THank you so much, I appreciate the kind words.
Still recovering from two major surgeries, being only 3 weeks out from the 2nd, still has me grounded as far as excercise goes and it is driving me absolutely insane. Unfortunately I always seem to have this all or nothing approach, where I seem to say the hell with it because I can't excercise, though thankfully I have surrounded myself with foods that are healthy, though regardless, I have no doubt gained about 5-6 pounds in the 5 weeks since my surgeries and complete lack of movement began, and it frustrates me to no end.
Even now where I can't point to parts of my body where I feel like I am gaining because of the ridiculous amount of swelling, I tell myself that I see it in my face, or that maybe its not swelling and its me gaining weight, regardless of how illogical that thought is. (I essentially have an exagerated hourglass figure at the moment because of the body lift and then the arm and chest and side work, and I have been told many times by my surgeon that it's swelling, and the weight gain is normal, etc etc.) I still obsess over it.
On top of all this, I have been stuck in a house with a family who I absolutely love more than anything, but is way to full at the moment because its summer vacation and all the cousins are over. (And you know that means food food and more food.) But 5 straight weeks of it, and I know that I have fallen back into the depression that was with me before I began losing the weight. Bad idea to go off the zoloft I guess. Anyways, I have done reasonable since my opening post, hovering between 2000 and 3000 calories a day, unfortunately considering my inactivity and BMR, that still amount too an average of a 500 a day calorie surplus. I usually don't get near that many calories when I am active, because I am constantly moving about doing something that will take away my access to food, the reasoning behind that being that when I am bored, I eat.
ANYWHO, it felt great getting that off my chest, I can walk now, and I can eat right, that should be enough to start me towards my goal until I can get back to my excercise in two weeks. Shouldn't it? =).
