DreamingOutloud
New member
<-- In need of one of those. lolNew to the forums, just posted on the newbie thread a little bit ago.
Just recently started my journey - February 13, 2011.
I'll give you a bit of background...
I'm 25, female..
I've always been overweight...as a kid, a teenager and now I am at my largest as an adult. I'm not going to put my weight.. not yet anyways.. but right now.. I take a size 24/26..4X at plus size female clothing stores.
I feel like the odds are against me.
I don't think for anyone it's easy being big.. but on top of that.. I have..well.."issues"...Depression..Anxiety..Panic Disorder..all of that combined has me worried that I will fail. That it will stop me from getting to where I want to be someday. I can't let it.
In all honesty, I'm terrified.. Terrified of failing, of dying, of..everything that comes with being overweight... and everything that comes with trying to lose weight.
When I was 21 I got down a few sizes (18 was my smallest during that time), and I felt great about myself, but I did it in a very unhealthy way and ended up gaining it all back, plus more. Not this time.
I'm here to do it the right way. I am ready, I know it's going to be hard, probably harder than I can imagine actually, but, it's time.
I have read tons of stories and have seen tons of pictures so far on this forum and I am truly inspired.
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