The Road to Change...

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This is hard. I'm going to join Curves in a few hours. I don't know what I'm scared of. I was never this way when I started any other diet program. Maybe part of me knows that I'm completely dedicated and serious this time. Little voices in my head are telling me to not go through with it though, don't go to the Curves appointment, don't exercise, stay fat.

My friend emailed me today and told me that she has lost 63 pounds. And I'm so proud of her that I could just burst, but now I'm also feeling alone in my fatness, and I find myself being jealous. Ugh. :(

I'll update again with my REAL weight after Curves. I'm scared to know. My scale, that's never accurate, says I'm 310. What if I'm more? But what if I'm less????

My first goal weight is 250lbs. Here I go down this road...
 
like your signature says.. just do it... :D you can do this..

use us as a backup support system.. there are a few other curves ladies here, you can form your own club :D

you've got nothing to lose but some poundage... :D and that's a good thing, right?

Good luck and don't be late for your appointment :D
 
It is scary. After being fat for so long, at one point, it would just be easier to give up and stay fat forever.
But you gotta get out of that mindset and prove to yourself that with some hardwork and dedication you can do this! :)
Does that Curves place take measurements as well? If it's an option you should do that as well b/c even though you may not lose weight on the scale, you could be losing inches :)

Just believe that you can do this and stick with it! You're gonna do awesome! :D
 
Welcome!!

Hey, nice to meet you Changes!!!

Good luck with your appointment thing, you seem to have a really good, strong attitude, I LOVE your name!!! That's what it's all about really isn't it. Or we're all just wasting our time!!!

Hope we can give you the support you need.

(I'm really gonna have to take my measurements like u suggested A, coz the needle on the scale aint shifting, but I'm sure my jeans are feeling a tad looser-although that may just be wishful thinking!!)
 
Just know that you are WORTH getting healthy!

You DESERVE to be healthy!

And only you can MAKE it happen!

Welcome to the WLF and to your diary - we're here to remind you that you CAN do this!!

Good for you for taking the first steps :D
 
Hi there CFL! Didn't see your diary in the list until now :eek:
I hope your Curves appointment went well. If you need a buddy in this, just email me!! Good Luck!!

You already took a huge step forward in coming on here and typing that post. You CAN do this!!! :D:D:D:D
 
Thanks SO much you guys for the support!!!!!!! I really appreciate it. :) :) I realize that losing weight is a gradual process, and every minute I'm gonna have to talk myself into sticking with it.

So I went to Curves and I got my measurements (which I didn't ask what they were, I just let her write them down, I guess I'll ask later), and then I got my REAL weight, which is 304.5 Wow. Well there it is. It's better than 310, but it's still a lot.

I did the workout and... it nearly killed me!! lol. I haven't worked out in so long, I felt like I was going to throw up afterwards. But at least I got through it and I'm excited about doing it again. :)

The funny thing is, my mind was so big about what kind of exercises I was going to do. My plan was doing Curves, walking at every night, and doing Richard Simmons on days when I wasn't going to Curves. But after the Curves workout I think I'll just stick with that until my body doesn't feel like its going to die. Little steps....
 
Little steps make big changes, just stick with it. :D:D
Glad it went well and woohoo @ the happy surprise!
 
Hello my fellow Curves Diva! Workout kicked your butt huh? :D People think Curves is a cake walk (oops, forgive the food reference) but it's hard work! Keep at it though and your body will be able to handle it soon and you won't be as drained.
 
Pequin, thanks! Yeah, little steps... Phew...

OHD... I was about 30lbs lighter when I joined Curves last time, so this time I have a bit more weight to carry. Ugh. But yeah, Curves is NO joke. It's 30 minutes of non-stop activity.

At the Curves that I'm at they have little notes on the running platforms that say stuff like "Dance" - "Jumping Jacks" - "Run and Kick Two Times" ... I love that they give the ideas of alternative movements. But I don't think I'm quite ready for that stuff yet. The jogging alone is killing me. lol.
 
LOL...yea, that sounds like my Curves. We have this one called rockette kicks. First time I tried those, I flew right off the pad and into the wall....sad, but true. The whole place broke out in laughter. :eek: Now I'm famous....and I can't escape it. Oh well! I can laugh about it now. :p
 
Hey! Great thing joining curves. I kinda want too, but I don't know how many teens actually do the program. hm, well, Great job on deciding to lose the weight, and Like mal, I love your signature. I know you can do it! Keep it up!
 
xorie said:
Hey! Great thing joining curves. I kinda want too, but I don't know how many teens actually do the program. hm, well, Great job on deciding to lose the weight, and Like mal, I love your signature. I know you can do it! Keep it up!
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We have teenagers that are members of my Curves. Many of them join with their moms, though they don't always come together.
 
Hi Pinky, how're you? I'm trying to keep up those exercises. :)

Xorie, as OHD said there are definitely teenagers that go to Curves. I've seen a few with their friends. Some young adults too, around (19, 20). The place is for all ages, don't let that stop you from going!! It's fun, hip and exciting.
 
So last night I couldn't sleep much at all, I was so restless and moody. I'm the kind of person that needs 7 or 8 hours of sleep or else I'm a zombie, and I only got 5 hours. I'm also having some serious cramps, I took some Ibuprofen, and it helped some. But I'm bloated and I feel emotional and moody. Yay for being female!!

Strangely, I feel okay though. I took my dog for a long walk, but had to stop because he was getting tired. His short little legs couldn't handle it. For some reason I feel better when I actually have an objective. Like, I think to myself that I'm not really exercising, that I'm just walking my dog. I don't want people looking at me and thinking that I'm walking to lose weight. Is that weird? But if I have my dog, I feel like people are looking at me and just saying "Oh, she's just taking a dog for a walk." lol. I need to get over this mindset.

I'm also doing Curves again today, and I'm drinking a ton of water.

For breakfast I had two pancakes with grapes. For a snack I had a banana. For Lunch I'll have tomato soup and salad. I'm not really counting my calories, I'm just eating small portions, 5-6 times a day. I'm being reasonable with it though. I'm not overeating.

Hopefully this plan works for me. I'll see how it goes for the first week, even though I think I'm gonna lose a ton of water weight the first week, it's probably not gonna be a lot of fat loss at first.
 
Ok, The Food Network needs to be exterminated. I love that channel, it's so delicious. I rarely make anything that they show on the shows, but it makes me really hungry looking at the channel. They never have any healthy cooking shows on there, that's what America needs!!!

This is one of those things that I need to stop doing.
 
What kind of dog do you have? I have two dachshunds, so I know ALLLL about short legs:D . I'm not a member of Curves, but I know 4 people that are. They've all lost weight to varying degrees. One even lost 100 pounds in a year! Yowza she looks hot now. And about Food Network. It's almost always on in my house, even just as a background noise to keep me company. I love to cook and bake, so I'm always listening for good ideas. What are your favorite shows? I used to like 30 minute Meals, but Rachel Ray's overexposed now (plus I'm tired of hearing EVOO and YUM-O come out of her mouth). Paula Deen will ALWAYS be my favorite, and my husband likes to watch Alton Brown with me. He even made me DVR new episodes for him while he was gone!

PS: Keep up the good work... I heard somewhere that if you can stick with exercise and nutritional changes for 3 weeks things will get much easier after that.
 
I went through the same thing when I was first starting out, not wanting anyone to see me walking to lose weight. I tried walking with my dogs but they just slowed me down. And I wanted to go a whole mile - they couldn't handle that! I made my mile though! Yay!

Now I just do it in the mid-morning, when people are either at work or still sleeping. No horrible kids around to laugh and joke at the big girl. HATE walking on Saturdays because of that, but I do it anyway so that I can learn to not be selfconsious. Who knows, maybe they're looking at me because I've come a long way, or maybe they just think the extra junk in the trunk is hot! :D I've been know to do a bit of the ol' botty shaking during my walks - maybe they're waiting for more! :D:D

Anyway - I guess I don't really have a point.. just don't let your self image stop your from bettering yourself.. i guess. :D:D:D
 
Doxie, I have a pomeranian. The Food Network is so addicting to me. I watch Throwdown with Bobby Flay, Paula Dean, Rachael Ray, Emeril. lol. Love them! LOL@EVOO and YUM-O. I love Paula Dean too. She's so funny, and she cooks Southern Food like my momma does. Mmmm.

Pequin, lol. I wanna walk at night, but even though I live in a good neighborhood, I'm still scared of weirdos that might be outside roaming around. I neeeeed to find someone to walk with, that would make me feel better about it...
 
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