The Final (cheese) Straw - come chat and help me lose weight!!

jjjay

jjjay

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Ok so I haven't literally eaten myself fat with cheese straws, but they helped along the way. I'm basically an emotional eater - bored, I eat, upset, I eat, something to celebrate, I eat, under stress, I eat...you get the picture.

I've bounced up and down a few times here but never got to goal weight and never kept it off. I haven't weighed myself in a few months, but from the lack of clothes fitting, I would say I'm around 215lbs. I daren't go on the scales for the next month because I think it would just make me feel awful about myself.

The last 6 months have been pretty rubbish - my 8 year old daughter has been in and out of hospital with bowel problems despite the fact that she is a healthy weight and eats a great wholesome diet (some things I do get right! If anything, I need to feed her up as she's lost too much weight since the health problems). As a response to her being sick and tests and going under general anaesthetic, I have been eating like a champion. At some point I was so stressed out that I got sleeping pills from the doctor, was worried I was getting depressed...you get the picture - this is NOT LIKE ME. I am upbeat and happy and cheery and looking for the best in life.

So she is now getting better slowly (fingers crossed) and my focus is able to shift a bit more back to sorting myself out. I don't want to feel rubbish about myself anymore or have to go work with confidence overbrimming because really, deep down, I feel huge and ugly. I keep remembering how I felt at 175lbs - FAN-EFFING-TASTIC everytime I walked out of the door.

So, I'm on a gluten-free, low sugar paleo kind of eating regime. It has really helped with the sugar/wheat/carbohydrate addiction that plagues me. This is the first week which is a kind of detox and pretty tough going but I should lose 6-8lbs just out of shock factor I think.

My goals:
1) lose 14lb in the next 6 weeks
2) exercise regularly - work up to running 15km a week in the next 2 months
3) go 4 weeks without eating any chocolate (*gasp*)

All achievable, all short term.

One thing though - if you are reading this, YOUR SUPPORT really really helps. Please post and chat to me! I'll do my best to keep up with people's diaries and do the same!

Big FAT hugs

JJJay
 
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Welcome back Jjjay!!!

Sorry to hear about all your daughter's health issues, I can't even begin to imagine how stressful that would have made the last few months (on top of normal life stress). I like the way you you've decoded to change your eating. I also eat a low carb/ grain and gluten free (I'm actually gluten intolerant) and sugar free diet. I think it's the best way to eat, never has my energy been so stable and I rarely get hungry.

Good luck getting to your first goal!!
 
Thanks Lucy - you've hit the nail on the head - it's all about stability. I don't get overwhelming urges of "must eat NOW". I used to get undeniable needs to eat chocolate or cakes and stuff. The first week is definitely the hardest but not having bread and stuff around at home helps. It's not fair for me to day to my daughter that she can't eat certain things then eat them myself!!

I don't feel slimmer yet (hahaha) but I do feel more resolute.


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Welcome (back?)

Good to hear your daughter is on the mend. She'll have her energy back before you know it, and it'd be great if you were both feeling your best. :)

I can relate to the sugar habit. I stopped eating processed sugar around early August. I did have a serving of frozen yogurt once. Otherwise, it's been at least a month. I rediscovered fruit (it's sweet!) and savory veggies and other flavors. My palate is maturing. Used to be I'd have some ice cream and completely go off the rails, eat 5 servings, then add some cake. But, I don't crave sugar like I did. I feel so much better. Good luck and stick with it. All your proposed changes sound great!
 
Well a good day yesterday. The food cravings are disappearing - all except for tea!! I've gone down to a cup of normal in the morning and a cup of decaf at night...compared to about 10 a day!

Food was good:
Smoked mackerel for breakfast - 375 cals
Salad no dressing and 225g of grilled chicken for lunch - 350 cals
Small portion of Chicken rogan josh (cooked in a small amount of fat free natural bio yoghurt with fresh spices and tomatoes), no rice - 150 cals
3 small kabanos - 300 cals
Water x 7 cups
2 cups of tea - 30 cals

1205 cals but I'm more pleased that it was all natural and all low GI. I really FEEL the difference in keeping my blood sugar levels down.




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Thanks for the post belly off - sounds like you know just what I mean! My taste buds have def changed since cutting out sugar - especially now I, not eating processed food at all. Spices and herbs etc all taste so much more intense -and fresh veg is brilliant. I do miss fruit and will reintroduce berries etc at some stage. I have to be careful with melon and pineapple and other really sweet fruits at the moment as they are high in natural sugars and I want to try and control my blood sugar level for a while to stop cravings. Otherwise all I do is binge on these instead!!

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Things are going well! Sticking to the detox doesn't feel dreadful...I sat next a 4 huge boxes of gourmet cupcakes at work yesterday for most of the day...and didn't eat any!

Splitting carbs and fat meals feels doable most of the time...I'm not missing bread at all but a bit of chocolate would be nice!! I know that craving will go too once I get all of the candida and gluten out if my system. It's great to finally realise that it wasn't just my imagination - they really were strong physical cravings with a reason behind them. I just thought it was co incidental that i was susceptible to athletes foot and other yeast infections, and ear aches and headaches etc...so now on a good probiotic daily tablet and starting to get there!

Although I know I can't have lost a huge amount of weight (its meant to be 5-7lbs in the first week so somewhere around that mark) but I feel better already - like I'm on the right path :)

I managed to gather the courage to hop on the scales ...and I was 210lbs. To be a healthy bmi I need to get down to 170lbs, so a 40lb weight loss to aim for.

Not sure if anyone else here is doing the hat move diet but it makes a lot of sense for my issues. I think I might stay on phase 1 for longer - it's not that different to phase 2 for me apart from no berries (which I really do feel like but again I think that is a craving because of the sugar in them).

Now only have to get rid of an ear infection and I can start some serious exercise! I really miss regular running. I used to run 10-20k a week at the height of my weight loss here two years ago (got down to 178 sob...) until I fractured my sesamoid bones (like a knee cap but under the big toe). It has literally taken 2 years to get back to the point where I wear high heels without pain so I guess running might be possible again!!
 
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Hi jjjay, sounds like you & I both have been out of kilter a bit in the last year. It is hard to take care of yourself, when you have had worries about your daughter. I have been on A.D.'s & am getting off them at the moment & also am looking forward to being back to the old me. Which probiotic are you taking? You & I both will get to where we want to be jjjay as we are determined! Take care sweets xoxo Cate
 
Hi there, jjjay. You stopped by my diary, so I thought I'd return the favor :)

Looks like you've got a lot going on. As a person with a small child, I can understand where you're coming from when you say how stressful it is when they're sick :(

I think it's amazing that you used to run as much as you do! That's really inspiring to me, as you saw in my diary. I try to walk at least 5 miles/day and some of that is light jogging right now, but no where near what you're capable of. It'll be really exciting to see you get there again!
 
Hi guys thanks for stopping by!! As I'm sure you know it means a lot when people are reading and posting and helping you on your journey!

Cate - really sorry to hear that you've had a difficult year and I know what it's like. I strongly considered whether ADs would help but wasn't actually brave enough to make the decision to ask my doctor. It's so difficult to focus on what YOU need to get better in yourself with everything else that's going on around you. Keep going!!

The probiotics I'm taking are called advanced acidophilus plus by solgar and its 1-2 capsules a day with meals. The irony is my friend is a kinesiologist and a year ago when I was getting yeast infections a lot she did a consult and told me I needed to cut out sugar, fruit and eat low GI foods and take a probiotic...I guess I didn't really want to listen! Now I, doing all that I feel SO much better.

Hey Belinda! Thanks for the post. Believe me, I'm not a particularly runny person. I just said one day ok I'm going to do this and followed the coach to 5k program which was excellent. I always found the first 10-12 mins a real struggle to get into a rhythm which is why I'd never run before as I always stopped before getting past that point but once I understood that after that beginning bit my body just gets into it and goes for another hour....I got to a point where I could go out on a Saturday morning and run 7-10k....no one was more surprised than me! Plus I was still 180lbs at this point so not a skinny minny! It can be done!

So things are going ok...I had a bit of a wobbly yesterday where I was starving on the way home from work and feeling ill with a cold/flu thing my boss has given me and my daughter had left some chocolate peanuts in the car...so I am ashamed to say I ate them...then stopped off at a store and bought something else unhealthy as I'd already started! Doh! I did go straight to bed when I got home though and didn't eat any dinner as I felt so ill. Luckily we are living with my parents at the moment having sold our house and not yet found a new one to buy so they are around to help out.

On the other hand I have renewed vigorous go get this morning and am determined to keep on the straight and narrow. I weighed myself and came in at 208.4 so a few lbs lost since the other day :). Slowly but surely!


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Hi jjjay, I'm feeling much better now that I am reducing my medication & I'm really looking forward to being off it totally. I think most of us can cope with worries, until they're family worries, especially our children (adults in my case). Everything just snowballed about a year ago, but is back on an even keel now & I feel able to cope better. Thanks for repping me sweetie. You're welcome to my kindness any day xoxo Cate
 
Hi jjay

I read this on Humans of New York and thought of you, regarding emotional eating...
"If you could give one piece of advice to a large group of people, what would it be?"
"Try your best to deal with life without medicating yourself."
"You mean drugs?"
"I mean drugs, food, shopping, money, whatever. I ain't judging anybody, either. I was hooked on heroin for years. But now I've learned that every feeling will pass if you give it time. And if you learn to deal with your feelings, they'll pass by faster each time. So don't rush to cover them up, or you're never gonna learn."

I also have eaten for 101 reasons other than actual hunger. I try to manage my emotions without food. It is not easy. Still, it can be done. :)

Way to go on the chocolate-free cleanse. I think avoiding trigger foods until we can enjoy them in moderation really helps toward not using food for comfort.
 
I am so happy to hear your daughter is feeling better!!!! Don't worry about the one day you did bad focus on the good that way it is easier to keep on track!!!
 
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