I joined because i'm seeking help/advice on how to overcome my addiction and find a balance with exercise, any advice would be greatly appreciated! My addiction to it is dangerous physically and mentally destructive.
I'm an athlete, and i have taken a few months off of my sports and training, but the abstinence period has not helped my obsessive behaviours whenever i try to go back. I recently tried to go back to my activities but lost control again. And every time, i end up with an injury for some reason, i now am down for a few months with a slipped disc in my back.
After a lot of hesitancy on my part, I had to give up one of my passions of muay thai kickboxing, i don't think i would ever be able to keep the control in a violent and stressful atmosphere, because i lack control in that environment. I'm not saying martial arts are violent - i'm saying, me being there, is not a good match. Still makes me sad, but i don't think i'm the right person for fighting. I've come to terms with that now, but i'm still unable to let go of hard extreme physical activity in general. I can't work out unless it's extreme. There is no way i would be content with something soft like yoga.
Yet to me, muay thai was also my safe route - it was supervised, you can't overwork yourself in a time limit because classes are only for a set time, although i tend to injure myself horribly anyway. If i was to do it myself, and go back to gyms and working out by myself, i would really lose control.
After doing some soul searching i think my passion is to mainly stick to dance, of course extreme dance forms, and i will be able to use it spiritually as well. Dance makes me happy. My ego and anger gets in the way sometimes when i want to be on stage, but then i just try and summon my power for good things, like putting a spiritual component to it.
But then i would need to still keep up my endurance and strength levels, especially for the type of dancing i want to do. This is where i am afraid, if i follow through with this plan, i will end up getting into over training again. So far, i'm not attending dance classes, and i don't think i can find any, i just use my own experience of different dance forms. I need to somehow come up with a schedule and plan to stick to. But i know from experience, routines are dangerous for me, i always feel the addictive need to go past, or i simply become addicted to routine which is not good either.
So i know one thing - i want to dance, and keep up my strength and endurance to do so. I just don't know how to go about it healthily.
I've tried the route of training with a personal trainer, but they tend to only progress my addiction by pushing me more; or piss me off by making me do things i don't want to do, and i can't really afford to find a better one.
And with my experience of other addictions i know there are always psychological factors behind it all, but mainly my problem in the present, is the feeling of power i feel from it all, and learning how to use that power in a good way. I think i am gifted and my life path is to use my physical strength and endurance for good things, but i just keep messing it up.
Anyways, i have no comprehension towards balance. And abstinence from working out is only causing health issues - the same if i went back to it. I am having digestive problems, and i need the exercise, but at the same time exercising is dangerous because i end up hurting myself or making myself sick.
I've also had a past of other addictions, and eating disorders, and i'm highly addictive to things.
Really hoping to find some advice on how you are supposed to get over an addiction to working out. Because cutting it out doesn't work, or if it does, how long do you have to cut it out for? Thanks for hearing me out and giving me advice if you do.
I'm an athlete, and i have taken a few months off of my sports and training, but the abstinence period has not helped my obsessive behaviours whenever i try to go back. I recently tried to go back to my activities but lost control again. And every time, i end up with an injury for some reason, i now am down for a few months with a slipped disc in my back.
After a lot of hesitancy on my part, I had to give up one of my passions of muay thai kickboxing, i don't think i would ever be able to keep the control in a violent and stressful atmosphere, because i lack control in that environment. I'm not saying martial arts are violent - i'm saying, me being there, is not a good match. Still makes me sad, but i don't think i'm the right person for fighting. I've come to terms with that now, but i'm still unable to let go of hard extreme physical activity in general. I can't work out unless it's extreme. There is no way i would be content with something soft like yoga.
Yet to me, muay thai was also my safe route - it was supervised, you can't overwork yourself in a time limit because classes are only for a set time, although i tend to injure myself horribly anyway. If i was to do it myself, and go back to gyms and working out by myself, i would really lose control.
After doing some soul searching i think my passion is to mainly stick to dance, of course extreme dance forms, and i will be able to use it spiritually as well. Dance makes me happy. My ego and anger gets in the way sometimes when i want to be on stage, but then i just try and summon my power for good things, like putting a spiritual component to it.
But then i would need to still keep up my endurance and strength levels, especially for the type of dancing i want to do. This is where i am afraid, if i follow through with this plan, i will end up getting into over training again. So far, i'm not attending dance classes, and i don't think i can find any, i just use my own experience of different dance forms. I need to somehow come up with a schedule and plan to stick to. But i know from experience, routines are dangerous for me, i always feel the addictive need to go past, or i simply become addicted to routine which is not good either.
So i know one thing - i want to dance, and keep up my strength and endurance to do so. I just don't know how to go about it healthily.
I've tried the route of training with a personal trainer, but they tend to only progress my addiction by pushing me more; or piss me off by making me do things i don't want to do, and i can't really afford to find a better one.
And with my experience of other addictions i know there are always psychological factors behind it all, but mainly my problem in the present, is the feeling of power i feel from it all, and learning how to use that power in a good way. I think i am gifted and my life path is to use my physical strength and endurance for good things, but i just keep messing it up.
Anyways, i have no comprehension towards balance. And abstinence from working out is only causing health issues - the same if i went back to it. I am having digestive problems, and i need the exercise, but at the same time exercising is dangerous because i end up hurting myself or making myself sick.
I've also had a past of other addictions, and eating disorders, and i'm highly addictive to things.
Really hoping to find some advice on how you are supposed to get over an addiction to working out. Because cutting it out doesn't work, or if it does, how long do you have to cut it out for? Thanks for hearing me out and giving me advice if you do.