Risty's Diary (Christina)

Thanks guys :) I'm happy with the -4 lbs, but I know the reality. It's the first week of starting and that's always been my best week and then it gets sucky! LOL. I'll have to start working harder... ugh. I swear I'm naturally lazy, I'd rather sit and watch movies, read, draw (I used to and if I had more time would still), etc than want to go out and do stuff. Makes it so hard to get up and work out. But I just have to do it. I'm not working out today though, I'm super tired from getting only a few hours sleep the past couple days (from babysitting). Plus I'm feeling down about my grandma, who's in the hospice house right now. My other grandma passed away there almost 2 years ago, now it's this grandma. It sucks to see them suffer so much, I hate it. It's not fair people have to suffer like that. I don't want her to die but I don't want her to suffer either. I know this is off topic but it is affecting me, some days more than others.
 
I was the best at being sedentary. It was an art form for me. I worked in lazy the way others use paint or marble. The thing is that you are transitioning away from that lifestyle whether you know it or not. You can just change your eating habits and lose some weight, but use the improved energy to do a little something more than you used to. The initial part stinks because you are tired and hungry at first. If you just chip away at it the big changes come in tiny steps. I hit a point that I wanted to exercise, but didn't really have the energy. I decided to do something every day. It started with BS like walking for a few minutes or stretching that was little more than touching my toes. I did this for a while and just occasionally and gradually stepped it up. Now It's still a work in progress and I have a long way to go, but Mr. Lazy now gets antsy when he doesn't run. Mr. Lazy is about to run 36 days in a row. Mr. Lazy is sneaking up slowly on 55 pounds lost for the year.

It will happen for you Risty. Just keep doing what you are doing. You'll have slip ups and rebounds in weight, but just keeping plodding forward no matter how futile it seems at times and it WILL happen.
 
Rist, sorry about your Grama my lovely :( I worked at the Hospital for a while and it's awful just seeing people get worse and worse...It's a conflicting feeling of wanting them to still be here but also knowing that it's time to let go but all you can do is watch and wait really. It's unpleasant and causes a lot of pain for families. I hope you have people around you to lean on?

Also, well done on the -4 baby! Now for next week! Good luck xo
 
Risty, sweetie, we all have to go sometime. Your grandma is the right place to get the help that she needs. Enjoy her company while you can & enjoy your life while you can. Looking after yourself is one of the best things that you can do. Celebrate your 4 lbs by being proud of yourself. Q is right. Take baby steps until your motivation kicks in. Give yourself some credit for losing that 4lbs & keep going. You can do it. You have a support team now! GO RISTY!!!! xoxo Cate
 
Thanks everyone! I appreciate what everyone has said. I have been really down the past couple days and have not exercised. I have mostly stuck to my calorie goal, most days I go over slightly. Today I didn't. My water goal isn't going well. I just don't usually feel thirsty and so I have to make myself drink, but feeling how I'm feeling, I can't make myself drink much of anything. I did have 2 teas today, something warm like that I can get myself to drink a bit easier. I just don't feel like doing anything at all. I feel so sad for my grandma. I've been on the verge of tears all day, but have been fine until just now typing this all out.

I'll get out of my slump, I know it. For now I'll just stick to logging my calories and get to the exercise in a bit.
 
I went over my calories again. I've been avoiding this apple pie my MIL made for us until tonight. Had a slice with maple icecream. YUM! But damn! That and those tamari almonds! And those rosemary triscuits!!! Having said all that, I only went over by 500, so it could be worse. If I would have worked out tonight I could have burned it off, but I went back to visit my grandma at the Hospice House. She's a lot worse today than the other day. She didn't even talk, was restless, so sad to see.
 
You will adjust to your grandma, just as I have adjusted to my Mum's condition. It will get easier sweetie xo
 
Just an update, my grandma passed away on Monday. I was there by her side. I've been really down since she started declining and has passed. I feel like I've lost my way slightly this week. I've not kept track of my calories at all yesterday or today. We even ate out tonight, ugh. Any way, I'll have to get back at it starting tomorrow.
 
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