me cry on the inside. It is because I care and the person I am…
I do want to thank you though. You see I have collected all your comments in the back of my mind. Ever since I was a child I have held onto painful things that involved my weight. I have decided I am going to make a change in my weight. I am not making this change for you; I am making it for me. I am not making this change because of you, I am making it because I am ready. Understand, when things are hard, you will be part of my motivation. I will remember you.
Losing weight with my relationship with food is hard. I have used food for so long to deal with the stress that life has presented. The stress is not going away…but I will survive. Losing weight will be one of the hardest things I will have done this far in my life.
I may have setbacks. But no matter what you, or a scale says about me… I will always be beautiful….
From a BigGuy
