It is pride swallowing and humiliating to step on the scale and find that you have put on every pound that you had worked so hard to take off, plus an extra 10. It is also something to cheer about because it is that moment when you are ready to say...I need to do this for me.
I took the giant leap!! I knew I had put on ALOT of weight but I had been avoiding the scale. Something just clicked on Monday April 10, 2006 and I decided I needed to gain control of my weight again. So I headed to the Weight Watchers meeting to face my greatest fear. It is bad enough to stand on a scale and look at the numbers by myself but it is a different ball game when you have to stand in front of some else. Wow...212.2....really??.....Hmmmm....that is disappointing....ok...I am here now....better get to work....I can do this....I will do this...I am doing this!!!
Funny how many things a person can think in a matter of seconds!! I have been depressed, I have been unmotivated about everything in my life and any task just seems soooo difficult. Brushing my teeth had become a major deal....now here I am...there is hope and I am the only one responsible for the state I am in. So starting at ground zero....here I go!
I want to believe my husband when he says that I look good. I want to feel comfortable in theatre seats. I want to be able to close the door to a bathroom stall without having to turn sideways. I want to relax in jeans because they aren't too tight. I want to buy whatever clothes are in style. I want to feel proud of what I have accomplished and I want to feel confident and happy.
On Monday April 17, 2006 I weighed in....first weight loss weigh-in...OHHHH the pressure.....OHHH the excitement. What will the scale say? 206.8....WOOHOO!!! 5.4 for week one...not bad...I know it slows down after week one but I will stay within my points range this week and I must get some exercise.
I am proud of myself...one day at a time, one week at a time and one weigh-in at a time.
I took the giant leap!! I knew I had put on ALOT of weight but I had been avoiding the scale. Something just clicked on Monday April 10, 2006 and I decided I needed to gain control of my weight again. So I headed to the Weight Watchers meeting to face my greatest fear. It is bad enough to stand on a scale and look at the numbers by myself but it is a different ball game when you have to stand in front of some else. Wow...212.2....really??.....Hmmmm....that is disappointing....ok...I am here now....better get to work....I can do this....I will do this...I am doing this!!!
Funny how many things a person can think in a matter of seconds!! I have been depressed, I have been unmotivated about everything in my life and any task just seems soooo difficult. Brushing my teeth had become a major deal....now here I am...there is hope and I am the only one responsible for the state I am in. So starting at ground zero....here I go!
I want to believe my husband when he says that I look good. I want to feel comfortable in theatre seats. I want to be able to close the door to a bathroom stall without having to turn sideways. I want to relax in jeans because they aren't too tight. I want to buy whatever clothes are in style. I want to feel proud of what I have accomplished and I want to feel confident and happy.
On Monday April 17, 2006 I weighed in....first weight loss weigh-in...OHHHH the pressure.....OHHH the excitement. What will the scale say? 206.8....WOOHOO!!! 5.4 for week one...not bad...I know it slows down after week one but I will stay within my points range this week and I must get some exercise.
I am proud of myself...one day at a time, one week at a time and one weigh-in at a time.