Tired of saying,"No, I am not pregnant."

Hlao-roo

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Hello. My name is Lisa and I weigh 200 lbs. I never thought my weight would get this high, but the fact that it has has managed to make me see that I need to get serious about losing it.

When I walk into a room, the first thing you see of me is my belly. It's huge. When I was pregnant with my son I ended up with 3X the amount of amniotic fluid as normal, meaning he was swimming until the last minute and the muscles running down my belly are stretched out like an old rubber band. Stick a bunch of fat on top of that and I look 6 months pregnant. When I meet someone new, more often than not they ask when I am due. I then explain that I am, in fact, not pregnant, and that this is the leftovers from the three kids that are already here. They are always more embarrassed than I am.

I am tired of my clothes being too tight. I am tired of being winded after playing with my kids. I would like to spend my time thinking about other things than my weight. So, I am going to do this. I am going to lose 50 pounds. I don't have a specific date to do it by, but by next summer I want to be FAR on my way to being in better shape.

An artery in my heart burst open a couple of weeks after I had my third child, two years ago, and I am thankful to be here. I had strict physical restrictions, but have been cleared for exercise now. I am starting with an hour's walk three times a week, down to the university on their indoor track. I plug in my iPod and walk walk walk. I get to listen to my podcasts, which I love.

I need to start doing sit-ups, which I am sure will be the most effective thing to reduce my belly. I got a crick in my back last week that hasn't gone away, so I haven't started yet. I have started stretching in the morning, hoping it will help my back so I can get on with the sit-ups. So far - nothin.

Food choices are where I hit a brick wall. I snack. Triscuits are my favorite, but goldfish, crackers, Wheat Thins and pretzels will fill in without a fuss. And then there is lunch. Lunch is the hardest meal for me to eat healthy. By the time I get around to it, I'm starving, so I don't want to take the time to make anything. A Triscuit lunch is quite tasty. Also, I am by myself. The kids have eaten and are either asleep or playing.

Today I REALLY wanted to make a pizza for lunch. I really did. But I didn't do it. I had bean salad with cheese on it and a piece of bread. Yes yes, cheese. But some grated cheddar is a ton better than a pizza filled with it. I am actually quite proud of myself for not eating the pizza!! That's a first - not giving in. I'm telling you, this weight loss may be hard, but I am doing my best this time.

I went to the store today and didn't buy snacks. I have a package of pretzels in the cabinet left over from a party we had last weekend, but it isn't opened, and I ain't going to open it. As long as it isn't opened, I think I can resist it. Same thing for those Lipton pasta side dishes. Good lord, I think most of my excess weight is due to those things. So fast to make, so yummy. I have ONE sitting on my cabinet shelf. This is my convoluted reasoning - if I have one, I won't need to buy one. This is keeping me from eating it. I know that if I eat it, I will buy more. Not one. A variety. And then there goes the effort to lose weight for a week or two. No, having one there is my protection against eating them. Odd, but it works.
 
I love lists

This is day ... 6, and to be honest I am surprised that I am still here. My jeans fit better, and that helps. When my jeans bother me I get angry at myself and get in a foul mood and then all I want to do is eat.
I wonder how long this will last. I am very good at starting the new diet/exercise regime, but crappy at keeping it going. Actually, writing on this site helps. I feel accountable.

On that note, I will start a list that I will add to every time I write:
REASONS WHY I WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT

1. I want to be able to take off my wedding ring.

My wedding ring scares me. I am happily married and don't want to take it off permanently. I want to be able to remove it, though. I was pretty thin when I got married. I was not pessimistic enough to have gotten a bigger ring size, thinking I would eventually gain weight (though it would have been funny to see the look on my husband's face if I did). The ring is made of titanium. It's strong as hell. My son was born via cesarean and they asked me to remove my ring before entering the OR. If I wasn't too fat to get it off, I was too bloated from the pregnancy, and I couldn't do it. They said they were going to have to cut it off. I explained that it was titanium and they ended up taping it up instead. I get the worry, though. If I get edema in my hand, I'm screwed. I'll lose a finger before they get that ring off. I know, I know, what are the chances. I still want to get that ring off.
 
Hi Hlao-roo! Welcome to the forum. Sounds like you got some great motivation going there to get moving on this journey! I'm lookign forward to getting to know you and I'm sure you'll find the folks here very supportive!

I had really weak stomach muscles after having my daughter and to be honest, I tried situps but the thing I have found that has really helped is more "core" abs exercises - like the "plank" - I have a DVD called 10 minute solution - blast off belly fat (LOL I'm not trying to sell it or anything!!) and there's a particular workout on there (10 mins strangely enough) that is all low impact, slow core muscle exercises. I find these far more stretching than doing endless situps.

What I can say too is that the difference between 200lbs and losing your first or second stone will be immense - the change in mobility, shape, size...its the most motivating feeling in the world!
 
Week two is a lot harder

Thanks for the encouragement, jjjay. The crick in my back is gone and I am ready to start on some ab exercises. I have a pilates video - that's core ab exercises, isn't it? Thanks for the idea of mixing it up. Now I just have to find the video .... We just moved and I think that box is still in storage. It's going on my to do list for the week.

Meanwhile, it's been a week since I started really watching what I eat, exercising, and reducing portion sizes. I decided to check my weight once a week - every Monday morning. I figured it would give me a boost for the start of the week, seeing that I had lost some pounds. I get on the scale this morning and I'M STILL THE SAME WEIGHT I WAS LAST WEEK. Sigh. My jeans feel less tight, so that's good, but I was really looking forward to the scale telling me that my efforts have paid off. Again, sigh. :banghead:
I know, don't be a slave to the scale.

On to something more positive - my list of reasons to lose weight.
2. Ah, to swim.
I actually tried to find a suit that fit me this summer, and was completely discouraged and depressed by the look. My 6 year old and 4 year old love to swim, but it's always my husband that takes them to the pool. I went with them to their swim lessons yesterday, and I saw how rigid and uncomfortable my son was in the pool. I so much want to lose weight so I can go to the pool with them and do simple things like help them float on their backs to get them used to the water.

Meanwhile, I am losing courage. This always happens. I go in like gangbusters, ready to lose the weight for good. Then life continues on like it always does, and the passion I had for losing the weight slowly gets replaced by cravings and being tired and lack of motivation. Today is hard. I am going to try to continue on with my changes, even without the passion. Writing here will help, I'm sure. Gotta keep those reasons for losing the weight in my mind. Yea me.
 
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yesterday was so hard. And I did eat crap. I ate stuff I shouldn't have, but I was sad about not losing any weight and when I get sad I eat. This is not good. I am not proud of myself. On the other hand, I went last night to walk, and did a whole hour, walking mostly fast. That felt great. While I walked I was listening to Kevin Smith's Smodcast about when he got kicked off the plane for being too fat, and though I don't think I have ever seen a Kevin Smith movie I was really moved by his retelling of events and how it effected him and a woman he met on the next flight that went thru the same treatment. Anyhoo, the point being that I had a great walk and today has gone pretty well. Actually, very well, because I made a trip to The Running Room store this morning and got myself some groovy new walking shoes!! YES. Ok, so I have made them my Christmas present from my husband, because YIKES, $150 on sale. I am not used to shelling out the real money for clothes. If you look often enough, you can find some really nice things at second-hand stores, which brings me to today's reason for losing weight:

3. Having fun while shopping for clothes
I do not have a lot of clothes or shoes and when I have some spare time the last thing I think of is going shopping. BUT, we all need clothes, and so now and then I make a trip to the second-hand store to try some stuff on. Those stores have really changed since I started going to them in the 80s. In high school my friends and I would go there to find 60s clothes. And that's pretty much all they had. Now people give stuff away after one season, and you can find very nice things, if you go often enough and have the time to look. At my current weight, I REALLY don't like to go, because all the nice, in-style clothes are sizes 12 and under. Size 16 gets you tent shirts and pants that are WAY too short. It makes it even more annoying and depressing than going to retail stores. Like I need that. Losing the weight would make clothes shopping fun again.
 
Hang in there girl. I know how hard it is.
If you ever need someone to talk to just pm me.

Dont be to hard on yourself you might get off to a rough start but keep at it. And if you fall pick yourself back up.
 
Hey there!

Great job on not partaking in all the crackers and things... they are not that good for you.
Second, great job on walking and changing your portion sizes! Portion sizes were the hardest thing for me!
My heaviest was 235 when I was 16-17 years old. I got down to 170 where I was stuck for a few years, I continued working out all the time but my diet was to blame. 6 weeks ago I changed my portion sizes because I'm done being fat!!
After doing that and adding interval training to my workouts I've lost 12 pounds in 6 weeks.

Weekends are hard for me to eat right so I give myself one treat... not a whole day of cheating but one dish and then I make up for it with a tough workout. It feels really great. Don't beat up on yourself too much....... you are on your way!!

I also agree with the plank, burpees, moutain climbers- all those tone your core really good :)

A helpful tip so you're not starving at lunch is to have a snack when you just start feeling hungry...... a few slices of turkey and an apple, raw almonds or cheese ( just a small amount) this will help tide you over before you have your lunch :)

The best thing for me has been to eat small meals every 3 hours. They are just small but enough to keep my not feeling dissatisfied and they help with no sugar cravings or over eating :)
I look forward to hearing about your progress!!!!!!! You go girl!!!!!!
 
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