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53inchwaist

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I'm 33 years old. My weight is 247lbs and I'm only 5'4. I recently measured my waist and said **** the other measurements. I'm totally disgusted with myself and my life. The only good thing is my baby.. he just turned 2yrs old. I'm finding it hard to even start doing something to help myself. I literally do no form of exercise. Some days I find it hard to even get my fat *** off the couch. Everyone points out how independent my son is. That is a good thing I suppose. But.. it's mostly because of my own laziness. I'm ashamed of myself. I'm also ashamed to even go anywhere that may lead to running into people I know. Unless it's for work I hardly leave the house. And I have no social life. At all. I know this will affect my childs future and it has to stop. Not a day passes that I don't "think" about what I need to do. I'm always going to start tomorrow. My eating habits are very unhealthy as well. All I drink all day long is pop. Nothing else. I can go through a 12 pack or two in a day easily. No fruit.. hardly any veggies.. and more fast food than I can afford. I guess that actually comes back to how lethargic I feel. Sometimes I have the "why bother?" attitude. My hair is thinning.. I have horrible scarred, oily skin and spaced teeth. My saggy extremely large breasts will be even saggy-err. I'm covered with cellulite and stretch marks. You know what I mean? I can really say I hate myself at this point. I know what I need to do as far as exercise and nutrition... I just can't do it. Is there anyone out there who can relate that can point me in the right direction? This is my last resort.
Thanks- and sorry for what I'm feeling right now. =(
 
Hi, welcome to the forums. I was exactly the same as you at the beginning of this year. I could hardly be bothered to get off the sofa. I have changed so much since then that you wouldn't believe that I'm the same person. You need to not say that you want to start a diet but that you want to completely make a permanent lifestyle change. First of all stop buying the pop and then you won't be able to drink it. Start off the exercise by walking and playing with your bably. Everyday walk a little bit faster and further. Take your baby to the local park and chat to other mums to at least get out of the house and talk to people. Your eating habits are making you sluggish so try and eat more healthy foods. You'll find eventually that you actually enjoy them more. If you have a bad day eating one day then don't beat yourself up about it but just get back to healthier eating.
Start a diary in the diary section here and you will get lots of support from other people. Join in on other people's diaries to start to get a network of online friends.
Don't set your expectations too high. Weight loss is a slow process not a race.
Good luck. You CAN do this if you really want to.
 
wow i would really like to watch your progress as you undergo this life style change. have you thought about making a Diary.( Weight Loss Diary - Weight Loss Forum ) if you keep this you can better track your own progress.
its good to hear that you have decided to change your life! i am new here as well just not new to weight loss. i would recommend buying diet soda first then cutting it all together. i did that with tea. i drink alot of store bought tea. and i switched to the diet now i drink tea a brew my self but only on occasion.
i wish you luck, keep me posted!
 
I'm 5 foot 4 too and I started at 256 pounds. I'm 20 but I know I didn't (and plenty of days still don't) feel it, not when I look at how my life differs to my friends'. I'm slowly getting better but I still avoid plenty of social occasions because I feel 'too fat'. I know what you mean about not wanting to leave the house in case you see people you know, I used to do that. I've lost just over 20 lbs, I need to lose so so much more than that but I can really feel the difference already, and even though I'm still huge people are already starting to notice the difference.
I used to think I was fundamentally a lazy slob, so there was no way I'd ever lose weight. I'd be lying if I said I always motivate myself to exercise when I say I will, or I always manage to resist eating some huge unhealthy takeaway, but as time goes on I slip up less and less, because losing weight feels good. Now I've lost some weight I have far more motivation to try to lose the rest than I did before because I don't feel like it's impossible any more. I even enjoy exercise now, sometimes ;-), and I've found healthy foods including vegetables which I used to never eat that I love.
Losing weight is a slow process and not a race - I definitely agree with that. Also, I think you really need at least 1 person who knows what you're aiming to lose and how difficult it is for you, not necessarily to bully you into doing it! Just to share the ups and downs with. As Tob suggested maybe starting a diary is a good idea.
I wish you all the best.
 
I cannot post much becuase I am at work, but I wanted to let you know that you are not alone. We all said those things at some point. I used to eat, believe it or not a large-xlarge pizza by MYSELF! Mcdonalds 3-4 days a week & lots of fat food. I failed the first time on my weight loss journey, I am now just into a month of the 2nd attempt & while I used to look at weight loss & think so far ahead I now take it day by day. I lost just around 25lbs last month & I want to keep going... its almost like an addiction to food. Somedays are ALOT harder then others and some are easier, but let me tell you, you have your son to think about now & everyone else that loves you. I have 2 little girls & I dont want to go to bed anymore wondering if its the last time I'll see them smile. I do not want to have to bury me... that devistates me just thinking about it. GOODLUCK & keep us posted!
 
Thank you for the encouraging responses. I really do have a horrible self defeatist attitude. I will follow the advice to start a journal tonight. Too much time is spent wishing I could lose weight.. with little accountability when it comes to why it's not happening. I hope some of you will follow me because I need the help. It would help if you could find me a bully.. or two.
For the record, I've also had an extra large pizza to myself. Well minus a piece for my boy. The diet pop idea is one that I've tried. I can't get used to the taste. I will try again. Pop is going to be my biggest challenge. Also I will get my boy to the park to ride his bike. TODAY, not tomorrow. Can you believe he's had it for over a month and he's only been outside to ride it about 4 times? I'm ashamed to admit that he rides it back and forth in my very small apartment. Congrats to those of you who are actually doing it. I hope I can watch you reach your goals. Maybe I can even reach a few of my own. I'll think it over and then put them in my journal. Maybe short as well as long term goals.
 
53inchwaist said:
Thank you for the encouraging responses. I really do have a horrible self defeatist attitude. I will follow the advice to start a journal tonight. Too much time is spent wishing I could lose weight.. with little accountability when it comes to why it's not happening. I hope some of you will follow me because I need the help. It would help if you could find me a bully.. or two.
For the record, I've also had an extra large pizza to myself. Well minus a piece for my boy. The diet pop idea is one that I've tried. I can't get used to the taste. I will try again. Pop is going to be my biggest challenge. Also I will get my boy to the park to ride his bike. TODAY, not tomorrow. Can you believe he's had it for over a month and he's only been outside to ride it about 4 times? I'm ashamed to admit that he rides it back and forth in my very small apartment. Congrats to those of you who are actually doing it. I hope I can watch you reach your goals. Maybe I can even reach a few of my own. I'll think it over and then put them in my journal. Maybe short as well as long term goals.
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You will have to slowly wean yourself off of soda-especially if it is caffeinated. Try drinking iced tea or coffee for caffeine. Personally, I take caffeine pills to stave off headaches since I have an addiction, usually only 1 pill a day. If you are drinking a 12 pack a day, try to get by on half of that, then less and less each day after that. Give yourself a deadline. You could do the same thing with pizza. Slow and steady wins the race. Think of how long it's taken to get to where you are now, and that it won't all just fall off by tomorrow or next week if you start eating better and exercising. It has to be a total life change, not just a "diet".
 
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