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BlinDragon

BlinDragon

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It's the first step, right?
Admitting that something is wrong, and being public-shamed for it ^^
No, maybe not, but i guess i'll take it as such.

I'm 21, 231.7 lb (105.1 kg), 1.70~.

I usually eat a lot because i enjoy the taste, will try not to do so anymore.

Here's an overview of my average diet:

Breakfast: I know i'm in the wrong, but i usually get up very late, like 11.00am so i don't really have a stomach for breakfast. The rare times i get up early, i get a tea with 1 tsp of honey or a coffe.

Lunch: It heavily fluctuates, i sometimes skip it entirely or eat various things that range from "nothing" to "some vegetables" to "a whole tray of homemade pizza".

Dinner: It usually is the time i eat less, because my father's at home and i can't binge-eat or he'll get so overly angry at me that... let's just say i can't eat much. Usually he's moderate in cooking and eating, so no big problems here. I eat some meat, rarely carbs at this time.

The real struggle is when i get on the computer and lose it. I might eat nothing for 24h straight, or eat continuously snacks/pop sodas/lunch-dinner/more-snacks for 24h straight.

Starting from today, i will try my best to not over-indulge and do at least 30 min to 1h of in-home-bycicle-thing, hoping my will power doesn't abandon me right then, right now.

Note: I'm ok with criticism, tips, help and such, just don't be mean.
 
Hey Dragon and welcome to the forum!

First off: you do NOT deserve to be publicly shamed for anything which does not involve abusing animals or people weaker than you. You deserve to be treated with kindness and respect. Second: maybe it would be easier to practice self-control when you haven´t pretty much fasted for 24 hours? If you get up at eleven and eat lunch between 12 and 1, breakfast probably isn´t a priority, but maybe you could fit in a regular, healthy brunch/lunch, consider your (already healthy, moderate) dinner as you second meal and plan for another meal later in the evening? That way you could fit in all your nutrients and maybe not get so cravy late at night.
Best of luck on your journey, we´ll be here to cheer you on.
LaMa
 
I agree with LaMa eating with some consistency and routine should help with the self control. If youre skipping breakfast and lunch some days your body would be screaming at you to eat anything and thats when poor food choices are made.
I often get up late too but I always have a smoothie-something fairly light that agrees with me and then I eat something healthy every 3 hours otherwise I binge eat.
You may have to force something down at first but it will get easier.

Goodluck
 
Hi dragon & welcome to the forum. We won't be mean & there will be no shaming, public or otherwise. This is a friendly, kind & supportive place. LaMa & Katy have given you sound advice already. Try to start your day with something healthy, light & including protein. Even a little tub of yoghurt is a good start to the day. You can do this!
 
maybe it would be easier to practice self-control when you haven´t pretty much fasted for 24 hours?
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I don't really have problems fasting, but i don't do it often. It's not like i say "well let's not eat for 24h" it's more like "oh, it's 7pm already? Guess i'll have to prepare dinner", and then i either forget or skip it for lazyness.

I'll try to eat small meals like you all say, even if i'm not big on fixing me food. I do know how to cook, but i'm just lazy... lazyyyyyyy.


Ty all for the kind replies. I see the guy/guerl that replied first was, in fact, a spammer :D

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Good news for today, i think my scale broke, since i'm now only 100 kg. Idk what happened.

My first day went good, for my standards.

Breakfast with a cup of yoghurt and an apple, for lunch i heated some leftover egg-plant-and-cheese i did yesterday (idk how to call that in english) and for dinner will be some broth.

Maybe not the 100% best balanced meal, but still better than fast-food and the likes.

Tinyedit: I also am starting to use the stand-bycicle i have at home. Not much, 5/10 minutes at most is what i can endure before boredom (much boredom) comes in, but i plan on continuing. Hopefully.
 
Sounds like improvement to me! I can only do endurance stuff if a) I have a screen with moving images in front of me, b) I´m outside or c) I go deep inside my skull to do some adventuring on the side. If you sit a lot you can easily up your calories burned by getting up every hour and jumping/squatting/sidestepping/biking/walking in place for a minute or 5, just to keep circulation in your legs going.
 
Ok, for yesterday it didn't go so well. I kinda gave in to my inner cravings, but i hope it won't happen again any time soon. I still did my exercises (tuning the difficulty up for the bycicle thing) though.

Today went definitely better, normal breakfast, normal lunch, i guess normal dinner. Servings not too large, exercises to top it up. I did extra effort to make up for yesterday.

Just a bonus question for whoever is reading this:
If i have fat on my belly/sides, is it enough to do leg/arms exercises and none for the abdominal area?
I will get to do those, but my experience in high school left me totally defeated for push-ups and the ones you do on your back lol
 
Your fat cells don´t care which muscles you activate; whether or not they get emptied out depends only on total energy expenditure compared to energy intake. However: Legs, butt and back contain the biggest, most energy-burning muscles so they´re generally a good start.
 
Welcome Dragon,

No shaming allowed here. We are all or were all in the same boat. Looks like you are starting to get the hang of things. It is important to eat through the day, this will definitely help with the binge eating. Exercising is fantastic too. It will help you burn some calories as well.
 
So, yesterday went good, as it can be.

Light Breakfast, normal lunch, salad-Mix for dinner.

I downloaded MyFitnessPal app, so i now know how much calories i'm eating, more or less.
I just sterted to realize that eating healty and doing exercises counts a LOT on energy intake. Yesterday i ate 1200 calories and burned up 160 by doing just 15 mins of bycicle. Crazy.

I know i shouldn't be going under 1.4k a day, but I don't feel hungry at all, doing this. If i do, i just eat some grapes to fill me up (under 30 cal lol). I'll keep this up until i'm satisfied though, eating a bit more proteins (like meat) and less carbohydrates when i can.

Bonus question for whoever is reading:
If i eat my "breakfast" at 11 and lunch at 12/13, is that a very bad thing or it doesn't matter, as long as i don't over-eat and eat healthy?

Thank you all for the support ^^
 
My last days were quite normal, to be honest.
Just saturday i went to an all you can eat japanese restaurant, but it's my total weakness, i can't get enough of it. I exercised extra today and friday, because in the weekend i can't use the bycicle. Not that i can't, but i don't want to. I get nervous when i'm seen exercising, so i just skip it when my father's home.

My daily calories tally is more or less 1.000 - 1100 , and i don't really feel famished or malnourished... We'll see how this goes.
 
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