I was just thinking today about sabotage and its many forms and thought I’d share my experiences because this time of year, weight loss sabotage seems to be rampant.Blatant sabotage:
When I was at my heaviest (size 18W, now I’m a 12) I was talking to a friend about my weight and she admitted something very interesting. There was a time before my weight gain that I was a size 10. Back then she came to me all serious and said she was worried about my health. She told me that she had been watching me and knew that I was anorexic (which I absolutely was not). Of course, at the time I was worried since anorexia can kill you and I started thinking maybe I was. I actually worried so much I put 10 pounds on just to be safe. So then fast forward a few years to when I got up to a size 18W and the same friend finally admits that she only said that on purpose to me after seeing a picture of us together at the time. I was a size 10 and she was a 22W. It really pissed me off to find out that this person would care more about how she felt and instead of losing weight, she would rather I gain weight so we’d look closer in size. That she’d actually go out of her way to try and give me a complex about a serious problem acting like she was my friend and concerned! UNREAL! This was pure, manipulating sabotage.
Indirect sabotage:
For years now, I can turn to my husband and say, “Ice cream run!” and he will run. Even if he knows I’m trying to lose weight, he’ll do it. I think he just wants me to be happy and he sees me enjoying the ice cream as a way to make me happy. It’s hard to tell me no when I want something. This sabotage is the enabling kind and is pretty tricky because it comes from the heart and is meant to please not sabotage. Here is where I have to realize this and not say the words ice cream and run.
Many times we don’t notice sabotage, especially when we play a role in the sabotage, so if anyone has other stories, please share so we can be on the lookout.
Alison
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