the yo-yo bandit.

Cukorka

Cukorka

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I've been on and off this diet thing since 2007 now. Originally I lost about 15lb.. then I gained that all back.. then I gained another 10... and more recently when I went home for my brother's funeral in feb I gained another 10lbs on top of that.. and here I am. I'm tired of being the yo-yo dieting bandit. I'm tired of failing and gaining more weight. I'm tired of looking in the mirror and not seeing "the real me" looking back.

I just want some normality added into this life of mine. I want to kick depression and weight in the butt and get back to being me. I have another blog.. but after thinking about it for a day, I decided I'll start a journal here too... because there are some things I'd rather not share in my other journal.

...anywhooo.. I've began already focusing on what goes in my mouth (lesser, of course), and trying to be more active. I've also taken it upon myself to break my large goal up into little mini goals, so that I won't feel too overwhelmed when I gaze at it.

minigoals
1. 4/13 to 5/13 -8lb to bring me back to 170
2. 5/13 to 6/13 -7lb to bring me back to 163
3. 6/13 to 7/13 -7lb to bring back to 156
4. 7/13 to 8/13 -7lb to bring me back to 149
5. 8/13 to 9/13 -6lb to bring me back to 143
6. 9/13 to 10/13 -5lb to bring me to my lowest ever of 138
7. 10/13 to 11/13 -5lb to bring me to my *new* lowest ever of 133
8. 11/13 to 12/13 -5lb to bring me to my ultimate goal weight of 128

I'm down 2lbs already.. so I'm thinking that my first minigoal will be relatively easy for me to obtain. I feel so ready for this. so so drastically ready.
 
Hello Cukorka,

I know how it feels to struggle with your weight. I hit my highest ever, and even though, part of my weight (only part) comes from having two children, I have never taken control the way that I should before 7 years ago before getting pregnant with my first child. You showed me a little something from reading your post though. Ove the last 4 to 6 days, I have just lost it. I have been craving some really bad things and my diet has went through the roof. I just came off my womanhood if you know what I mean for the first time since I started losing weight and wonder could this have been what was causing the cravings. So when I saw how you broke down your mini goals, I was like awesome idea. I would like to plan more on focusing to mini goals rather than kill myself to my ultimate goal. I've done this before, and I can do it again, and so will you. This forum is a great reference, especially the before and after pics section. Good luck.
 
I've decided that I will start a fiber supplement because.. well I'm just not regular anymore since I started restricting what I've been eating.. Not to say that I've been eating bad.. Because I've been eating more fruits, veggies and non-processed foods (which are fabulous) cept.. I dunno. I just haven't felt "right" if ya know what I mean. So today, in my coffee I put in the first dose of fiber powder (2tpsn).. and my second dose after lunch, and my third with dinner.

Yesterday--I had an AWESOME food/exercise day. I ate about 1300 calories (which is under the 1400-1500 I've alotted myself).. but I didn't feel hungry. Did 40 minutes on the elliptical too.. It was lovely.

Tonight I plan on taking Kaylee (my 4yo daughter), and Buster (my 2yo black lab/pit mix) to the park for a good romping around... I want to try and run a goodly portion of it.. but I don't know how Kaylee will respond to that much running.. Hopefully Daniel will be home to help me wrangle everyone so I can focus on my fitness for a bit!
 
njoyabl said:
Hello Cukorka,

I know how it feels to struggle with your weight. I hit my highest ever, and even though, part of my weight (only part) comes from having two children, I have never taken control the way that I should before 7 years ago before getting pregnant with my first child. You showed me a little something from reading your post though. Ove the last 4 to 6 days, I have just lost it. I have been craving some really bad things and my diet has went through the roof. I just came off my womanhood if you know what I mean for the first time since I started losing weight and wonder could this have been what was causing the cravings. So when I saw how you broke down your mini goals, I was like awesome idea. I would like to plan more on focusing to mini goals rather than kill myself to my ultimate goal. I've done this before, and I can do it again, and so will you. This forum is a great reference, especially the before and after pics section. Good luck.
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Minigoals, in my opinion are the best way to go. :) Thanks and good luck to you as well! :D
 
Logging my food intake...

Yesterday I ate:
.5cup 2% cottage cheese
.5cup drained, canned peaches.
1cup cauliflower
1/4 cup mashed potato (from instant)
1 apple
1cup grapes
Fit n lite yogurt cup (6oz)
Mini Babybel Laughing cow cheese
9 cashews
1.5cup chili w/cheese onions
1 serving of corncake/bread
total calories (from fitday) 1240

Today: (sofar)
1 packet instant maple & brown sugar oatmeal (made with water)
Mini Babybel Laughing Cow Cheese light
yoplait delights parfait
1/2 cup cucumber slices
peanut butter crackers (6)
more chili w/cheese & onions
total calories consumed (per fitday): 870

I feel really proud of myself.. staying on track like this.. and btw, with that fiber.. I can already tell its making a difference. THANK GOODNESS!!! Coz constipation is no joke, friends.
 
iz good news.. another pound down. I didn't get into the gym like I wanted to this weekend.. and well.. to be honest, it was a lazier weekend than what I'd really wanted as well. I did a good amount of walking and playing on Saturday.. But Sunday I just laid around all day being lazy. I was suppose to meet up with a friend to walk in the park, but she had to leave the area unexpectedly. :( bummer.

I mean.. I ate food, also, that wasn't in the plan--but I don't think I went overboard at all either. *pats self on back*.. good job I guess. This week I'm planning on the gym at least 3 times this week.. and then I really really really gotta start doing more on the weekends too. I can doooo it!
 
I came home last night and daniel had cooked a lovely meal, cleaned the entire house, and was in a fantastic mood. I have such a good house-husband. :) We had pork spareribs with BBQ sauce and he grilled up some zucchini and yellow squash for me... and mac n cheese for the lil one because there's no way we can get squash down her throat in an appropriate manner...it was delicious, and fit nicely into my meal plan. :D

Daniel is also encouraging me to get into the gym everyday after work.. we'll just have to switch who takes kaylee to school and picks her up. Works out better that I drop her off in the morning since he likes to hit the gym about that time anyway.. and he can pick her up early from school and take her to feed ducks or whatever until he scores a job.. or finishes school. one of the two at least. :)

I'm feeling quite accomplished with this diet and exercise thing. So far I'm in 2 weeks.. and I'm not feeling intimidated by hitting the gym up alone and just going home instead. which is good, and I'm proud of myself.. still a long ways to go though.
 
I'm glad you're proud of yourself! You're doing really well :) Getting up and going to the gym is more difficult for me than the eating because I just can't be bothered a lot of the time, but you have to push through and go and kick butt!!

Good luck with your journey. xxx
 
wellllssss... I guess today I won't go to the gym after all.. not because Daniel didn't want me too.. but because I told him if he's feeling crappy I will indeed pick our daughter up to give him a moment to rest. He wasn't able to sleep a wink last night... So this'll really help him out.. and I'll still have 4days during the week to fit the gym into, which, imo is still fantastic.. (plus the 1 spinning class I'll be attending with my friend this weekend)... all in all--still doin' good.:gnorsi::gnorsi::patriot:
 
Another pound bites the dust. :D this is quite invigorating. However, I do believe my scale is lacking.. the problem.. I should say, isn't my scale.. but my house, which does not promote level floors.. (we need to redo the subflooring throughout the entire house) Which means I don't always get accurate reads.. this morning when I originally stepped on my scale it read 166, but I know that isn't right... so I put it on a slightly different spot.. and finally it began to read properly... wouldda been nice to drop 10lbs in a night, but just didn't think it was right for me to report it back lol

I'm pleased with myself.. halfway to completing my first minigoal.. I'm feeling like this is totally and absolutely possible. Go me!!! Hájra én!
 
So I tracked on into the gym yesterday, and I pushed to run harder, faster, than I had before.. I ran for the same amount of time.. just a quicker pace. But I enjoyed it. I felt good afterward for sure.

My sleep, since getting more active and watching what I've been eating has been getting better as well.. I'm stoked about this. because previously I'd only sleep 4 or 5 hours a night and drag ass during the day.. but now.. I'm fully rested and ready to take on the day...

I've been thinking.. and I kinda wanna get a bodybugg or similar product.. one I've been eyeing it the "fitbit" which is similar to the bodybugg.. but its smaller and cheaper. Its on back order at the moment.. So I wouldn't get it till about.. well about my birthday in June, but I think it'd be a fantastic tool to have to get to my ultimate goal. I tried looking on ebay for it.. to see if I could get something NOT on back order.. but people know they're on back order and are, of course, charging more for them. LAME!!!

No gym today, but hopefully a brisk walk with the family after work and then onward to tomorrow.. which will be a gym day. :D
 
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