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Renda

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What is your current height and weight? 217.2 lbs 5'9" Did gain 10 of that over the month of December. Although I have come down from 248lbs

If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be? 160lbs
At what weight would you like to be at four months from now? 180lbs

Why do you want to lose weight? For many different reason. Tired of looking frumpy and flabby. Want to look great in clothing. I am a very confident person in my abilities and who I am, but all that disappears when feeling self conscious about my wieght and appearance. Tired of doubting or not wanting to go out and meet men...although to be honest it's only one man that I really worry about this worth, and it has been all too consuming. Want to be healthy and look the role of healthy.

Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event? My 20 year reunion was last year and was quite surprized with the compliments I received even though I am 40 lbs heavier than I was in grade 12...I do look good and take care of myself.

What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals? Food seems to be my biggest obstical, I regularily exercise. I figured out that I am an emotional eater and that if I feel bad, or anxious I will eat.

Why do you think that you now have a weight problem? Always been slightly overwieght. Gained 70 pounds with my first pregnancy and still have not taken if off.

What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight? Eating smaller portions and to snack on healthy food and to find an alternative to deal with my emotions.

Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight? Portion and snack control

Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back? The only weight that I have gained was over the holidays...no self control

What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? Why do you think it did not work? Food journalling. I don't seem to have the time to write it down or to figure out calorie counts etc.

Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time? Answered above.

Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook? Not often enough and seem to eat out 2 times/week due to time deficiencies or tiredness.
How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go? Twice per week, fast food most times

What are your three favorite foods? Beef, potatoes, sauces

What are your three favorite restaurants? No favorites

What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food? Try not to binge eat, that if I mess up it doessn't mean a whole day of cheating.

If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different? My stomach #1, I'm scared that even with strenghth training and losing weight I will still have this hanging apron of loose skin.
Do you eat when you are not hungry? Often

Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)? Yes, frequently...most times I figure I've messed up already so why stop now.

Do you hide your food or eat in secret? At times, especially at work.

Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed? Yes
Do you eat as a reward? yes
Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer? yes

What do you normally eat for a meal? Nothing is written in stone,,,but fast and convieient

What type of snacks do you eat? Donuts, icecream, chips

In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing? Running, step classes, walking, stairs

Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home? YMCA

What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise? Step class, running

What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals? To look good...I know it seems hopless at times, but I tell myself that I haeve lost 30 pounds this past year...I do okay for awhile, but once I'm off track I am really off track...so it's a matter of getting on track again....I have told everyone i know this is my plan, so accountabilty is big.

Do you have rewards for certain goals? No

Ren
 
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Well today is the second day and so badly I want something junky...popcorn with salt and butter...oh I can taste it already...I know that I can do this I did it last year, just a matter of staying on track for a few days and I will be okay.

July, go hard till then and see what your results will be. 35 lbs last year, let's do 40 this year. This is one way to find the answer to my question??


Yes, ren you can have that popcorn and momentarily it will taste great but how will you feel after? Horrible because you let your tempations get the best of you...you can't keep saying tomorrow.
 
Awespme!!! Can't believe that this morning I am seeing the results finally. Goo figure though after yesterday was my weigh in day, with my sister and I showed a gian, today I was down 2.2 lbs. Feels good though and is a little more otivation to keep going!

This is a two fold process...personal growth as well as losing weight. Trying to figure out who I am...and I have let my weight define who I am...and it shoulddn't be. It's hard not to wonder who has defined me by my wieght, and how many have looked past it...and how much I assume I am being defined by my weight.

Today is the first day of the challnege that I have join...
 
Awespme!!! Can't believe that this morning I am seeing the results finally. Goo figure though after yesterday was my weigh in day, with my sister and I showed a gian, today I was down 2.2 lbs. Feels good though and is a little more otivation to keep going!

YEA! It does feel great doesn't it?

It makes ya want to get down and get....uh......"jiggy with it!" And, Rock down! It makes the head and heart sing!

Since you make significant progress, you deserve a reward:

HEY! I didn't know they stacked:

Persistence, determination, willpower, iron clad mental focus, willingness to learn, complete and utter stubbornness to diet and weight training, at 5' 9"!

GREAT JOB!

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A rhyme poem for just for you:

A young woman's heart is intense and BRIGHT:

It may be NIGHT but the fire within Renda burns BRIGHT.

Renda is ALRIGHT with her BRIGHT LIGHT at NIGHT because she has it RIGHT.

Having it RIGHT makes a young woman FIGHT with internal DELIGHT.

Oh...what a SIGHT when a young woman's heart burns BRIGHT when she has it RIGHT.

May the warmth of your internal LIGHT warm your path and make it RIGHT and IGNITE you with even more DELIGHT.
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Active, successful natures act according to the dictum "know thyself," and act as if there hovered before them the commandment: Will a self and thou shall become a self, and thus find one's self.

(Chillen)


You are doing it, Renda! :)


Love one another. Love yourselves enough to do what it takes to reveal the goal you desire.


You never have to doubt whether its in you:



YOU have the CREW within YOU to BREW the KNEW YOU.



YOU just have to figure out the personal BREW.


Renda you are worken' the internal CREW, and the new you will DEBUT!

KEEP IT UP! :):)


I believed it then, when I first started, and I believe this now.

Most good things in life have sacrifices that have to occur before the good reveals itself in full glory.

No matter the taste of food, nothing, nothing, replaces the taste and feeling one gets when looking in the mirror and it's reflecting the image of one's dreams.

You MUST win the majority of the battles within your head. You MUST deal appropriately with your weaknesses and strengths.



Congratulations on your weight loss Renda. I couldn't possibly wish you any more success,

Chillen
 
Thanks for the encouragement guys, encouragement really does motivate. Love the poem Chillen.

Today has been terrific, have new motivation and feel like I am on track again!!! Managed to stay on track 3 days now...and like I've said I know I have the will power that shone through last year...just a matter of of gettin over the holiday slump and finding new determinination.

This is hard to write but I think the insecurity of my wieght may have cost me my best friend. "Overt insecurity is boring!" I know exactly what he was saying...he accepted me for who I was, but I couldn't accept it...that is my motivation to be a heathy weight and not let my weight define who I am...it was a bit of a wake up call. Others accept, but I don't...

Who am I ...have a great personality (when I don't care). I take great care of myself, attractive, intelligent...can carry on converstation. Great mom, great job...I am very happy with who I am, but my weight...and it is very hard to come to the realization that it was my own insecurities, that are my greatest enemy.

It's time to face this insecutity head on and deal with it...face your fear. This is going to be a time of personal growth...so I think this journal is going to focus more on how I feel about my weight, than what I have eaten...
 
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Hey Renda, just thought I'd stop in and say hi. I'm glad to see you're focusing on more than just your weight. personal growth should be an on-going mission for everyone. Here's hoping that during the next 6 weeks at least(for the new years challenge) I can have the privilege of watching you grow and accept yourself that much more.
Take care
 
You sound like someone who understands her demons, and wants to face them directly to become you... only better...

I'm Karl, and 've seen you through the challenge thread, but you are sort of the quiet person who just seems to be doing your thing...

Jump in with both feet (if you feel like it), and join us with some of the foolishness here. I'm happy to have you on the team. Please don't mind the avatars... (add your own cheeks if you choose too :D), everyone seems pretty pumped to do this and maybe have fun too.
 
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