pros
- I'm currently about 5 lbs away from my adult low for weight, having gone from over 280 lbs to 182'ish this morning. And lookin' like I'mma coast down to something approaching 10-12% bodyfat before the summer's through. From 26% near the end of this June!
- I've felt generally amazing since resuming taking care of my physical and mental health.
- I have two excellent jobs lined up for the fall.
- I got 3 pairs of NIB $300 running shoes on ebay for a total of $110, more than half of which was the shipping cost to Canada. One would have cost me $315 at the store here. I also got a bunch of other great stuff, and have discovered true love. <3
- I'm very excited to have found out that a true low-carb, low-calorie diet works amazingly well for me - It took me quite a while to find something that works the way I want it to. But mostly I'm excited to have finally achieved the serenity requisite to consistency.
- Tonight I'm going to get high on caffeine, crash a bachelorette party, rock out at my favorite club, and then go play lasertag with 3 of my favorite victims and a bunch of hilarious dudes I used to work with.
- I just had probably the most delicious and satisfying meal of my life.
- I won a very prestigious, and more importantly, very generous scholarship despite my complete slacking off last year. I didn't even apply. My girlfriend did it for me without even telling me, haha. In exchange for which I paid for her vacation... with a small portion of the proceeds.
- A good friend of mine is getting married, and I totally got a weekend pass. And a hiiiilarious outfit for me, and gift for her.
- "I'll be dead on his ass like Spencer for ****ing hire. I'll hunt him down and feed him his own testicles, and, I'll do it in a jiffy. And I don't care if his mama there, his grandmama, innocent bystanders, little kids, babysitters, bill collectors, whatever - I'll leave his whole block filled with hot brass if I have to. And you know why? Because I JUST DON'T GIVE A ****!"
cons
- Despite all the trash talk, I do miss my lady.
- I'm feeling pretty impatient about the summer. I can't WAIT to finish all this cutting so I can bulk. I'm so excited to get strong and powaful. Plus, after the cut I'mma finally get back into my martial art. And I'm jonesing so hard for that. Waiting sucks. I wanna kick some ass. Rawr.
- Sometimes I feel bad about my life not being harder.