The Sound of Change

Kopia

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Change is the only constant in life. Every second of every day, of every moment in your life - you're changing. No matter what, change will happen; you can't avoid it. But if you do something about it; if you take initiative... it can be the change you WANT.

I've been overweight my entire life, and at 24 now, I'm realizing that denial will only hurt me further in the long run. I've gone on diets before, and there was a point in my life (right after high school) where I was actually very set on getting fit. I wanted to join the military, as it was always my dream, but while I was within the required weight limits, I was very close to stepping out of bounds. It lasted only a few months, as I talked back and forth with recruiters and got my things in order. Unfortunately, I was denied a medical waiver for an old knee injury and never made it in. After that, I gave up and fell back into my old ways.

For a long time, I've been stuck in this sort of limbo with where my life will go. I never finished college, and have minimal job experience, and its like I've been floundering about wondering what to do next. I'm thankful to have parents who are so willing to help and support me, and though its taken quite some time, I'm finally on track to a career and life that I know I can enjoy. And now that I'm starting to get my personal life in order, I believe its time I focus not just on my career goals, but on health and fitness as well.

Again, I have a very supportive family, and their Christmas gifts this year really helped push me in the right direction. My parents got me a 2-year gym subscription to 24 Hour Fitness, and my elder sister and her fiance bought me a Fitbit One to help keep track. I mean, I've only had it for a few days, and its pretty amazing already just to see the difference between my sedentary days and more active days. It even affects the quality of my sleep (the sleep tracker is so cool!), which I always knew but didn't really "believe" until now.

Anyway, even with the Fitbit, I know I need to keep myself more accountable and thus, this venture into the forum and journal began. I know that the "21 days to form a habit" myth isn't exactly accurate, but its something to aim for. 21 days... 3 weeks... its short enough that it seems attainable, but still long enough to challenge a newbie like me to push for it. I'm making goals, short term and long term, to keep me engaged, motivated, and challenged. As it stands, these are some of the basic day-to-day/weekly goals

(In no particular order)
  • 10,000 steps a day
  • Drink 64 oz. of water a day
  • Visit the gym 3-5 time a week, for a minimum of 30 min
  • Eat a serving of fruit or vegetables with every meal

I feel as if these are easy changes to implement, and nothing too tedious that would discourage me if I missed it once or twice. My long term goals are a bit more ambiguous, as my overall goal is based more on physical health and fitness, rather than a specific weight. At the moment, I'm 156 lbs at 5'2 - largely overweight for my size and frame. Although I'm aiming more for increased cardiovascular health and muscle strength, and a slimmer appearance (not necessarily skinny, but less pudgy), I'd still like to drop down to a more appropriate weight. I think perhaps aiming for a 10 lb weight loss each time would be something I could do; again, like the 21 days thing, its not too far out for reach, but it still gives me something to attain.

I don't think I'll be calorie counting. I've tried it before, and it felt like I was putting restrictions on myself, which I've never been good with. I will still keep a food log, as I do believe its important to keep track of what I eat, but I'll be going more for an 'in moderation' type of approach. For certain, I will be increasing my intake of fruits and vegetables (perhaps in the smoothie variation, as I have a Magic Bullet blender that needs more use) and looking for more whole-grain types of breads and pastas, along with leaner meats and fish. Soda and juice aren't too much of an issue for me, as I rarely drink them, though cutting my coffee consumption is something to also consider.

That's about it for now. I'm not exactly sure how to lead off, but that's it for now. I'll be back tonight and tomorrow, though the "official" start is January 1st. Good luck to everyone else on their journeys!
 
What a great introduction Kopia! Welcome to the forum. It sounds like you are well prepared to make long-term changes for the better & have set realistic goals. Your mindset seems to be very positive & that will stand you in good stead. I look forward to sharing your story. You should get good support from others in the forum. They're a great bunch! Cheers, Cate.
 
What a great introduction Kopia! Welcome to the forum. It sounds like you are well prepared to make long-term changes for the better & have set realistic goals. Your mindset seems to be very positive & that will stand you in good stead. I look forward to sharing your story. You should get good support from others in the forum. They're a great bunch! Cheers, Cate.

Thank you for the warm welcome! I've been browsing around the site on and off for awhile, and it was seeing how supportive everyone was that really made the decision to join. I'm really excited to get started, and to see just how far I can push myself. :)
 
The Eve of New Years Eve

Or two days before January 1st.

Today went nowhere near as planned, but I honestly can't complain. A happy, healthier life is my ultimate goal, and unexpected surprises are just part of the joy of living. My original intention was to have a rather humdrum, but slightly productive day - hit the gym, do the laundry, and get some things for school out of the way. I woke up and had my morning coffee as usual, threw the whites in the wash, then went off to get some immunizations updated and verified for a Phlebotomy course I'll be taking in the upcoming semester. One of my long time childhood friend's mother works as a nurse at the clinic, and we ended up chatting - along with my Dad, who came for shots of his own. Eventually we made plans for an impromptu dinner at our house later, and the rest of my day was spent running around buying this and that, and cleaning around the house.

Because of this, we ate out for lunch in between shopping trips. If any of you are from the western part of the US, I'm sure you've heard of In-N-Out Burgers, and I got a cheeseburger with everything (lettuce, tomatoes, onions) and split fries with my dad. Not the greatest meal, I know, but I won't spend any time beating myself up over it. For dinner, I cooked a simple rib roast and roasted potatoes, with sauteed green beans, peppers and onions. I was mindful to cut back on the salt and butter, and made up for it with extra herbs and spices here and there, which I think turned out well. Dessert could have been better, but I'm a sucker for chocolate cake, though I did make sure to make my slice smaller than the others. I ate it slowly too, so I could savor it more, and then blocked out the taste with hot coffee.

I didn't quite make it to 10,000 steps today, though there was about an hour worth of uncounted steps when I was in the kitchen. I just got the Fitbit, and although I try not to be, I'm rather clumsy; I decided it was best if I simply remove it and store it somewhere safe, rather than risk it falling off as I bent over the oven or getting doused in water while I washed dishes. Either way, I wasn't as physically active as I'd have liked to be today, and I know tomorrow won't be much different due to the holiday. That being said, I don't regret it. I am emotionally satisfied - happy even. Because I got to cook for and share good times with people I love; because I don't have time to be sorry for things already done; because I know its not how you start a journey, its how you finish. I know I'll get better. Once New Year's has passed, and I can finally fall back into a regular schedule, the discipline will come. For now, I'll simply enjoy this last bit of 'unrestricted freedom'.

Now, for the 'logging' bit:

Today's food/drink
Coffee with creamer x2
Cheeseburger w/ lettuce, onions, tomatoes
Split order of fries with Dad
1 slice rib roast
Scoop of roasted potatoes
Green beans with peppers and onions
1 thin slice chocolate cake
4 water bottles (64oz)

Fitbit Stats
8,876 steps counted
8 floors of stairs
2,770 calories burnt
5 hours+44 min of sleep
 
Day 1

Technically "Day 3", but I'll just count today as the official start. The past few days, I've still been in holiday mode, but now that New Years' has passed, its time to get down too it. I can't say I did too much in terms of physical activity the last two days, but hey, if any of you are considering watching "Into the Woods" I recommend it! I watched it yesterday with the family, and snuck in some cut up fruit and trail mix as my movie watching snack (the perks of wearing a big, fluffy jacket) :p

Anyway, today has been relatively good in terms of activity. I went to the gym today and did an hour on the elliptical (it was a packed house!) and then came home and helped my Dad take down all the Christmas gear. Definitely got some heavy lifting in with all of that! I've had a bit of a headache today, and despite taking a nap to try and alleviate it, it hasn't seem to gone away. I'm not really sure the cause of it, though I assume it may be from dehydration, caffeine withdrawals, or perhaps even the weather. I'm usually very good with drinking water, and while I've reached my daily goal of at least 64 oz, I was a bit slow in getting hydrated until later in the day, which may have thrown me a bit off balance. As I've also mentioned, I'm a bit of a coffee addict and wanted to cut back on it; I didn't have my morning cup today, though that was mainly because I slept a bit in today and figured I wouldn't need it. But I drank a cup awhile ago, and it hasn't seemed to help, so it may not be the caffeine at all. Lastly is the weather. I live in Southern CA, so I'm accustomed to warmer temperatures, but we've been having a bit of a cold front recently and I think the continuous shock of warm and cold is really messing with me. I've had some cold sweats and chills lately too that have come and gone, but most prevalent is this headache. I think it may be my sinuses, as the pain and pressure is located mainly in the upper frontal area of my head (the temple region) and radiates downward. Either way, I hope it clears up. I've been banged up and broken many times in my life, so I'm rather unaffected by pain - but my head seems to be my 'Achilles Heel' and I would rather not start my journey in such a negative way.

Today's food/drink
Bowl of honey nut Chex w/ 2% Milk
Beef sauteed w/ onions, red peppers and mushrooms
Broccoli slaw salad w/ Italian dressing
Banana and apple for snack
Bowl of chili w/ rice
5 water bottles (80 oz)
Coffee w/ creamer

Fitbit stats
9, 511 steps
5 floors of stairs
2448 calories burnt
Forgot to wear tracker to bed

About 500 steps off 10,000 steps so I'll probably walk around the house a bit just to hit it before bed. I got the majority of my steps at the gym, but hitting 10k should be a lot easier once I get back to school. That's all for tonight. I'll be back tomorrow night, and hopefully feeling less iffy than I am now. Hope everyone is doing well! :)
 
Day 5

I am so forgetful! I keep telling myself to come and post here, but I always want to save it for the end of the day (so I can write down everything) but I either end up running out of time, or never remembering. :rolleyes:

Anyway, I've been doing rather well. I bought a cheap monthly planner from the dollar store, and worked out my exercise routine.

Monday/Thursday - Upper body
Tuesday/Friday - Lower body
Wednesday/Saturday - Cardio
Sunday - Rest

Every day also includes a core workout, regardless of which portion of body I workout, as well as 20 min of cardio (hard and fast). On days designated just for cardio, those will be slow and long sessions on the elliptical/cross trainer or bike. Sundays, even though they're my 'rest' days, I think I'd like to turn into more of an 'outdoor activity' sort of day - especially now that the cold weather seems to finally be lifting. Probably just a quiet, easy stroll through the park - enough to get me up and moving, but nothing strenuous enough to tire me out. I've spent so much time inside recently (due to colder temperatures) and I'd really just like any sort of excuse to get out and enjoy the fresh air.

As expected, the 'diet' part of this journey is far more difficult to acclimate to than exercising. Exercising is easy, because once you start moving, that's what your body wants to keep doing. Bad eating is such a lifelong formed habit, and sometimes I just really don't want to eat another salad. But I do it anyway, because its something I need to get used to. I really can't wait till spring and summer, when I can spend more time outside; probably my favorite way of eating vegetables is by grilling them, but it isn't exactly easy to do when the sun is gone by 5 PM and you can barely see what you're cooking. Fruit has been easier to bring into my diet, though I try not to eat too much of it either; my family has a history of diabetes, and even if its 'natural' sugar, I still need to watch how much of it I take in. My water intake is very good; I've been drinking, on average, 80 oz (or 5 bottles) a day. Its definitely helped keep a lot of cravings down, and aside from coffee, its pretty much all I drink now.

I don't really plan on weighing myself too often. For some, I know its a great tool in keeping track of progress, but I really don't want to make numbers my goal. Looks, feel, and quality of health - those are what's most important to me, and that will be my primary way of accessing progress. As of right now, I haven't seen any outward or physical changes, and really - I don't expect to see those kinds of results for awhile. Inside, however, I'm starting to feel a little bit better about myself. I'm still pretty lethargic as a whole, but I'm more motivated, and mentally I've gotten a boost in energy and willpower. And to me, that has always been the biggest hurdle, so to see myself actually getting up and pushing myself to do things - that right there tells me its working. And I can only hope that it will keep working.

Anyway, wishing you all good luck with your day! I'll try to remember to come back tomorrow... :blush5:
 
"Inside, however, I'm starting to feel a little bit better about myself."- & that is what will help you to achieve your goals. It is so hard to motivate yourself, when you're coming from a bad place mentally. Every single good choice you make, every extra step you take, will have you healthier & fitter. I think you've got this Kopia. I think you can do it! Cheers, Cate.
 
Well, its been a very, very long time since I've last updated. I got super busy with school and pretty much forgot about this place until now. I haven't exactly kept up with my previous plans as well as I should have, but I haven't completely fallen off the wagon either. For the most part, I've been able to watch what I eat and making sure its more nutritional than the junk I used to be eating. I also started supplementing with a daily multivitamin; I know some people are 'against' that, and others are 'for' it, but as much as I try to keep my diet varied with fruits and vegetables, and lean meats, I still felt like maybe I was missing out on everything I needed. Anyway, I drink a ton of water now too - definitely 64-80+ oz from drinking alone, and then whatever hydration I get from water already in fruits and veggies. My skin used to be really dry, but now its smoother and more pliable, and I don't need to use lotion or moisturizer as often as I used to. So that's one positive so far!

I've also been exercising, an hour at least three times a week, but I strive to go six days if I have the time. I may just be overly critical, but a lot people have been asking me lately if I've lost weight, so I'm sure there have been some changes, but when I look in the mirror I just don't see it. I still look pudgy and bloated to me, and more so, my weight on the scale hasn't changed at all. I mean, there are the small day-to-day fluctuations, but there has been no obvious change to my weight since I began. I know at the beginning I said I wouldn't rely on the scale alone, and I'm not, but I'm more confused than frustrated at why the scale has barely moved. I'm sure muscle can account for some of the weight, but I haven't been lifting too heavily to really make that much of a difference. Blah... :confused:

Let's see, what else... well, today is sort of my big spring cleaning day. Next week is the last week of my Phlebotomy training, and then I'll have to wait almost two whole months until my externship at the hospital to get my required hours and experience to take the state exam. With little else to occupy my time, I figured I'd take that free time and really get focused on my fitness journey, since I doubt I'll be having much (if any) free time after that. My older sister is getting married in October, by the way, so that's sort of another added incentive to really get this going. So yeah, I wanted to clean out my room and my work space, so that when I get started, there's no distractions or clutter to get in my way.

That's about it so far. Just going to clean and then hit the gym today. Hope everyone has a wonderful Easter!
 
Hi Kopia, good to see you back again. If you really focus on healthy eating & your fitness then the weight should drop off. Do you count calories? The My Fitness Pal app. is great for tracking your food & exercise. I use it on my phone & laptop & find it best on my phone. Try going one whole week without any starchy carbs eg.bread, rice, potatoes etc & see what happens. I need to do the same!
 
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