seliwyma
New member
Hello all,
I'm back...again...after years of steadily gaining weight interspersed with the occasional week or so of desperately trying to reverse the effects!
My case is a tricky one, as I have suffered from an eating disorder (a result of PTSD) for the past 6 years. An eating disorder that has seen me go from a fit and healthy 60kg (132lbs) to a very unfit and uncomfortable 121kg (267lbs). I've literally doubled my weight, and at 5'2 it really does show. If I get any bigger it will start causing me some very serious problems, so I am aiming to very slowly and steadily start losing weight.
It's a bit tricky with an ED. I've been told by numerous psychologists to never use a scale. But not having used a scale for a couple of years I wasn't quite aware of just how much weight I had gained. Sure that was better psychologically, but it also gave me a kind of permission to not think about my weight. So from now on I am going to use a scale and start monitoring my weight, just once a week.
I also can't put too many rules in place. The second I say "I can only eat this amount of calories" or "I can't eat this food" my ED goes berserk. So my goal is to instead just try and moderate; to try and eat a lot of healthy foods, but to allow myself a small amount of chocolate or chips or what ever if that's what I really feel like.
For exercise, I try to go to the gym a couple of times a week, though the past few months I've barely been at all. Tonight I'll be back in there though! In addition to this I am trying to take my dog for a walk every morning. There's a path up a very steep hill that I'm working towards as a goal, though to be honest if I tried it now I'd probably die!
So here goes! Hopefully I'll be a bit more successful than I have in the past. I think the key is to stay calm and relaxed and not to have any set goals or expectations (beyond seeing at least a tiny amount of weight loss each week).
Wish me luck!
I'm back...again...after years of steadily gaining weight interspersed with the occasional week or so of desperately trying to reverse the effects!
My case is a tricky one, as I have suffered from an eating disorder (a result of PTSD) for the past 6 years. An eating disorder that has seen me go from a fit and healthy 60kg (132lbs) to a very unfit and uncomfortable 121kg (267lbs). I've literally doubled my weight, and at 5'2 it really does show. If I get any bigger it will start causing me some very serious problems, so I am aiming to very slowly and steadily start losing weight.
It's a bit tricky with an ED. I've been told by numerous psychologists to never use a scale. But not having used a scale for a couple of years I wasn't quite aware of just how much weight I had gained. Sure that was better psychologically, but it also gave me a kind of permission to not think about my weight. So from now on I am going to use a scale and start monitoring my weight, just once a week.
I also can't put too many rules in place. The second I say "I can only eat this amount of calories" or "I can't eat this food" my ED goes berserk. So my goal is to instead just try and moderate; to try and eat a lot of healthy foods, but to allow myself a small amount of chocolate or chips or what ever if that's what I really feel like.
For exercise, I try to go to the gym a couple of times a week, though the past few months I've barely been at all. Tonight I'll be back in there though! In addition to this I am trying to take my dog for a walk every morning. There's a path up a very steep hill that I'm working towards as a goal, though to be honest if I tried it now I'd probably die!
So here goes! Hopefully I'll be a bit more successful than I have in the past. I think the key is to stay calm and relaxed and not to have any set goals or expectations (beyond seeing at least a tiny amount of weight loss each week).
Wish me luck!
