Second Time's a Charm for DoxieGirl

doxiegirl

doxiegirl

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Hello everyone... This is my second attempt with using WLF for support. My first attempt was cut short as my husband had a medical emergency December of 2006. He is better now, but the immediacy and the stress of the situation thwarted my efforts at using this forum for support, and ultimately derailed my weight loss efforts. Derailment is not a good thing when you have polycystic ovarian syndrome. I went to my doctor just after my 26th birthday on November 17th, and am now under the medical weight loss care of my doctor.

Through everything I continued to eat right and exercise approximately 45 minutes 4 days a week, but my PCOS made weight loss non-existent. In fact, I gained weight. On my first visit to the docs I weighed 179. I am on a 1200 calorie a day diet with 2 shakes a day (the kind they give bariatric patients right after surgery) and 5 mg of meridia. I recently upped my exercise from 45 minutes to 90 minutes 6 days a week. I do 4 days of 90 minutes of tae-bo, and the other days are mixed cardio to include a minimum of 3 miles running. I do push-ups and sit-ups everyday. I am also using the Zone as a guide for my 1200 calorie a day diet.

I was down 6 pounds as of last Thursday, but today I'm up to 176 :(. I'm hoping it's water weight right before my cycle starts.

Oh, and I drink a minimum of 90 ounces of water a day.

My husband is very supportive of me, but doesn't struggle with his weight. I hope that I can get support and encouragement from people going through what I am. Look forward to cheering each other on, and meeting my goal of becoming a Navy officer!

Height: 5'1.5"
Starting Weight: 179
Current Weight: 176
Goal #1 Weight: 150
Final Goal Weight: 130
 
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Slept late today after working late last night at the library. Working late again tonight.

Food:
1 shake
1.5 cups egg flower soup
3 veggie crackers
1 ritz cracker
2 tbsp spinach dip
1 oz kielbasa
2 slices wheat bread
2 tsp mayonnaise
2 eggs scrambled
1 shake
1 cup popcorn plain
Calorie total: 1215 calories

Exercise: 90 minutes of tae bo (1 T3 video, 1 abs video)
3 sets 50 sit-ups
5 sets 15 push-ups
 
Wow, you're doing really great with the exercise!!! I wish I had your motivation. I want to exercise, but something always comes up. That seems like just another excuse now that I look at it. Looking at your workout schedule, I realize that I need to step it up and get started. I've been trying to cut out junk food for now, but I guess I need to do the exercise too. Keep up the good work.
 
Don't Eat Sweets!

I'm having major cravings today. I'm tired because I worked late last night and had to get to work early today (on 5.5 hours of sleep) to work another long one. Exam time at an academic library is a busy one for assistant librarians. I'm tired and all I want to do is eat sweets to get my energy up. But I'm being good for now... I've had one cup of Earl Gray with 2 packets of Splenda and half a bagel so far. Considering the size today's bagel, half a bagel is one serving... the whole one would be two. I threw the other half away so I wouldn't eat it. I work so long today that I'm only going to get to do 1/2 an hour of exercise at most. And to top it all off, the staff puts out candy for the students during the holidays, and I have about 300 Sees chocolates sitting in front of me ALLLLLL day, and I can't move them :banghead:

Please, someone tell me not to eat sweets. I can tell myself, but we all know how that works....
 
Aaaarrrgggghhhh (Charlie Brown style exasperated yell). A co-worker just brought in cheese-cake. My FAVORITE. I will resist. I will resist. I will resist. Just need to make it to lunch and hopefully it will be gone when I come back to work. I am waking up a bit, so I am planning, as of now, to do my full work out still today. We'll see how that goes come 5:00 and I still need to go home and make dinner and take care of the dogs and spend time with my husband, and every other thing that draws attention away from what I should be focusing on.
 
It's a good thing that holiday candy isn't around all year!!! You should be so proud of yourself for having such strong dedication. If there was candy right in front of me all day, I don't know how long I'd last. Way to go!!! I know how you feel about people bringing in sweets. I'm at stay at home mom, but my husband is the king of junk food, especially when I'm trying to be good. The next day will be a better day. You will get through this and you will succeed. Keep up the great work.
 
So I was right about the period thing... started today and had to rush home at lunch. No wonder I felt like a bloated whale and my weight was up. Weighed myself when I was home, and was 173. Phew, water weight gone. Well, despite my little surprise visit, at least the cheese cake was gone, and I am still being good for calories. Had a tuna pack with 1 tbsp mayo and 2 tbsp relish. Also had 1/2 a Pepsi. poured half in a glass, the other half down the drain. Feel like I want to eat everything in sight. :piggy:
 
And so ends a long day of temptation. For the first time in a while I wanted to go out and get fast food. Long John Silvers to be specific. I wanted to go out mainly because I was tired and didn't want to cook, but I was good and we ended up NOT going out! I was looking up calories before we left on their website to see what I could eat within the guidelines, and I decided that it wasn't worth the calories for nutritionally bankrupt food just to save myself a little bit of work.

Instead I made us brown rice and a shrimp stir fry. Much better for us... lower calories and more food. I even have enough left over for lunch tomorrow. I'm still teetering on whether or not I want to do a full workout. I really am wiped. Maybe I'll just do push-ups and sit-ups and consider the day a battle won. Today will be my "rest" day for the week... Oh well. One day down, and pounds to go before I'm thin; and pounds to go before I'm thin.
 
I Pilfered a Survey:willy_nilly:

I saw this survey on several people's diaries, and since I'm being lazy on the couch tonight nursing a headache and cramps, I thought I'd do it (loooves me some surveys):

What is your current height and weight?
5'1" and 173.8 lbs
If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be?
I would like to be 120-125
At what weight would you like to be at four months from now?
I'd like to be at 140-145
Why do you want to lose weight?
I want to lose weight to look better, and make weight so I can apply to become a Navy officer. I also want to be healthy enough to overcome my PCOS and get pregnant without medical help when the time comes.
Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event?
At the moment, no. Unless you count losing weight in order to change careers as a specific "life event".
What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals?
I have PCOS and it sucks nut-sack, making it difficult to lose weight despite super-human efforts with diet and exercise.
Why do you think that you now have a weight problem?
I know I have a weight problem because of my PCOS. I never had a problem until 4 years ago when my hormones got out of whack and I started developing cysts on my ovaries.
What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight?
I'm seeing a doctor now to help with the weight loss. Crossing my fingers that this helps.
Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back?
I haven't been able to lose the weight because of my darn hormones, then I got depressed because no matter what I did the scale wouldn't go down, so things spiraled out of control.
What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? Why do you think it did not work?
If I try to cut something completely out it won't work. Also, if I try to do more than 120 minutes of exercise too many days in a row I get burnt out on it and will stop for long periods of time.
Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time?
I have been doing that and will continue to do so. It keeps me honest.
Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook?
I love, love, love to cook. I usually cook 5-6 nights a week. We have fish once a week, beef or pork once a week, and chicken 2-3 times a week, with the other days being "vegetarian" dinners. We rarely eat white rice, white pasta, and white bread and instead eat the whole wheat versions, and I follow the idea that veggies come in all colors, so I try to make sure we have something of every color at least once a week.
How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go?
We go out 1-3 times a week depending on the week. Where we go varies from fast food to a nice sit-down place. I make it a point to try and see if they have a nutrition menu with calorie counts before we go. If not, I custom order (i.e. no butter, no dressing, etc)
What are your three favorite foods?
Chinese food, cheese cake, coke/pepsiWhat are three things you can do differently when it comes to food?
Balance out protein/carbs/fats, give in on occasion so I don't binge, and only have sodas when we go out to eat.
If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different?
I wouldn't stress all the time about my weight. I would be there, so I could eat and exercise to maintain, not lose. Food choices wouldn't make me so anxious.
Do you eat when you are not hungry?
I used to. I've been on Meridia for 2 weeks now and it controls my hunger so that I don't want anything outside of meal times.
Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)?
Rarely, I'm more of a "grazer"
Do you hide your food or eat in secret?
No.
Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed?
Big time
Do you eat as a reward?Double big time, and to celebrate
Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer?
During movies yes, only occasionally for tv or computer
What do you normally eat for a meal?
Breakfast: oatmeal w/blueberries, or egg white veggie scramble or 3 turkey sausage patties with ketchup
Lunch: Tuna, or salad w/boiled egg, or ramen noodles (naughty)
Dinner: Protein of some sort, 1-2 veggies, or 1 veggie and brown or wild rice
What type of snacks do you eat?
Depends on the day, sometimes salty, sometimes savory, sometimes sweet
In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing?
I do 5-6 days of 90 minutes of cardio, 3 days of 30 minutes strength training, sit-ups/push-ups every day.
Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home?
I do tae bo dvds at home, run outside, and go to the gym/pool in my neighborhood.
What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise?
Tae bo! Pick-up basketball, or that inner thigh squeezy thing at the gym. I run a lot, but I hate it.
What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals?
If I work out I get to take a bubble bath every night! I also indulge in a "naughty" meal once a week if I met my calorie goals the entire week. By that I mean I still portion control, but instead of, say, string-bean chicken from the local chinese restaurant, I'll have sweet and sour pork.
Do you have rewards for certain goals?
I have my rewards all planned out.
169: Replace old make-up
164: New hair-cut and color
159: Full brazilian wax
149: Massage and facial at spa
144: 2 new outfits to hold me over to weight loss goal!
130: 1000 dollars of NEW CLOTHES!
 
I think I'm having an unhealthy affair with my scale. I'm obsessed with it. If it stays the same I'm pissed off because of all the diet and exercise effort I put into this. If it goes down I'm really happy. God forbid if it goes up. Not that I take it out on other people. I just stew on it for an hour after I get off the scale.

I found myself weighing 3 times a day, morning, lunch, and right before bed. I was ok with that the first week, because I need to get an idea of how my body does the whole weight thing, and decide which measurement I wanted to use as my baseline. Then I just kept doing it. I told myself that it was to make sure that if I go up, I can adjust accordingly. But I know that's stupid! There are a variety of reasons weight fluctuates on a given day. Heck, in a given week. I need to break it off with my scale. I just don't know how to tell him that we need to stop seeing each other. I mean, we can still be friends and see each other occasionally, but he's cramping my style...
 
I bit the bullet and added an album. Unfortunately (or fortunately?) my last 3 photos of what prompted me to go to the doctor for help with my weight loss would not load. I guess pictures of me at 179 were just to "big" for the system to handle. I'll try again later...
 
I am in full bitch mode today. My knee hurts, I have terrible cramps, and everything is irritating me. I'm about to go to work for another late night at the library for exams, and I'm hoping I don't get too many bone-headed reference questions. Come on people, you're grad students, you should know how to find a book in the dang library already...

Anyway, on to the diet. I wanted to do my full 90 minutes of tae-bo today, but I was SOOOOO not in the mood. I did manage half that, so 45 minutes ain't shabby. I'm hoping to do a bunch of standing leg lifts, standing side lifts, and squats at work during my "down" time, in addition to taking several breaks to power walk the library and do the stairs. My goal is to do 100 flights during the 8 hours I'm there. It may be broken up, but at least I'll do it. The library is 3 stories, so that means I need to go up and down about 33 times. Break that down over 8 hours, and that's 4 times an hour. I can do that.

Food was eh today.
Brunch: 1/3 c brown rice, 1/2 c leftover shrimp stirfry, 1 pepsi
"Lupper/Dunch": 1 10 pack McNugget, 12 french fries, 1 pack bbq sauce, iced tea
Dinner will be: 1/2 c brown rice, 3/4 c leftover stirfry
Snack: 1 shake
Calories in: 1400 Deficit of: 250
Calories out (if I do stuff I should do tonight): 1000
 
Hi! Just introducing myself to your diary here. I'm Karl.:waving:

LMAO at your arguments with yourself about the temptations... Doesn't it seem like everytime you try to be good, someone tries to derail you... even if they don't mean it?

I very happy that your S/O is as supportive as he is, it really helps. PCOS BTW is not an uncommon problem, there are a few women on this forum who are suffering from it, if you search around you can prolly find some posts regarding your issue.

Saw you post in a couple of the diaries I subscribe to and figured I'd follow you home. No I'm not a stalker, (well, never convicted anyway), and I don't have to register when I move... :D

Hope you have a good journey here, I'll stop by and check on you! (fair warning).
 
I'll tell you, after months of rarely eating fast food, that McD's from yesterday is KILLING me. My stomach is punching me from the inside, and I feel like I've been in the bathroom all day. Serves me right giving in to greasy fast food... Off to a Librarian's Conference this afternoon. And I'm skipping the lunch (food is the only reason most librarians go to conferences. I am actually going for the lectures!) I don't need to ride the porceline again tomorrow.
 
thanks for dropping in to my diary :)

I know how it feels to eat something bad after a long time, the queezy stomach and feeling bad make you wonder why you ever gave in.

Enjoy your conference :)
 
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Enjoy your conference :)
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Thanks Trusylver!
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You know, I'm normally a pretty busy person with work, home life, and all the other things I need to do. But the last few days and the upcoming days have been the busiest I've had in a long time. I have seriously been living off of 5 hours of sleep and except for the two hours I laid on the couch the other day to relax and attempt to get rid of a headache, I have been constantly going from the time I wake up until I go to bed. Even now I write this in between reference questions. These last few days have wreaked havoc on my diet and exercise normalcy. Yesterday I was at 1450 calories for the day, 250 over my prescribed and I didn't even get to work out. TWICE in one week I haven't worked out. Never happens. I at least get a good 30 in. Nope, not this week.

Today I have a free evening, but DH wants to go to the movies and out to dinner. I guess from the time I get home until we go out I have about an hour and 45 minutes. I was going to do some cleaning around the house, but I guess the toilets and vacuuming can wait 1 more day. I guess I'll get a solid 45 minute workout in, get ready, and hopefully have 20 minutes to just relax and breath for a few minutes.

Since I've been so sleep deprived, I've been trying to extend the time in bed, so I haven't been getting up to make breakfast. Today is no exception. I got to work and had 1/2 of a cup of hot tea w/2 splendas, and then realized after about 2 hours when I started getting queasy that I deviated from my normal routine and hadn't eaten. Of course there's nothing but Christmas cookies and candy around, so it was off to the vending machine. I got what was the best option in the machine, a pack of trail mix at 290 calories. I picked out 1/2 of the M&Ms and ate the peanuts, sunflower seeds, and raisins. So since each M&M has 3.4 calories and I didn't quite finish the pack, I ate about 270 caloires. I just had one of my shakes for lunch. I'm trying to reserve some calories, because I'm not quite sure where we're going for dinner, but wherever we go, I've found it's difficult to truly eat out and feel satisfied for less than 500 or 600 calories. When we go out I normally treat myself to a soda, but since I've had a 3.5 of them this week already, I may skip that tonight and have either unsweetened tea or water.

Ugh, I feel like such a complainer reading back over what I've written, but I don't like to get into dieting minutae with my DH, who doesn't really understand what I'm going through. He listens attentively (bless him for it, too) when I do start talking about it, but he can't really offer any good advice since he's not burdened by his weight. I guess it all boils down to being exhausted. I can't wait for vacation. Heck, I can't wait for a full night's sleep...
 
OMG, we're twin sister lost at birth.... I could have written what you've said so far!

This week has been my week of temptations too. Thanks for dropping by on my diary -- I'm glad to know that not only are you suffering through the PCOS thing, but you're also taking Meridia.

Let's see where this takes us both....

Good luck!!!
 
So we ended up at a chain restaurant last night instead of on Cannery Row. We went to Chili's. I was pretty good last night. I had the cedar plank tilapia (well 1/2 of it) without chimichuri sauce and with extra pico de gallo. I had steamed broccoli and mushroom/peppers/onions as a side instead. I did have a soda, but only 1. I also had a dessert shooter (red velvet cake), but only ate 1/2 of it. So all in all, even with the soda and dessert I was still almost on target for calories. 1250 all together. However, I did not work out at all yesterday, unless you count playing Wii.

On a happy note, I am feeling much better after getting a full 8 hours last night! And, I feel so reinvigorated, that even though I have to work all weekend I am renewing my effort for proper calories through the Zone and I will exercise tonight, no matter what.
 
Having a Good Day!

Yay for me! I was starting to feel a little down, because the scale hasn't budged...duh, I was on average 200 calories over almost 4 days in a row, and I only worked out 3 times in the last week. Buuuuut, this morning I did my weigh in that counts for the beginning of the week weight (always on Sundays in the morning) and I am down to 172.2! That may not seem like much, but considering the week I had, that is a huuuuge accomplishment. And tomorrow I go back to the doc's for an official weigh in. Yay, yay, yay! I am super excited right now.:willy_nilly: Even though I have to work today, again I am going to take my breaks to run the stairs and do sit-ups and push-ups, so I can lose even more.

Food for the day so far:
2 turkey sausage patties 120 cal
1/2 banana 50 cal
Split Pepsi with DH 75 cal
1 pack tuna 90 cal
2 roma tomatoes 70 cal
1.5 tsp mayo 45 cal
1 tbsp relish 20 cal
Food planned:
1/2 banana 50 cal
1/2 orange 35 cal
1 low fat cheese stick 50 cal
1/2 cup cottage cheese 100 cal
1/3 cup blueberries 30 cal
4 oz chicken 200 cal
1 bun 150 cal
1 snack to be determined

Exercise dependent on how many breaks I get to take
 
Man am I nervous for my doctor's appointment today. This will be an "official" update from the medical side of my weight loss journey... Two hours and the verdict will be in.:ack2:
 
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