pamelalynne
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The story:
Throughout my life, I have struggled with weight. My mother and 100% italian, and my father isn't but he is a huge meat eater. So when family gets together, we have at least over 4,000 calories on the dinner table! (my family comes over at least 5 times in a month!)
When I was six years old, to make me eat, my parents would tell me that if I would eat everything off my plate, I would get a suprise. I would eat to get the suprise. After I am full to the bone, I would ask my parents what was the suprise. Their answer: "the suprise was that you ate it all!!"
In elementry and middle school, I was always called "The fat girl!" I was always picked last in gym. No one wanted to be my friend. I would hide myself in books. My mother made me join the golf team, but sometimes I would skip the golf team, go to the library to read, and then walk to the golf course where my mother would pick me up. I let myself go into story books. It really hit me when I started to develop breast in the fourth grade. By fifth grade, I was a size b.
When highschool came, I had to go to a new school. I had to face the seniors by myself. I was a very lonely person for half of the school year. Finally I told myself that enough was enough. I found my spot, my ground...in what everyone called "The freaks" which were basically not normal like the other students.
Throughout highschool, I accepted my body, and actually I was getting a lot of compliments. (mostly of my upper part *chest*)
I knew that I did look great, and yes, I was chubby, but I loved how I looked and felt!
I actually found a guy who loved me for me!
Then it hit me like a solid rock! I had found out that I was pregnant! It was the day I found out that I was accepted into one of the best college in florida. I had to tell my parents the good news...and the bad. My parents were very disapointed in me, but accepted it. When my boyfriend found out, he was so happy that he was going to be a dad!
I had a wonderful pregnancy, and a hard labor (27 hours of labor ending up with a c-section!)
But my son Nathan came to me.
With the pregnancy, I gained 50lbs.
I went from 150lbs (which I was happy at!)
To 205lbs. I was so unhappy of what I looked like. I looked at myself in the mirror, and I looked like a blob.
The goal.
Once I saw myself in the mirror, I had to do something! I started working out, eating correctly, and joined sparkpeople!
Since that day of looking into the mirror, I have lost a total of 14lbs! I am still struggling, but I feel great! I am making it my goal to lose 45lbs by next september! This is my story and journal!
Starting weight: 205lbs
Weight now: 167lbs
Short Goal Weight: 145lbs
Long Goal Weight: 125 & toned up
Throughout my life, I have struggled with weight. My mother and 100% italian, and my father isn't but he is a huge meat eater. So when family gets together, we have at least over 4,000 calories on the dinner table! (my family comes over at least 5 times in a month!)
When I was six years old, to make me eat, my parents would tell me that if I would eat everything off my plate, I would get a suprise. I would eat to get the suprise. After I am full to the bone, I would ask my parents what was the suprise. Their answer: "the suprise was that you ate it all!!"
In elementry and middle school, I was always called "The fat girl!" I was always picked last in gym. No one wanted to be my friend. I would hide myself in books. My mother made me join the golf team, but sometimes I would skip the golf team, go to the library to read, and then walk to the golf course where my mother would pick me up. I let myself go into story books. It really hit me when I started to develop breast in the fourth grade. By fifth grade, I was a size b.
When highschool came, I had to go to a new school. I had to face the seniors by myself. I was a very lonely person for half of the school year. Finally I told myself that enough was enough. I found my spot, my ground...in what everyone called "The freaks" which were basically not normal like the other students.
Throughout highschool, I accepted my body, and actually I was getting a lot of compliments. (mostly of my upper part *chest*)
I knew that I did look great, and yes, I was chubby, but I loved how I looked and felt!
I actually found a guy who loved me for me!
Then it hit me like a solid rock! I had found out that I was pregnant! It was the day I found out that I was accepted into one of the best college in florida. I had to tell my parents the good news...and the bad. My parents were very disapointed in me, but accepted it. When my boyfriend found out, he was so happy that he was going to be a dad!
I had a wonderful pregnancy, and a hard labor (27 hours of labor ending up with a c-section!)
But my son Nathan came to me.
With the pregnancy, I gained 50lbs.
I went from 150lbs (which I was happy at!)
To 205lbs. I was so unhappy of what I looked like. I looked at myself in the mirror, and I looked like a blob.
The goal.
Once I saw myself in the mirror, I had to do something! I started working out, eating correctly, and joined sparkpeople!
Since that day of looking into the mirror, I have lost a total of 14lbs! I am still struggling, but I feel great! I am making it my goal to lose 45lbs by next september! This is my story and journal!
Starting weight: 205lbs
Weight now: 167lbs
Short Goal Weight: 145lbs
Long Goal Weight: 125 & toned up
right then and there, but our son was watching us, and I would never do that infront of him. How could a person you are supposed to be in-love with...treat you so horriable?! Thats why I took the break. To get away from him! Has anyone gone through the same thing, or am I the only one?
