Dear Diary
I have seem to forgotten myself at one point in the last 3 years and I am trying to find her again. After having lost 80lbs 3 years prior I have to sadly admit that a marriage and a second child have caused me to gain back every single pound back and so I come back home to this forum once more trying to battle my fight with weight. I really didnt think that I would ever have to do this again not in a million years and I swore I wouldn't because it took so much hard work and motivation to drop those 80lbs. How do I feel about myself now? HORRIBLE! No confidence no self esteem and no urge to live a full life. I am once again hiding and not wanting anything to do with life pretty much. My husband is a very in shape man and he has met me when I was that lean sexy girl and never once has he protested my weight and always encourages me with kind words. Where did it go wrong? Me getting to comfortable with everything. I let go...I thought I could eat how he ate and not gain weight like he doesn't. I stopped working out and of course the stress of life and marriage caused me to just not even think about myself I just went day by day eating like it didn't matter and here I go 3 years later back at zero. I am having such a hard time starting up. My 2nd child was born a little over two months ago and I wanted to start losing weight a few weeks ago but it just turned into a "I'll start tomorrow" thing every day. Well today is tomorrow.
Height: 5'7
CW : 285
GW by new year : 265 (20LBS) if possible 30LBS
Total GW : 180LBS
Daily Caloric intake : 2000
Current Activity Level : Gym 3x/weekly ( I HOPE)
I will weight myself once a week every sunday.
I really hope I stick to this because I just cant go on like this.
I have seem to forgotten myself at one point in the last 3 years and I am trying to find her again. After having lost 80lbs 3 years prior I have to sadly admit that a marriage and a second child have caused me to gain back every single pound back and so I come back home to this forum once more trying to battle my fight with weight. I really didnt think that I would ever have to do this again not in a million years and I swore I wouldn't because it took so much hard work and motivation to drop those 80lbs. How do I feel about myself now? HORRIBLE! No confidence no self esteem and no urge to live a full life. I am once again hiding and not wanting anything to do with life pretty much. My husband is a very in shape man and he has met me when I was that lean sexy girl and never once has he protested my weight and always encourages me with kind words. Where did it go wrong? Me getting to comfortable with everything. I let go...I thought I could eat how he ate and not gain weight like he doesn't. I stopped working out and of course the stress of life and marriage caused me to just not even think about myself I just went day by day eating like it didn't matter and here I go 3 years later back at zero. I am having such a hard time starting up. My 2nd child was born a little over two months ago and I wanted to start losing weight a few weeks ago but it just turned into a "I'll start tomorrow" thing every day. Well today is tomorrow.
Height: 5'7
CW : 285
GW by new year : 265 (20LBS) if possible 30LBS
Total GW : 180LBS
Daily Caloric intake : 2000
Current Activity Level : Gym 3x/weekly ( I HOPE)
I will weight myself once a week every sunday.
I really hope I stick to this because I just cant go on like this.
