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Fat to Fabulous

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Hi everyone,

I've been meaning to start a diary for a little while now. I've been reading other people's and think they are an amazing way to keep yourself on track, so here goes...

Intro wise, I'm 25 and live in the UK where I'm a tudent. I've been big forever and I'm finally at that stage where I'm fed up of my weight ruling my life so I'm going to change things. At my heaviest about a year ago I was 357lbs. As of this morning I weighed 326 so I'm going to take that as my start weight.

I've tried a million and one different diets including Cambridge and Master Cleanse. I've lost weight with all of them but as soon as I stopped I've put the weight on plus a bit more. I've finally realised that loosing weight isn't a race and lowly and steadly is what is going to do it. So clean eating and exercise is the way forward from now.

I've had years of drunk men pointing and laughing, people telling me you have a pretty face but you would look so much better if you lost some weight... I laughed most of it off but in reality being fat is holding me back.

So today, I dusted off my trainers and did half an hours of aerobics which feels amazing, how did I forget about the exercise high?! How is everyone else this weekend?

Thanks for reading :)
 
hey girl,
glad to see you started a diary! i used to ask myself how i let myself get this big...but you know what? i don't think like that anymore, these days all i tell myself everyday is that i'm doing something about it and everyday i'm getting my life back. we're all here on the same journey so let's keep supporting each other...WE ALL CAN DO THIS! all the best, xoxo
Fat to Fabulous said:
Hi everyone,

I've been meaning to start a diary for a little while now. I've been reading other people's and think they are an amazing way to keep yourself on track, so here goes...

Intro wise, I'm 25 and live in the UK where I'm a tudent. I've been big forever and I'm finally at that stage where I'm fed up of my weight ruling my life so I'm going to change things. At my heaviest about a year ago I was 357lbs. As of this morning I weighed 326 so I'm going to take that as my start weight.

I've tried a million and one different diets including Cambridge and Master Cleanse. I've lost weight with all of them but as soon as I stopped I've put the weight on plus a bit more. I've finally realised that loosing weight isn't a race and lowly and steadly is what is going to do it. So clean eating and exercise is the way forward from now.

I've had years of drunk men pointing and laughing, people telling me you have a pretty face but you would look so much better if you lost some weight... I laughed most of it off but in reality being fat is holding me back.

So today, I dusted off my trainers and did half an hours of aerobics which feels amazing, how did I forget about the exercise high?! How is everyone else this weekend?

Thanks for reading :)
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Yeah. The pretty face comment is a lousy one. I remember some comedian responding to the pretty face remark with "So what you're saying is that I'd look great as a head?" lol.

I know what you mean about that exercise high. I'm thoroughly addicted to it!

Anyway, best of luck on your journey!
 
Thanks for saying hello, your comments are really appreciated!

Yesterday I was at work all evening but I walked to the trainstation which is a mile away and ten took a half mile walk when I finished. I'm starting off gently...

I work in a train station and one of the perks (or so i thought) of my job was the free meal that you get when you work. I used to think this was the best thing ever but the choices are, Burger King, a sandwhich shop that sells baguettes or a place that does big pasties. Help! Short of taking my own stuff I don't know what to eat when working. I'm going to have to go and find out the nutritional info for everything they have and work out what is acceptable.

I listened to my Paul Mckenna CD last night where he claims to make you thin. I've had it for about a year and listen to it off and on. This morning my craving for my usual Sunday fry up has gone so I had scrambled eggs and grilled tomatoes from brekkie. Does anyone else use it?
 
Oh my wow!

I'm sooo impressed with how much weight you have lost, what an incredible achievement. How have you done it?

ymcachick said:
Yeah. The pretty face comment is a lousy one. I remember some comedian responding to the pretty face remark with "So what you're saying is that I'd look great as a head?" lol.

I know what you mean about that exercise high. I'm thoroughly addicted to it!

Anyway, best of luck on your journey!
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heya,
i think your off to a great start with the walking! every little helps (isn't that tesco's slogan?...lol!).

wow, i think that's a really tough choice for lunch, it might be best if you carried your own meals so that your sure it's healthy (but i can totally understand that having a free lunch is definitely a cost saving in these credit crunch days). so on the other hand, i'm no expert, but if you were to ask me what i'd have out of the three i think the better of the three lunch options would be the sandwich shop, a brown baguette with chicken and salad in it (of course hoping that the chicken bits are grilled not fried and the salad without dressing).

i haven't listened to the CD you mentioned but to be honest i believe that deep down only we ourselves can make ourselves loose weight. i've been through lots of fad diets in my lifetime and always gave up on like day 2. so now i'm on a lifestyle change with healthy eating and exercising. so far i've managed 3 months and i'm hoping to keep going for many many months more and eventually maintain the health eating for a lifetime once i get to my goal weight. i've never used pills and never even thought of surgery (and please don't get me wrong, i have no problem whatsoever with anyone who chooses these options), i guess it's just different for everyone, and for me i always felt that when i was ready i'd make that change...which is what i'm doing now. it's a shame it took me 28yrs and 350pounds (actually i weighed more i think about 365-370pounds but bought my own scale when i weighed 350pounds)...and now i'm 325 and hoping to keep on going till i get to my goal weight. sometimes i just want to give up and wake up thin because it's such hard work! but this time round i'm not giving up ever...everyday i see the weighing scale has gone down a notch and i just want to keep eating right and exercising right to see a good result on the scale the next day and the next etc.

gosh, and if i'm doing it, then i believe anyone can...because the past 2yrs especially i was eating like a trash can and not exercising at all and was just depressed. my lowest point was in early january....that's when i hit rock bottom. i started my change on feb 1st and have never looked back.

it's always nice to keep close to those who are in similar weight range because we can all support each other and keep each other going. WE CAN DO THIS!
 
Fat to Fabulous said:
Oh my wow!

I'm sooo impressed with how much weight you have lost, what an incredible achievement. How have you done it?
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Thank you! The short answer? A lot of hard work and determination. I completely overhauled my life. I eat healthy (no starving!), I work out 2 hours a day at the gym, and fit in a lot of walking too. lol. And I see a therapist to deal with my mommy issues ;). Well, I'm sort of serious about that last comment, but mostly I see her in order to learn about why I used food as a coping mechanism, and how not to continue that pattern. I have never been a cheerleader of therapy, but I'm a convert now. I'm glad I listened to my friend and went.
 
So its time to dust down my diary and update!


My 26th Birthday was a week ago today. To treat myself I decided to have a day off, a night out dancing fuelled with wine and vodka became a sunday morning hangover from hell naturally soaked up with a fry up from the delectable but oh so unhealthy local restaurant. Because I had that fry up it gave me free licence to eat burger king and a hundred more different takeaways.

Now I'm Up two lbs on my starting weight and I've stupidly managed to put on 8lbs from my low weight I was at at the beginning of last week. I'm pissed with myself majorly. I need to sort out these treat's that inevitably turn into week long binges and end up with me feeling crap about myself.

This morning I almost called my old Cambridge diet councillor. The Cambridge Diet is a milkshake type thing where you have about 500 cals a day all in these little milkshakes. You lose lots of weight but as soon as you start to eat normal food then it all goes back on. I remember the last time I did it, I managed so well for about a week but then I say my housemates left over food in the bin and I was this close to eating it! I mean the bin ffs - I cannot get back to that point again!

What I do like about the diet is the structure. I think that general "eating healthy" doesn't work for me, I need more rules and regulations. Does anyone have a diet plan that they can suggest that they have followed sucessfully? I was thinking about going off to weightwatchers or slimming world. Any tips or ideas?

Cheers for reading! xxx
 
hey girl, nice to see your back! and happy belated 26th birthday! wow, i wish i could be 26...next month i turn 29 yikes! thats why i promised myself before i hit the big 30 i have to be slim and trim....i've lived the last 28yrs being controlled by my weight....hopefully by the time i'm clocking 30 next year that will all be in the past and i can finally start LIVING!

you know what? whatever happened in the past DOES NOT MATTER! what matters is that your back on the wagon and ready to start again. we are all human and all have slip ups. i think i've mentioned this to you before but i started my lifestyle change in february and once a week i would have a cheat day that would turn into two cheat days then end up being a full week of bingeing but then i'd say no more pick myself up and try again and try again and the last few weeks i've been really proud of myself with nutrition and exercise....i feel like it's taken me forever to get where i am.....and i still have a loooong way to go but now i feel like i can do it you know?

okay, about that cambridge diet or other fad diets i don't think it's such a good idea...i just wrote to someone the other day about this and was explaining how those diets are bad because they really mess up your metabolism, plus basically what happens is that due to eating such few calories what you loose is muscle mass and water weight which is why the first few days the scale drops drastically and makes you think that its working but it really isn't....because your body kicks into starvation mode and starts to store fat instead of burn it and also breaksdown the muscle in the body, and the reason this is bad is because muscle is supposed to help burn fat. so basically when the scale goes down its just muscle and water weight. which is why as soon as one starts eating normal again they gain back all that they'd weighed before and then some. that's why that type of diet isn't sustainable.....unfortunately we all have to take the hard route. the one that means we have to cut out sugar and junk foods and start eating healthy stuff. not starving ourselves but eating healthy humanly portions of lean protein, wholemeal carbs and lots of fresh fruit and veges.

i'm very sorry if i sound too preachy, i really don't mean to be that way....it's just that i've tried a million diets in my life and was always dissapointed in the end....so for once i'm doing things the right way and for once i've lost more weight than i've ever lost before and hoping i can keep going on.

is it hard? yes....but is it worth it? HELL YES!

xoxo


Fat to Fabulous said:
So its time to dust down my diary and update!


My 26th Birthday was a week ago today. To treat myself I decided to have a day off, a night out dancing fuelled with wine and vodka became a sunday morning hangover from hell naturally soaked up with a fry up from the delectable but oh so unhealthy local restaurant. Because I had that fry up it gave me free licence to eat burger king and a hundred more different takeaways.

Now I'm Up two lbs on my starting weight and I've stupidly managed to put on 8lbs from my low weight I was at at the beginning of last week. I'm pissed with myself majorly. I need to sort out these treat's that inevitably turn into week long binges and end up with me feeling crap about myself.

This morning I almost called my old Cambridge diet councillor. The Cambridge Diet is a milkshake type thing where you have about 500 cals a day all in these little milkshakes. You lose lots of weight but as soon as you start to eat normal food then it all goes back on. I remember the last time I did it, I managed so well for about a week but then I say my housemates left over food in the bin and I was this close to eating it! I mean the bin ffs - I cannot get back to that point again!

What I do like about the diet is the structure. I think that general "eating healthy" doesn't work for me, I need more rules and regulations. Does anyone have a diet plan that they can suggest that they have followed sucessfully? I was thinking about going off to weightwatchers or slimming world. Any tips or ideas?

Cheers for reading! xxx
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Hey up!

Wow 26 is strange - I still feel like I did when I was 19 although I know I'm a real grown up now if that makes sense? Don't worry at the rate you're going you will be there in no time. And don't wait until your goal weight to start living - just do it now!


The Cambridge diet is BS and I'm so glad you have posted all that. its stuff I know but I get seduced by that amazing 12lb loss in the first week and yes you're right, it really does mess up your metabolism.

I think clean eating it is and I might try doing some meal plans. What do you eat in a day hon?


cherrygarcia said:
hey girl, nice to see your back! and happy belated 26th birthday! wow, i wish i could be 26...next month i turn 29 yikes! thats why i promised myself before i hit the big 30 i have to be slim and trim....i've lived the last 28yrs being controlled by my weight....hopefully by the time i'm clocking 30 next year that will all be in the past and i can finally start LIVING!

you know what? whatever happened in the past DOES NOT MATTER! what matters is that your back on the wagon and ready to start again. we are all human and all have slip ups. i think i've mentioned this to you before but i started my lifestyle change in february and once a week i would have a cheat day that would turn into two cheat days then end up being a full week of bingeing but then i'd say no more pick myself up and try again and try again and the last few weeks i've been really proud of myself with nutrition and exercise....i feel like it's taken me forever to get where i am.....and i still have a loooong way to go but now i feel like i can do it you know?

okay, about that cambridge diet or other fad diets i don't think it's such a good idea...i just wrote to someone the other day about this and was explaining how those diets are bad because they really mess up your metabolism, plus basically what happens is that due to eating such few calories what you loose is muscle mass and water weight which is why the first few days the scale drops drastically and makes you think that its working but it really isn't....because your body kicks into starvation mode and starts to store fat instead of burn it and also breaksdown the muscle in the body, and the reason this is bad is because muscle is supposed to help burn fat. so basically when the scale goes down its just muscle and water weight. which is why as soon as one starts eating normal again they gain back all that they'd weighed before and then some. that's why that type of diet isn't sustainable.....unfortunately we all have to take the hard route. the one that means we have to cut out sugar and junk foods and start eating healthy stuff. not starving ourselves but eating healthy humanly portions of lean protein, wholemeal carbs and lots of fresh fruit and veges.

i'm very sorry if i sound too preachy, i really don't mean to be that way....it's just that i've tried a million diets in my life and was always dissapointed in the end....so for once i'm doing things the right way and for once i've lost more weight than i've ever lost before and hoping i can keep going on.

is it hard? yes....but is it worth it? HELL YES!

xoxo
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heya,
i hope its ok, but i found a post in my diary to copy/paste from so that i don't have to retype. but please feel free to ask me any questions you may have on it. i'd also suggest peeking into peoples diaries to see what they eat and get ideas from there too.

here it is:
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i'm still basically eating clean and exercising 5times a week. i don't count calories (which is like criminal on here...lol!) which is why i never write down my meals, just my exercise. all i know is that i eat right and i eat clean. i cut out junk foods completely. the last 4 weeks i've only had one treat meal, i now eat lots of fresh and raw fruit and veges (i add veges to all my main meals), my protein source is lean meats basically skinless chicken breast, extra lean beef mince or fish. for carbs i take wholemeal everything, for now i eat a lot of wholemeal bread to accompany my protein, mostly because i'm too lazy to cook the brown rice or pasta, but also getting used to the taste as well. for breakfast i either eat oatmeal (and add 2 tbsps of natural wheat bran) with skim milk, OR i have kellogs all-bran cereal which i love because it has 10g of fiber in it for every 30g portion. about 3 days a week i'll be too tired to make dinner so will instead just have some all-bran with skim milk instead.

here's the original post link: http://weight-loss.fitness.com/weight-loss-diary/29358-cherry-garcias-diary-15.html#post603980
 
Thanks for that Cherry, I think I've sorted out my eating now - over the past couple of days I've made good choices. I think once I start to eat crap I crave it more and more and then I just can't resist it. I have to go fully cold turkey to get it out of my system. Whats more I went for a night out last night and didn't touch a drop of booze! This is a big achievement for me, it may be because I still can't face it after my birthday celebrations but the thought of drinking all those calories was scary!

Over the past couple of days I've eaten lots of fruit, vegetables and salad. The local supermarket are doing Butternut Squash for 49p so I've been having lots and lots of Butternut squash chips which are divine.

The next challenge is exercise, I need to get moving...
 
Hey girlie! I finally figured out how to see your diary lol! Great job on deciding to lose weight, I know it's a tough one. Keep up the good work. I know you can do it! Wait. Scratch that. I know we can do it! Well I'm always here if you need support or advice... I haven't lost that much weight but I will help you with whatever you need. PM me if you want my instant message address, I'm signed in for at least eight hours a day. I'm usually signed in even if I'm out walking the dog or such. lol. have a great day!
 
Thanks Casey! I will do, I'm online loads at the moment too. Mostly procrastinating and contemplating doing university work though...

Why are people so rude??? I was at work today and I went to get my free lunch - I work in a place where you can choose from several different retail places to get food. There is nothing incredibly healthy so I got a Burger King piri piri chicken sandwich (320 cals) Diet coke and some apple slices. I had my stuff in my bag and was walking through the station when this old woman practically barged into me and the proceeded to say "get out of my way, you big fat lump." Normally I would have called her out but I had my work uniform on so I didn't dare. Then the other woman who was with her said loudly "no wonder she looks like an elephant if thats what she eats." The whole fricking train station must have heard. I just want to cry.

rant over! Wow its cathartic to write things down!
 
OMG! i'm so sorry! i can't believe how f*cking mean people can be sometimes! That was sooo uncalled for! i think also people take advantage of people in uniform because they know they can file a complaint if you reacted to what they said.

it's because of people like those that the last two years i just kept eating myself to an early grave and living like a hermit just hiding away from the world because in my head i thought if people don't see me then they can't say anything negative. only now that i'm working on my weight have i began to gain a little confidence back slowly little by little. people like that are so not worth getting angry over.

i just remebered the other day i was talking to my housemate and some guy was telling us how he had just bumped into some really desperate women at a club, then the lady i was with started laughing and asked him "the desperate women must have been overweight right?" and the guy ignored her i think because he saw how uncomfortable i was and she actually repeated the question then he switched the topic. i thought to myself my goodness am i in the room? how can she say something like that if i'm in the room? is she then trying to imply that i'm desperate? i just left, i was so sad. i really wonder what the heck is wrong with people sometimes.

but you know what? it's not worth getting angry over, just let that anger go which is what i've been learning to do the last couple of months. and if you can't let it go then put that anger towards working out and eating healthy. in a couple of months they're jaws will be dropping and they'll eat back their words. you are beautiful inside and out, don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise! xoxo
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Fat to Fabulous said:
Thanks Casey! I will do, I'm online loads at the moment too. Mostly procrastinating and contemplating doing university work though...

Why are people so rude??? I was at work today and I went to get my free lunch - I work in a place where you can choose from several different retail places to get food. There is nothing incredibly healthy so I got a Burger King piri piri chicken sandwich (320 cals) Diet coke and some apple slices. I had my stuff in my bag and was walking through the station when this old woman practically barged into me and the proceeded to say "get out of my way, you big fat lump." Normally I would have called her out but I had my work uniform on so I didn't dare. Then the other woman who was with her said loudly "no wonder she looks like an elephant if thats what she eats." The whole fricking train station must have heard. I just want to cry.

rant over! Wow its cathartic to write things down!
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Fat to Fabulous said:
I think I've sorted out my eating now -

The next challenge is exercise, I need to get moving...
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by the way it sounds like your doing great! i also started by eating healthy (in feb) then a month later (in march) is when i joined the gym. i think the most important part is definitely nutrition and once you feel your comfortable with it then you can start thinking of what to do for exercise. in my case i didn't want to walk in public because i was too self concious, and i had bought some workout dvd's (taebo is great by the way), but i couldn't do them in the house i'm living in at the moment because the floor is too creaky and makes too much noise and i was scared i'd fall through the floor lol! so finally i decided to bite the bullet and join a gym....i actually made sure it was a gym where i knew i'd bump into absolutely no one i knew. day 1 i was scared sh*tless but i found myself going back on day two day three untill now...i've never regretted the decision. i'm still the fattest person at the gym and i don't give a hoot because i know i'm doing what i'm doing for ME ME ME. that's all i need to know.

so dont worry you don't have to join a gym if you don't want to or aren't ready, if you feel you can workout daily from the house with dvd's or find a nice walking trail to walk regularly then thats a great start. but if you feel you don't have the discipline to do those things at home (like me...lol!) then a gym would be a good start because if you pay for it you feel obligated to go almost daily and soon after you find your going because you want to go!

for our weight adding exercise begins to accelerate things, no matter how little, the body likes the fact that it's becoming more active and starts to respond positevely on the scale.

sorry, i don't mean to ramble on or sound to preachy or anything...just thought i should mention it. otherwise i think you really are off to a great start, WE CAN DO THIS!:seeya:
 
OMG that's just fricken terrible. I'm so sorry that happened to you. But you know what? You're on your way to becoming a healthier you. You're on your way to more confidence, and more self esteem. So, when you get nice and fit, go back and kick those people's asses! (Sorry for the language. Rude people tick me off.)
 
Hello Fat to Fabulous,

I will have to go back to the beginning to read your journal, but just wanted to pop in for a quick sec and say Hello!! :D
 
Hi there everyone

Thanks for the support much appreciated. I've had another horrible experience today. I thought I'd join a slimming club for the extra support so got in the car drove to one that was miles away from where I live waited in line for ages and finally got on the scale to see the dreaded "ERR" when I was expecting some numbers.

The woman was like Marjorie Dawes for anyone familiar with Little Britain and in the loudest possible voice was like "ohh we've never had that problem before." The she started fussing and in the end suggested that I go to the supermarket accross the road to use their scales.

I could cry honestly - The second I start doing something about my weight two rubbish things like that happen within a week. Thanks for the ranting opportunity and please don't read and run - say hi! I'm off to work out a plan with actual set meals etc now because there is no way on earth I'm going back to that place! Grrr!
 
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