Really upset with myself right now...

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hof8231

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Not sure if any of you really remember me but I posted on here about a year ago. I was weighing about 310 lbs in January of '09 and got down to the 240 range by July of the same year. I was extremely happy with how I was doing, my self-esteem and confidence sky-rocketed...which I think led to the downfall.

I went away to college in September of '09. I've always been into partying and whatnot and with feeling as good as I did about myself, I was so pumped for that aspect of college. My new-found confidence helped me immediately make a lot of friends. I was at a party just about every night (somehow my grades didn't suffer lol), drinking heavily and having a good time. As many of you probably know...fast food is heavenly when you're drunk, so naturally my diet consisted of a lot of that.

I would wake up in the mornings really beat from the night before, go to classes, come back and do my homework, then sleep til it was time to go out again. This left no time for keeping up with my exercising. I started noticing it around a month into school when one of my button-down shirts was a little tight around the mid-section. Then...because of my infinite wisdom, this led to even more drinking and even more eating crap food to try to drown my sorrows of gaining weight. Great idea, right?

So anyway, I've gained quite a bit of weight back and I really want to start back up with the weight loss but my lifestyle right now is pretty self-destructive and apathetic. Drinking regularly and smoking cigarettes is probably not the best way to get in shape. I just don't have the motivation right now. I had it before when I started initially but that was so long ago.

Sorry, just needed to vent about all this.
 
I know how you feel! I first lost about 40 pounds and then I would think to myself just one cheese burger won't hurt, then after eating the one I would spiral down and eat another and another and by that time I felt so miserable about eating bad I would have another one to try and make myself feel better.
I would gain weight and then have to RE lose the weight I already lost again.
But honestly even with your lifestyle being busy and you not feeling good now it only takes ONE TIME. One time for you to wake up a little early to go walking or jogging. Just one time to make a healthy decision for lunch instead of fast food.
After that one time, you'll feel so good about yourself again!! Trust me.
And after that one time, you'll realize that your energy has started to come back and getting up early or working out again at night is not so hard anymore :)
You can do it!!! Just tell yourself it's only once and that "only once" will turn into a week which will turn into months which will turn into energy and weight loss!
Go for it!!! :)
 
I'm on the same boat. I lost 25 lbs in about 2 or 3 months since june. but in september i started easing up thinking to myself "eehhh.. one of these burritos wont hurt". and then i get into that attitude that says "I'll just burn this off at the gym tomorrow." or "I'm kinda tired. I'll just double up my session tomorrow." but never do. Since then i've probably gained 5 or 6 lbs back. :/
 
Hey buddy dont be so hard on your self all you can do is keep it moving forward when I mess up I just try harder the next day
 
Thanks for all the input! There's a gym here that a lot of my friends go to so I'll probably start going there quite often. When I did it the first time, literally all I did exercise-wise was go to do what I had at home, ride the stationary bike and use the weight machine in the basement. I figure with a lot more options and the actual social aspect of the gym it'll be easier to get motivated to go and keep going.

But just a quick question, how many calories should I go for burning in a day? I've pretty much forgotten just about everything from when I started back in January of '09 and could use all the input I can get on calorie intake and how much I should be working off. Any input is greatly appreciated. Thanks again.
 
With my calorie intake at about 1100-1300 a day I like to burn 500-600 everyday at the gym, but everyone is different.
 
You can take solace in at least two things:
1. Save from a few oddity-of-nature exceptions, everyone slips. To err is human.
2. You've done it once, so you know absolutely how possible it is to do it again.

I too am a victim of the drunken late-night munchies.
It's okay to occasionally indulge; just let the remainder of your day be the time that you put your focus into eating better and moving more.

I wish you the best of luck.
 
Thanks again, guys.

I've started getting better with my time management. For whatever reason, I can wake up really early (for a teenager) no matter what I've done the night before so I use that time to hit the gym now. I met this girl there the first time I went, cute as hell I may add, but that's not the point lol. She offered to help me after I told her what I'm trying to do. She goes there every day around 7 am, which is perfect for me since my earliest first class is 9 am on Monday, Wednesday, Friday and 10 am on Thursday. We meet for breakfast around 6:30 then go hit the gym. It gives me time to work out, shower then head to class.

I never really realized how awesome it is to have someone to go to the gym with. When I did it the first time, I used the equipment in my basement. But now just having a daily routine with someone I enjoy being around seems to be helping quite a bit. Not to mention it's not taking away from my schoolwork time and it's kind of forcing me to cut the partying short most nights, which is definitely a good thing.

Sorry for the life story, I'm just feeling pretty good about it now. I feel like with the way my daily routine is going and the encouragement/help from my friend, I can actually stick with it this time.
 
That sounds totally awesome!!
I wish I had a workout buddy...... my fiancee has NEVER been overweight and has no idea what worrying about a carb or calorie is..... I'm always at the gym by myself or running, biking, anything by myself....

Anyways....... so good for you! Keep up the good work
 
Hello. I just logged back into this site for the first time last month since 2008 when I had lost about 50-60lbs. I gained nearly all the weight back in about 2.5 years and am starting over. It feels really shitty to have to re-lose weight you already lost, but whatever, we don't have a choice right?

One of the biggest reasons for my weight gain was due to drinking (and the inevitable shit-food binges in the midst). I'm trying to limit myself to one or two nights of drinking a week (No "I'll have a few beers before I go to sleep" bullshit on a Tuesday night, either). It's really tough, but booze is just empty calories. For every 35 miller lites you drink, you gain a pound.

It's great you are going back to the gym, but honestly, diet is where you are going to make the biggest losses. For somebody your size, probably 2000 calories a day would be a steep cut. Good luck and you have my sympathies because I know how it feels to be a dumbass and gain a bunch of weight back. Fuck!
 
I am with you guys. I lost 60 lbs and now have gained nearly all of it back from partying and not taking care of my body...though I look much better than before.

Here we go again :)
 
If its any consilation I yo yo diet for years before finally crcking it and keeping it off, try again! at least you know where you went wrong.
 
I'm so glad I found this thread. The exact same thing happened to me and I came on here looking for support.
I began losing weight in April '10 and I weighed 200 lbs. By September '10 I was down to 170 lbs (I'm 5'8" by the way.) Over the summer I got into the best shape I've probably ever been in. I was working out 6 days a week doing cardio and weight training. I could actually run and do push-ups for the first time ever.

Over the summer my life pretty much revolved around weight loss and working out. Since I've started school, though, I've had so much more on my plate that healthy eating and excersize have been pushed to the side. I've gained back 14 lbs in the past 2 months and I'm now back up to 184 :(

When I got here, the first few weeks I got so much free (unhealthy) food from various events and I was just like, "it's free, so I might as well eat it." And that completely spiraled into eating whatever I want, whenever I want. I always promise that I'll make up for it, but I never do. I'm surrounded by food and it's so easy to just go get a muffin between classes or go get something out of the vending machines. Plus, I get really stressed sometimes when I'm studying, so I'll eat for the comfort of it, which usually leads to an all-out binge. I also haven't worked out at all since I've been here, because I keep making excuses of being too busy or too tired.

I'm determined to not let all my hard work go to waste, though, and I refuse to let food control me. Today I threw out all my junk food and I'm starting fresh. I went and worked out and from now on I will find time to start working out.
Gaining weight back sucks and can be really discouraging, but you just have to pick yourself back up and keep going.

It's all about choices--you choose what foods you put into your body. You choose to go excersize. You are the one in control.
 
Ahhh the great thing about wanting to get in shape when you're in college: college gym memberships are usually affordable :) And if you can get into the habit of going to the gym in the morning before class, I find that it helps boost concentration (woohoo!)

As for partying and drinking.. I find that the less I drink the less I feel like drinking; and I also go for quality vs quantity (sometimes a sip of good wine is just as relaxing as one or two beers - minus the extreme calorie overload ;) )
 
Sapientia said:
Ahhh the great thing about wanting to get in shape when you're in college: college gym memberships are usually affordable :) And if you can get into the habit of going to the gym in the morning before class, I find that it helps boost concentration (woohoo!)

As for partying and drinking.. I find that the less I drink the less I feel like drinking; and I also go for quality vs quantity (sometimes a sip of good wine is just as relaxing as one or two beers - minus the extreme calorie overload ;) )
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Yeah, I feel like my concentration on my school work has picked up quite a bit since all this started. It's so much easier to go to class after already being up for 3 hours or so rather than rolling out of bed 15 minutes before class starts haha.

But yeah, I've cut back on the beer. I've pretty much always been a liquor guy anyway, not too sure if it's much better for me (calorie-wise I mean, I know it's not good for me overall) but I know beer is pretty bad for weight loss. I kind of like the schedule I'm working now, it makes me look forward to the weekend so much more because I'm not partying nearly as much during the week anymore and I feel like I'm being more productive. I just hope I can keep up with it!
 
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