Starting over

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ajwynn

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Well here I am on the last day before I start working out. I am so tired of not feeling comfortable in my own skin. I don't want to go out to eat because I am fat. I always feel like people are staring at me. I really want to get back to my normal size. I just have a hard time staying motivated. I don't want to be fat, but I don't want to give up my sweets. I am having a serious laziness issue.

As I am writing this, I am having a AHA moment. I need to change my attitude!!! I am so used to not working hard to be happy. I am always looking for a quick fix and for someone to help me. I am way too dependent on other people. I always look for the easy way out. I am making a decision right now to not give in to temptation. I am not going to be a lazy person. I am going to keep thinking of how I feel right now.

I want to be confident. I want to feel beautiful. I want to be able to go out in public and not feel like everyone is looking at the ugly girl. I want to be able to be comfortable being intimate with my husband. I want to think about anything other than my weight and what food I am going to eat. I want a new life!!!!

I have about 70 pounds to lose in order to get to my goal weight. I'm not ready to put my actual weight on the boards yet, but I hope that I can come back and say what my starting weight is/was. My plan is to work out in the morning about 5 to 6 days a week. I am starting off slowly with about 3 days a week and slowly incorporate weights too. My biggest thing will be motivating myself to get up in the morning and also not eating a bunch of junk. With my schedule I have to get up early to get my workout in, so the timing is not an option. I am excited to get started, but I'm also a little scared. I guess that's normal.
 
You should post your weight. You need to hold yourself accountable for what you've done to your body. I know that sounds harsh, but I went through the same thing and was scared to even get on the scales. Because getting on the scales and posting your weight for all to see if scary as fuck but you're here to get help! People on this forum range for 130lbs to 400+ pounds. No one will judge you and it will help you. When you lose weight it's such a great feeling being able to have people here to share in your happiness and when you fall off the wagon everyone is around to drag you back onto it kicking and screaming!

Good luck and welcome!
 
You know sunflower you are right. My current weight is 194.8 pounds. WOW, I am almost at 200 pounds!! Saying it out loud makes it so real. It's one thing to look at the scale and keep that number to yourself. You can pretend that it's not your reality. I guess putting it out there is actually freeing. Now I really don't have anything to hide. Well it's time to really get this weight off. Thanks for your support guys.

Cantona, it really did help.
 
I started off at over 200! You'll be below 190 and smashing your goals before you know it :D

How many calories are you going to be eating a day? Will you do exercise?

xxx
 
I was pushing 300.

You either get a pleasant surprise or a nasty shock the first time you step on those scales. For most people on here, it's probably the latter :(
 
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