Sydrinne's 67lbs Weight Loss Diary

[Sydrinne]

Hey everyone.

I joined this forum in the hope to finally get the motivation up to do what I have always longed for since I hit puberty: Getting a slim and beautiful body.

It's been something I have been and still am obsessed with. I would love to wear beautiful clothes but I am stuck to simple jeans, tops and jackets to hide what's underneath. And since I have got a boyfriend the insecurities and obsession didn't fade away, but only became worse. It's difficult to be intimate with him because I am so insecure with myself. Since he and I have a holiday to Slovenia planned for this summer, I want to show him and myself someone who does rock a bikini.

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I started little over a week ago, February 10th.

Current weight, height & BMI:
Age: 19 years
Height: 168cm (5'6)
Max weight: 85,5kg (188lb)
Current Weight: 84kg (185lb)
Current BMI: 29,8

Weight loss (Week 1): 1.5kg (3lb)
Goal weight: 55kg (121lb)

What I have started / plan on doing:
What I have already started doing:
- I drastically cut down on my sugar intake . I never realized sugar was such a fattening product, which is why I now try to stay as close to 0 grams as possible (excluding natural sugars for example in fruits). I don't really drink sodas anyway, but I have replaced my thirst for lemonade with a thirst for water. I would say water takes up about 90% of what I drink a week. I am also trying to drink as close to 2 litres of water a day, but I'm still struggling. I usually drink about 1 - 1,5 litres a day.
- I started to cut out sweets and replaced them with sugar free chewing gum . This may not be the most healthy choice as constantly chewing gum may cause health problems, but it's a temporary solution for my cravings for unhealthy, fried or sweet foods. I used to crave foods that have lots of calories in them (pizza, jelly beans, meats, fried chicken, crisps etc).

What I plan on doing:
- Do the cooking completely by myself . I currently live in a house with 3 other teenagers who live with... How do I say this in English.. Guidance? Counselors? Surveillance? Every one of us has to cook 1 day a week, but I am going to try to sort out that I get to cook my own dinner every single day and do groceries myself. The reason why I would love to do this is because I genuinely love healthy foods while my fellow housemates often prepare unhealthy meals (wraps, mac & cheese, other pastas). Though I would much rather have some chicken & broccoli instead of those dishes. I love vegetables, chicken and I do not like foods like potatoes nearly as much. Which is why I feel cooking my own meals would really benefit my goals to lose weight and become healthy. I'm also planning on buying a smaller plate so my portions seem to be the same size while they are actually a lot smaller.
- Get my sleeping pattern back on track . I am definitely a night owl, but both my health and weight could really benefit from having a proper sleeping pattern. When I don't have to go anywhere I could easily stay up until 6-8am and get out of bed around 4pm. Since this is interfering with my relationship as well (as I'm always tired when he comes over) I feel like this could be a huge step forward.
- Exercise more . Yes, the old weight loss standard that is exercise. The thing is, I love dancing. I love learning choreography of K-pop songs and I don't mind spending time on it. I just don't spend my time on it nearly as much as I would love to. I would actually love signing up for a membership at a fitness center or swimming center, but I currently don't have the money to do so.

First stop: The weight I was back in October!

If anyone has other tips for me, I would really love to hear!

 

[Sydrinne]

I'm currently still at 84 Kg. I'm actually happy about this since I went to visit my dad this weekend. They actually don't have fruits at home and it's really difficult to resist the temptation for unhealthy foods, but I feel like I've done well this weekend.

 

[Loch]

Sounds like you have a good idea of what you need to do. Cooking for yourself will definitely help with making healthy choices, especially if you cook healthy meals with lots of vegetables. Don't worry if you don't get in 2l of water a day, 1.5 sounds really good if you're not used to the water intake. I struggle with that too.

The thing is, losing weight is mostly about food. You don't need a gym, you just need to watch what you eat, and make sure you don't go over your calories. Take walks if you can, they are great for burning some calories and you don't have to spend any money.

And remember, beauty is also on the inside . Good luck! Keep making healthy choices!

 

[Cate]

Hi, Sydrinne & welcome to the forum. I think your plans sound very sound & should work. Cooking for yourself does sound like the go as you know what you should be eating & you seem to know what you should & shouldn't be eating. It is easy to get more exercise if you are conscious of it. Taking the steps, going for a walk, dancing.....they all add up & they also make you feel better. I really do think that you will do this. Don't be hard on yourself as the kinder you are to yourself the better you will treat yourself. All the best sweets!

 

[Sydrinne]

I've already proven to myself that it was a good decision to join this forum and make a diary.

What I ate & drank today:
- Glass of lemonade [75 calories]
- Meat bun [576 calories]
- 2 pieces of sugar free chewing gum [5 calories]
- 500g Broccoli [115 calories]
- 285g Chicken [314 calories]
- Little bit of Sweet & Sour sauce [+- 100 calories]
- 2 bottles (750 ml) of water [0 calories]

Total: 1.185 calories

I woke up in the afternoon again though I went to bed earlier. I usually go to bed between 6-7am and last night it was 3:30am. That's still quite late for most people, but it's a step in the right direction for me. This means I couldn't have breakfast unfortunately.

On tuesday nights I always go to school, so I can't attend dinner with my fellow housemates. When we're in a situation where we just cannot have dinner at the house, we're given 4 euros to get something (we don't have to pay for our own meals here anyway, so that's why we don't have to pay that ourselves). I would usually get fries with a snack, döner or pizza, but since I didn't want to have either of those things on my list on this weight loss diary, I decided to go to the grocery store and get me some chicken & broccoli. The store is also on a little distance from home, so I got a little walk out of there too.
If it wasn't for this weight loss diary, I would probably just have gotten one of the fast foods I mentioned earlier, so I'm very happy with today!

 

[Trusylver]

Well done making a good food choice instead of pizza !

 

[Sydrinne]

Alright, so I have had a few setback days where I started off really well but night time would turn into a disaster.
I think the past couple of days were between 2000-3000 calories. I would weigh myself but my scale doesn't seem to be working, probably needs a battery change.

I also might talk to a therapist about something that's been bugging me.
I've experienced multiple problems lately that all end up at the same possible main problem: I think I might have OCD.
This also results in having trouble with eating healthy. If I think about having something but I know it's not healthy, it will literally be on my mind and bug me until I take it anyway. Even when I'm not hungry, I cannot set it aside. This is not like usual cravings (though I can't deny I've had those too) but these impulse control problems really seem to affect my daily life in multiple ways.

Anyway, I think it'll be best if I try to set goals for myself, so here goes:
Goal 1: Below 84 kg (185lbs) It really bugs me, and I would love to see that '3' again instead of a 4 or 5
Goal 2: 80 kg (176 lb) What would motivate me more than anything, is to see that 8 go. I've been on there for like a year now.
Goal 3: 70 kg (154 lb) I know this will be a big jump, but I'd like my goals to get easier rather than harder. Losing more pounds from there on would only be more difficult.
Goal 4: 65 kg (143 lb)
Goal 5: 62 kg (137 lb)
Goal 6: 60 kg (132 lb)
Goal 7: 55 kg (121 lb) - If I actually have the strenght to get it down to 60 kg, then 55 kg would only be extra. 60 is a healthy weight and I think I'd be much happier by then.

Extra goal: Get rid of the chewing gum. It occasionally gives me pretty bad stomach aches.

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Well after all this, there is actually some progress: I am now allowed to cook dinner myself on mondays, tuesdays and thursdays. I hope this will help a lot and help me to make healthy choices, and help me be more aware of how many calories I eat. Because the past couple of days I had absolutely no clue, mainly because I had no idea how many calories there were in my dinner.

 

[Trusylver]

55 kg would put you borderline under weight for your height and is not a realistic goal.

 

[Sydrinne]

55 kg would put you borderline under weight for your height and is not a realistic goal.

I know it's not. But I seem to have a very hard time reaching my goals, basically with anything in life. So if I set the bar too high and is too unrealistic I might just reach a healthy weight in the process.