Alexis Barkalow
New member
Okay so I have really severe asthma, where I struggle to keep it under control even with a maintenance inhaler. Yes, I follow my doctor's plan precisely. I also get respiratory infections extremely easily, which is one of the biggest things that makes it hard to control. Mine is triggered by MANY things such as allergies (I have severe allergies too, yeare round thanks to also having non-allergic rhinitis as well), both hot and cold temperatures, weather change, exercise, and stress/anxiety. It seems like no matter what I do, exercising leaves me without being able to breath, even just walking for fifteen minutes leaves me breathless and always has. I end up hospitalized 2-3 times a year for asthma, but the more weight I put on, the more that's also effecting my asthma. Due to this I've resorted many times to starving myself because it seems like the only way I can lose weight, but as soon as I stop starving myself, obviously, I put the weight right back on but faster. I almost feel like I'm about to give up. I hate my body and desperately want to lose weight and have been contemplating starving myself as much as possible permanently, and even though I know that could he fatal, I've also felt suicidal due to my weight recently anyway. I just want to feel pretty. What do I do? I'm 5'3" and 179 lbs.