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July 31/06 8:27am
Something my Grandma always said to me.
"Today is the first day of the rest of your life."

If I can just get through today I will be okay.

My biggest problem I'm facing today is the fact that I have no good food in the house and no money to buy some. I have flour, potatoes, rice and white bread all that deadly white food that Oprah keeps saying is nasty and bad! DH doesn't get paid until Thrusday so what is a girl to do??? It's expensive to eat healthy!!!! I guess if I make sure that I at lest get outside and do some walking, I'll be okay until it's time to buy more food.

I hate it that my DH can eat as much as he wants and whatever he wants and NEVER gains a pound. He weighs like 125 lbs soaking wet! *sigh* I'm like three of him!

I think I have an apple in the fridge that will be breakfest. I know that I will feel hungery all day today...It's strange when I don't have hardly any food in the house, I feel more hungery and desperate to get some food. It's like I panic and I have to eat whatever is left all at once. Strange... wonder why.

till later
 
August 14, 2006(long)

Positive thinking and having a purpose!!!!!

I was up late last night surfing the net and thinking. I found some amazing sites on BBW's that have ladies with lots of confidence and are happy with how their bodies look. They have lots of fun and go out and party and live life to the fullest. So why am I always sitting at home feeling sorry for myself, trying to cure my woos with a jelly donut or ... well a dozen donuts and other junk food??? It has gotten to the point where my body hurts to move, even sitting on the couch has gotten uncomfortable where the only place I feel less pain is in bed and that scares the Q#$% out of me!!!

Sometimes you just have to do what is uncomfortable! Today when I woke up I smiled. Last night realizing that it's okay to love your body no matter what size you are is okay. I think part of my problem all theses years was that I was afraid that I wouldn't ever look like some who lose weight, that hour glass figure, and you know what it's okay!!! I'm allowed to be happy, I'm allowed to love my body, feel sexy even at the 390:eek: (I can't believe I just told you!!) some odd pounds. Now I'm not saying that I want to stay at that weight. I'm saying it takes loving yourself no matter what size to make a difference. For so long I have had a hate relationship with my body. Not anymore.. I choose to love my body, my mind, my soul and everything that is about me. I choose to be my #1 fan!!! As my #1 fan do I want to eat the junk that will make me sick? NO!!!!! I want to do what I can to be healthy... no matter what my weight is! I think that is the secret folks!!! Be your #1 Fan! and love life, fill it full of people that you love and that love you back, fill it up with things you believe in, things that you enjoy! I am inquiring about taking Belly dancing lessons!!! I might not be beautiful at it but I know I would have fun doing it! I'm going to go to the bar on Thrusday and enter a contest singing kareoke!!! (was always afraid of going to the bar, afraid of other ppl and comments)
I just don't want to live in the fat box anymore. I know that there is a beautiful life ahead of me and I plan on living it!!!!!

Today I started chair exercises and ate breakfest (oatmeal, blueberries and yougart) and downloaded some Belly dancing music to dance around the house today with!! lol

I love all you gods and goddesses out there!!!! live to the fullest today!!!!

Bless you!!!!

Sherikins!
 
Sherikins,
GOOD For YOU for coming to this realization!!

Our bodies are only our outside shells of who we are. Who we are, are people of value, to be respected and loved.

When we can see the truth of that, then we can shape the outside shell to represent who's inside. We'll have enough respect for that outside shell to treat it with the respect it deserves based on who we are.

I firmly believe that the key to getting fit, losing weight and being healthy can only start when we love ourselves enough to MAKE it happen!

Good for you for taking the first steps :)
 
Wow what an amazing confessional! You are so right about loving yourself...sometimes it is so hard when we are bombarded with images of what is considered "beautiful". But learning to love ourselves can come in moments of true inspiration....such as your entry, or loving your children, or getting up one morning and decidiing to workout. I know sometimes I feel so down I wonder "why bother" and then I realize I bother because I matter and my life matters. And I have a lot of living to do!
We are here for you if you decide to stick around. These are a great group of people who are incredibly supportive...especially on those days when you feel like *****! :D Put me in your cheering section!
 
Sherikins..... The hardest thing is just getting going. Going out in public with the mind set of today, It's hard. It feels as if everyone is watching you and you hear whispers that people should really learn to keep to themselves. Even after my last surgery when i could move i got to where i was in the bed longer and longer and your right it scares the *&^*&^ out of you. Just remember your not going through anything most of us havent been through or at least though about. Its just one day at a time and if you mess up one day, hey your human and its gonna happen. Just learn from it...........lee
 
August 14th pm

thank you, thank you, thank you!!!!!! for all your comments and replies!! I NEED them so badly. I moved to a new city with my hubby and I know no one!! I have no support system here so having you all cheering me on helps beyond what you can imagine.

I did okay today I know it can only get better from here! :)

for lunch I had a hot dog (I know not good at all, it will get better I promise!)
once piece of multi grain bread.
skim cheese slice
bit of ketchup

for dinner
1 low fat turkey burger
cup of mixed veggies
cup of KD
cup of fruit salad


snack
tbsp peanut butter

I know that I didn't eat enough and what I ate wasn't the best... but things will change. I have to organize my meals when I shop next.

oh oh oh :eek: I forgot to tell everyone, I'm starting college on the 28th!!!! the next two years there is going to be a whole new Sherikins or just the Sherikins I'm ment to be! :) I'm glad that I have all you to walk through it with!

Blessings to all of you god and goddesses!!!!

HUGS!
 
I am in the same boat as you, I am trying to eat healthy and continue to be a cheapskate. Its it weird how easy it is to eat poorly, and cheap too.

Veggies are cheap, chicken breasts (on sale), whole wheat bread, tuna, whole wheat tortillas, whole wheat pasta, those are some of my staples for cheap healthy eating.
 
Welcome Sherikins! Another great idea this time of year is getting that fresh produce chopped up and put up in your freezer!! It'll be a lot cheaper come the winter. And it'll be easier and faster to make meals. Keep moving and shakin'
Blessed Be
T.
 
way to go girl!

HI!!!
It sounds like your on the right track!!! Love yourself girl, and be excited about who you really are...a phenominal woman... Sorry I'm in love with that Maya Angelou poem he he! Every woman needs to read it at least once! I'm so excited for you...your life is on the verge of a new chapter, Give it all youv'e got!! I too am a college student and I work part time unless I'm needed more, it's tough but very rewarding. I know that you can do this and make all your dreams come true! I'm behind ya every step of the way!!
 
August 15th

Good morning all you gods and goddesses!!!!

I did it! :eek: I woke up this morning, got out of bed, had breakfest and did my chair exercises! I did it!!!! Yippy!:D

They say if you do something for 21 days, it becomes a habbit!

My goals for today is planning a week healthy menu. I'm going shopping on Thursday :)

Plus I am choosing not to eat after 8pm from now on. Munching at night is a BIG problem for me.

Have a wonderful day everyone!!!

Blessings!
Sherikins
 
WAY TO GO SHERIKINS!

I know how hard it is to be motivated to move, and to eat healthy when there's nothing around (especially when I hate veggies!). Replace one habit with another...everytime I get the munchies, I either gather the kids up and go for a short walk, or I tidy the house, or even better, I do some scrapbooking. It keeps my mind and hands BUSY, something I find helps a lot.

Keep posting!
 
August 18th

Hello all you gods and goddesses? :D

How is it going???

It is going really good with me!

I went shopping yesterday, it's been a year since I did healthy food shopping (reading labels, making sure I'm buying enough food to be balanced)

I have exercised everyday this week, and I have eaten as healthy as I could (should have eaten more, but didn't have it in the house had to wait till pay day to shop)

anyway, I know this is it... this time in my life I am becoming more aware of who I am inside, I am becoming confident, I think I'm just falling in love with ME!!!! So many years I felt like I should be ashamed of how I look, and I took that rejection inside and felt like I wasn't worthy to even love myself. I'm not changing my life style to 'Loose weight" I'm doing to stay alive, to live... and enjoy the person I am in the inside and see the inside manifest on the outside. Truly, on the inside of this girl is an strong active healthy person. This is why when I'm doing my excercises I start to giggle. I'm so excited about my future, I'm already a bright person but ppl watch out you are about to see me shine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you all, and I'm so proud of all of you, you are so important and you deserve to LIVE healthy!!!

Bless you all

Sherikins
 
weird thing about all this healthy food talk, i used to eat mcdonalds, wendys, all of that stuff everyday. used to have a chicken burger, poutine and 2 beers for lunch, everyday.

now if i eat a chicken burger, i feel like i need to buy a bra.

i think healthy food is good for you, but i think its mainly about excercise.
maybe thats just my body, boy i miss those good ol days, but back then, because my jobs required me to be on my feet and being physical i guess i just burnt all those fat calories off and then some.
 
Hello Sherikins,
Just wanted to say be encouraged.. You CAN do it, just wait until you see the scales going down, and your clothes fitting better, that is the best motivator for me. Hope it works for you.

ps. Drink LOTS of water. it is SOOOO important in weight loss. trust me, it works... (drink 8, 8oz glasses every day)
 
You're doing such a great job..don't give up keep going. We are all and some of us were all in the same boat as you, you're going to find a lot of support and love on here, and whenever you feel like you can't do it, come here and read and motivate yourself , let's not make food our lovers girls :p
By the way I LOVE BELLY DANCING...very fun ..gives you a great work without even noticing it's a workout.
 
I love your attitude. Keep it Up and i am glad you got al your Good foods. Stay Positive, have a AWESOME Day and don't forget to drink your WATER:D
 
August 21

gooooooooooood mooooooorning gods and goddesses!!!!!!

How was everyones weekend? I did well over the weekend, I did have a munchy freak on during the evening both Sat. night and sunday night. and I have to admit I had chocolate mmmmmmmmm but but but, instead of my regular chocolate bar I got one of those new cadbury thins, only 100 calories and the BEST creamiest chocolate!!! I had my fix and it was only 100 calories, so I didn't feel the guilt I usually do. :) so it was alllll good ;)

Drinking water is my biggest challenge for me... it's not that I don't like to, infact in my house hold it's all we drink besides tea. I just find I get busy doing something and forget to do it. I'm going to make a water chart and put it on the fridge and mark down every time I drink water.

one bottle of water counts for two right???

I tried couscous for the first time last night. I LOVE it!! I made it with raisins. My husband enjoyed it too. I told my hubby this weekend that all the food in the house is going to be healthy food from now on, and if he didn't like it he could just starve. lol (he is one that can eat ANYTHING and as much as he wants and never gains a pound) I told him if he wants junk food, that he has all week during work to eat his junk and his office. lol

I have cut salt out of my diet, and boy do I see a difference!!! For weeks/months my feet would retain water so badly it looked like I only had lil stubs for toes, but now my toes look long and you can actually see my feet!!! The best part is that there in no more pain. At times I thought that my skin would pop because there was so much water on top of my feet.

this is my train of thought, If just after a week or so of eating healthy and being more active I feel this good. and the pain is already going away, why oh why would I want to go back??? back to pain, back to feeling horrible??? I don't want to go there again.

thank you for all your support peeps!!!

You truly are gods and goddesses! Love on yourselves today and be blessed!

Sherikins:D
 
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