Ferocity
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1. What is your current height and weight?
5'7" and 209 lbs. Damn.
2. If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be?
In the low 130s, but I'm more interested in strength than numbers.
3. At what weight would you like to be at four months from now?
Maybe 170 just before Christmas.
4. Why do you want to lose weight?
Because I'm miserable like this. My vanity can't take it any more. I'm going to be 30 in February and I'm almost 9 years older than Dan, my fiancé. Someone asked me once if I was his mom, and I about died. I look younger than my age, but add concealing clothes and a dumpy body and it's hard to tell. I'm also in the process of writing my first horror-fantasy novel, and I'll resort to being hot to sell books.
Most of all, I want to be strong and healthy and confident. As a fat girl, I'm none of those things. I have everything in the world to be joyful about - a gorgeous future husband, wonderful parents, an impending college education, a novel in the works (and on and on) and being insecure takes a big dump all over that. I - and the people I love - deserve better.
5. Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event?
Nope, just for general, overall, lifelong health reasons.
6. What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals?
My generally slothful nature and my desire for fried chicken.
7. Why do you think that you now have a weight problem?
Oh my, what a touchy question.
I've always been lazy and I've never had good eating habits. I almost failed freshman P.E., which is really hard to do. Most of the activities I enjoy are sedentary and I'm not a social butterfly. So there's a lot of propensity for plumpness in there.
However, in New Orleans, I got into a very bad relationship. He and I broke up but he had no place to go except the streets, so we continued living together because I couldn't kick him out. I spent over six months being told that I was worthless and that I'd ruined his life by breaking up with him. That's a long time for a message to sink in. Pretty much all I did was work, eat, and sleep. Maybe I was hoping to physically repulse him and make him stop wanting me to get back together with him. I don't know. Things ended very badly (involving the police and him in the mental ward of the ER for 7 days) and I blamed myself for almost 2 years afterwards. My self-loathing manifested itself through eating for happiness and sleep to avoid having a life.
8. What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight?
Some serious exercise and watching what I eat.
9. Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight?
Skittles and Pepsi worked back in high school. I passed out a few times because of this lovely diet, but boy I was thin! (<-- sarcasm)
10. Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back?
I had to eat real food at some point.
11. What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? Why do you think it did not work?
I found out I'm mildly lactose intolerant because of Slim Fast. I despise counting calories - when I realize I'm getting towards my limit for the day, I get panicky, which eventually results in a binge to kill the stress. This combined with meetings is what ruined Weight Watchers for me. I couldn't stand going to the meetings. I really feel uncomfortable with public attention, and when they clapped for me for losing half a pound, I knew I wasn't going back.
12. Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time?
Sure. I'm planning on doing that here.
13. Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook?
I love to cook. Right now, I'm cooking Mark Bittman and Chef Kathleen recipes with the occasional Weight Watchers recipe thrown in. I made an awesome bean salad with tuna that I'm going to post in the recipes section. Usually when I cook, I broil some meat/fish and steam some veggies or I make cold bean or vegetable salads. I've been pretty lazy. (I did the whole vegan thing for a while, and some of those insane recipes put me off complicated food.)
14. How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go?
Maybe once a month at this point. I go out with my parents, and where we go varies, but it's usually upscale - unless Mom wants Mexican. Dan and I are crazy about Japanese food.
15. What are your three favorite foods?
Dry roasted ribs, sashimi, tart green apples, and cake. (I know, that's four. But it's cake. It goes where it doesn't belong.)
16. What are your three favorite restaurants?
Mikuni, Keppler's, and Straits.
17. What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food?
Not eat ribs, not eat cake, and not eat in the school cafeteria because it's all crap.
18. If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different?
It'd be Holly Hunter's body as Grace Annadarko on Saving Grace. Have you seen her arms? Friggin' gorgeous!
19. Do you eat when you are not hungry?
Sometimes. I like to snack and I like crunchy, salty stuff. If it's around, I'll eat it. If it isn't, I can get testy. Good thing I live alone!
20. Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)?
If I'm a dumbass and I don't eat all day, then yes, sometimes. But I hate how I feel after I binge, so I've been watching myself and keeping that in mind.
21. Do you hide your food or eat in secret?
If I'm visiting my mom and stepdad, I want to eat candybars but I know I'll get that "Mom look." It's weird because I almost never want candybars otherwise. But I hide them in my purse and eat them after she goes to bed. It's like I'm five again.
22. Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed?
Yes. I'm working on having foods that won't kill me if I eat out of nervousness. Frozen grapes are good.
23. Do you eat as a reward?
My worst habit.
24. Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer?
Not any more regarding the computer, but I do eat in front of the tv. I live alone and sitting at the kitchen table by myself sucks. However, it's usually only dinner I eat that way, or an apple. Lately I've been making a mess of little healthy dishes, having a few bites of each every few hours, and calling those meals. If cooking is a big production, then I want to sit down and eat a big dinner. If my food screams "busy woman!" then I eat standing up and get on with my life.
25. What do you normally eat for a meal?
Dinner is usually a broiled piece if meat or fish (lately it's been chicken and tongol) and a vegetable steamed in the microwave with lemon or lime juice. I know it sounds bland, but it's fast and satisfying.
26. What type of snacks do you eat?
A few bites of a bean salad I made, or a fruit salad, or an apple and some cheese. Apples are not in season right now though, so they suck. I also just fell in love with pickled watermelon, which I make myself.
27. In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing?
I just designed a whole schedule for myself, including weight training, cardio, and flexibility training. It's a lot of exercise, but I have the time (2 days of school and I don't work) and I'm not willing to never eat cake again, so I'm going to have to work hard for it. I'll post the details of what I'm doing starting tomorrow.
28. Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home?
Home. I despise the gym and I am not the outdoorsy type.
29. What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise?
Tribal fusion belly dance, hooping, wrestling with Dan.
30. What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals?
This may sound weird, but . . . I'm finally, fully, comfortably, undoubtedly settled in my skepticism and atheism. I don't believe there's anything after this life. Therefore, this life is the only one I get, and the same goes for my body. I don't get a second chance or an afterlife. This is all I have and it's amazing. So I have to love as hard as I can and write as furiously as I'm able, love my family and Dan so hard that it hurts, and make my body into the beautiful thing I've always wanted it to be. Plus, I have some kick ass tattoos that are totally underexposed due to me being so self-conscious.
31. Do you have rewards for certain goals?
I'm thinking in terms of tattoos, I guess. Make the temple pretty and strong, then decorate it. A flat stomach with some definition means a belly piercing. The ability to complete The Pit workout means an Umbrella Corporation tattoo on the back of my neck. Completing Power 90X means the tribal wings tattoo I've wanted for years. But the biggie is looking in the mirror and loving how I look and feel.
And that is quite enough for one post.
I'm really looking forward to getting to know everyone. Thanks for being here.
Trish
5'7" and 209 lbs. Damn.
2. If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be?
In the low 130s, but I'm more interested in strength than numbers.
3. At what weight would you like to be at four months from now?
Maybe 170 just before Christmas.
4. Why do you want to lose weight?
Because I'm miserable like this. My vanity can't take it any more. I'm going to be 30 in February and I'm almost 9 years older than Dan, my fiancé. Someone asked me once if I was his mom, and I about died. I look younger than my age, but add concealing clothes and a dumpy body and it's hard to tell. I'm also in the process of writing my first horror-fantasy novel, and I'll resort to being hot to sell books.
Most of all, I want to be strong and healthy and confident. As a fat girl, I'm none of those things. I have everything in the world to be joyful about - a gorgeous future husband, wonderful parents, an impending college education, a novel in the works (and on and on) and being insecure takes a big dump all over that. I - and the people I love - deserve better.
5. Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event?
Nope, just for general, overall, lifelong health reasons.
6. What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals?
My generally slothful nature and my desire for fried chicken.
7. Why do you think that you now have a weight problem?
Oh my, what a touchy question.
I've always been lazy and I've never had good eating habits. I almost failed freshman P.E., which is really hard to do. Most of the activities I enjoy are sedentary and I'm not a social butterfly. So there's a lot of propensity for plumpness in there.
However, in New Orleans, I got into a very bad relationship. He and I broke up but he had no place to go except the streets, so we continued living together because I couldn't kick him out. I spent over six months being told that I was worthless and that I'd ruined his life by breaking up with him. That's a long time for a message to sink in. Pretty much all I did was work, eat, and sleep. Maybe I was hoping to physically repulse him and make him stop wanting me to get back together with him. I don't know. Things ended very badly (involving the police and him in the mental ward of the ER for 7 days) and I blamed myself for almost 2 years afterwards. My self-loathing manifested itself through eating for happiness and sleep to avoid having a life.
8. What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight?
Some serious exercise and watching what I eat.
9. Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight?
Skittles and Pepsi worked back in high school. I passed out a few times because of this lovely diet, but boy I was thin! (<-- sarcasm)
10. Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back?
I had to eat real food at some point.
11. What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? Why do you think it did not work?
I found out I'm mildly lactose intolerant because of Slim Fast. I despise counting calories - when I realize I'm getting towards my limit for the day, I get panicky, which eventually results in a binge to kill the stress. This combined with meetings is what ruined Weight Watchers for me. I couldn't stand going to the meetings. I really feel uncomfortable with public attention, and when they clapped for me for losing half a pound, I knew I wasn't going back.
12. Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time?
Sure. I'm planning on doing that here.
13. Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook?
I love to cook. Right now, I'm cooking Mark Bittman and Chef Kathleen recipes with the occasional Weight Watchers recipe thrown in. I made an awesome bean salad with tuna that I'm going to post in the recipes section. Usually when I cook, I broil some meat/fish and steam some veggies or I make cold bean or vegetable salads. I've been pretty lazy. (I did the whole vegan thing for a while, and some of those insane recipes put me off complicated food.)
14. How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go?
Maybe once a month at this point. I go out with my parents, and where we go varies, but it's usually upscale - unless Mom wants Mexican. Dan and I are crazy about Japanese food.
15. What are your three favorite foods?
Dry roasted ribs, sashimi, tart green apples, and cake. (I know, that's four. But it's cake. It goes where it doesn't belong.)
16. What are your three favorite restaurants?
Mikuni, Keppler's, and Straits.
17. What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food?
Not eat ribs, not eat cake, and not eat in the school cafeteria because it's all crap.
18. If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different?
It'd be Holly Hunter's body as Grace Annadarko on Saving Grace. Have you seen her arms? Friggin' gorgeous!
19. Do you eat when you are not hungry?
Sometimes. I like to snack and I like crunchy, salty stuff. If it's around, I'll eat it. If it isn't, I can get testy. Good thing I live alone!
20. Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)?
If I'm a dumbass and I don't eat all day, then yes, sometimes. But I hate how I feel after I binge, so I've been watching myself and keeping that in mind.
21. Do you hide your food or eat in secret?
If I'm visiting my mom and stepdad, I want to eat candybars but I know I'll get that "Mom look." It's weird because I almost never want candybars otherwise. But I hide them in my purse and eat them after she goes to bed. It's like I'm five again.
22. Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed?
Yes. I'm working on having foods that won't kill me if I eat out of nervousness. Frozen grapes are good.
23. Do you eat as a reward?
My worst habit.
24. Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer?
Not any more regarding the computer, but I do eat in front of the tv. I live alone and sitting at the kitchen table by myself sucks. However, it's usually only dinner I eat that way, or an apple. Lately I've been making a mess of little healthy dishes, having a few bites of each every few hours, and calling those meals. If cooking is a big production, then I want to sit down and eat a big dinner. If my food screams "busy woman!" then I eat standing up and get on with my life.
25. What do you normally eat for a meal?
Dinner is usually a broiled piece if meat or fish (lately it's been chicken and tongol) and a vegetable steamed in the microwave with lemon or lime juice. I know it sounds bland, but it's fast and satisfying.
26. What type of snacks do you eat?
A few bites of a bean salad I made, or a fruit salad, or an apple and some cheese. Apples are not in season right now though, so they suck. I also just fell in love with pickled watermelon, which I make myself.
27. In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing?
I just designed a whole schedule for myself, including weight training, cardio, and flexibility training. It's a lot of exercise, but I have the time (2 days of school and I don't work) and I'm not willing to never eat cake again, so I'm going to have to work hard for it. I'll post the details of what I'm doing starting tomorrow.
28. Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home?
Home. I despise the gym and I am not the outdoorsy type.
29. What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise?
Tribal fusion belly dance, hooping, wrestling with Dan.
30. What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals?
This may sound weird, but . . . I'm finally, fully, comfortably, undoubtedly settled in my skepticism and atheism. I don't believe there's anything after this life. Therefore, this life is the only one I get, and the same goes for my body. I don't get a second chance or an afterlife. This is all I have and it's amazing. So I have to love as hard as I can and write as furiously as I'm able, love my family and Dan so hard that it hurts, and make my body into the beautiful thing I've always wanted it to be. Plus, I have some kick ass tattoos that are totally underexposed due to me being so self-conscious.
31. Do you have rewards for certain goals?
I'm thinking in terms of tattoos, I guess. Make the temple pretty and strong, then decorate it. A flat stomach with some definition means a belly piercing. The ability to complete The Pit workout means an Umbrella Corporation tattoo on the back of my neck. Completing Power 90X means the tribal wings tattoo I've wanted for years. But the biggie is looking in the mirror and loving how I look and feel.
And that is quite enough for one post.
I'm really looking forward to getting to know everyone. Thanks for being here.
Trish
I can see this is going to be a good thread 
