sunkissbabe
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This would be my first entry, and bare with me, I am pretty illiterate when it comes to this style of diaries. I have read a few other diaries here and there, even though I would rather not show my pictures -- at least not yet, I feel it will be just as sufficient to describe my weight loss strugles briefly, I promise 
When my parents separated and my mother chose to move quite a far distance away, and since I am the eldest out of two daughters, I was forced at an early age to "grow up." My mother would spend as much time at work in order to put food on the table and to further our development. This created a huge lack in the mothering skills that we desperately desired. I had to start taking care of my sister at a tender age. I would make sure we (My sister and I) would meet after school and ensure that she ate and was okay until my mother came home and took over. Considering I was only 9 or 10, I really could not make much so my mother would buy us quick and easy fixes for meals after school. This consisted of a lot of prepared foods as well as junk food and soda. Sure, this kept me and my sister quite happy at the time, but it has taken a very long time to break the cycle. Such food was now entrenched in my life style, not only was it easy and cheap solutions, but it almost made me feel happy. Somewhat of a quick fix, I always indulge in these foods especially when I am extremely stressed out.
I have been trying to work out and eat as healthy as possible. I've been seeing great results so far! To be honest though, I have hindered the process somewhat since i've chosen to ignore my weight loss process. I hate weighing myself on my scale and keeping track of those 3 numbers. Sometimes it depresses me so much and I've failed to transform that guilt into motivation. I find that fat is turning into muscle and I've come to terms with my progress. I know it's better to be healthy and live a healthy lifestyle instead of losing the lbs I want and still live an unhealthy lifestyle. I know I weighed 170 something about a couple of months ago and the only time I am weighed is when I have too. I hate using scales and I'd rather keep track of my BMI...because then I flat out know my fat % and muscle %. It makes life much reasurring. The only trouble I seem to be having is losing stomach fat. I am not sure what I could do to get rid of it, but i'd really like to!
Cheers!
When my parents separated and my mother chose to move quite a far distance away, and since I am the eldest out of two daughters, I was forced at an early age to "grow up." My mother would spend as much time at work in order to put food on the table and to further our development. This created a huge lack in the mothering skills that we desperately desired. I had to start taking care of my sister at a tender age. I would make sure we (My sister and I) would meet after school and ensure that she ate and was okay until my mother came home and took over. Considering I was only 9 or 10, I really could not make much so my mother would buy us quick and easy fixes for meals after school. This consisted of a lot of prepared foods as well as junk food and soda. Sure, this kept me and my sister quite happy at the time, but it has taken a very long time to break the cycle. Such food was now entrenched in my life style, not only was it easy and cheap solutions, but it almost made me feel happy. Somewhat of a quick fix, I always indulge in these foods especially when I am extremely stressed out.
I have been trying to work out and eat as healthy as possible. I've been seeing great results so far! To be honest though, I have hindered the process somewhat since i've chosen to ignore my weight loss process. I hate weighing myself on my scale and keeping track of those 3 numbers. Sometimes it depresses me so much and I've failed to transform that guilt into motivation. I find that fat is turning into muscle and I've come to terms with my progress. I know it's better to be healthy and live a healthy lifestyle instead of losing the lbs I want and still live an unhealthy lifestyle. I know I weighed 170 something about a couple of months ago and the only time I am weighed is when I have too. I hate using scales and I'd rather keep track of my BMI...because then I flat out know my fat % and muscle %. It makes life much reasurring. The only trouble I seem to be having is losing stomach fat. I am not sure what I could do to get rid of it, but i'd really like to!
Cheers!
