Out of the dark and into the light- Time to be healthy and change my life

[katiedid]

Hi Everyone

I became a member here some months ago and posted for a little while, but I'm sure most of you don't remember me.

I was on a good path with my weight loss; however, something got in the way. This is pretty hard to admit on a public forum, but I feel like I need the support. I have been battling with eating disorders since I was a teenager. Anorexia, Bulimia, you name it, I've probably been through it. Bulimia has been my biggest struggle lately. I find it so hard to find a balance with food. I will be good for a few days and get on the right track. Then I will binge and afterwords feel so bad about doing it that I will purge. Often times when I gain weight, I end up throwing in the towel and trying to starve myself for quick results (which I KNOW doesn't work), then I get hungry, binge, and the cycle repeats itself.

Well after lots of support from my husband, I have become determined to be healthy. I want to be at a healthy weight, be happy with my body, and be free of my disordered eating habits.

I am looking to ultimately get to 120-122 pounds and stay there. My plan is to ease myself into cutting calories and exercising and not to do anything extreme. I tend to throw myself into a diet plan to hard and too fast and ultimately end up failing. I am looking forward to all of the support and advise everyone on this wonderful forum has to offer. I'm looking forward to this journey and most of all, looking forward to conquer my issue with food that has plagued me for so long. Wish me luck!

 

[Kaylamarie262]

Good luck!! I hope the best for you!

 

[katiedid]

Thanks Kaylamarie262

Well today I am off to a good start. I didn't work out because I recently got a tattoo and can't really do much during the healing process, but I'm hoping to maybe go on a walk or do the stationary bike tomorrow. I did clean all day today though, so at least I was on my feet a lot.

Here's what I ate:

Breakfast: 1 everything bagel with spray butter (320 cals)
Lunch: quesadilla with lowfat cheese (250 cals)
3 oz of carrots (40 cals)
Dinner: peanut butter and honey on wheat bread (440 cals)
steamed Veggies (210 cals)
Dessert: 1 sees chocolate molasses chip (30 cals)

Total: 1290 Calories

I'm going to try not to eat anything after 7pm because late night snacking is a huge bad habit of mine that I need to break.

Goodnight Everyone

 

[katiedid]

I thought I would go ahead and answer these questions, so that everyone could get to know me a bit better.

1. What is your current height and weight?
5ft 4in, 134 lbs

2. If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be?
120 lbs

3. At what weight would you like to be at four months from now?
120 lbs

4. Why do you want to lose weight?
I want to feel good about myself and feel pretty. My low self esteem has had a negative impact on my relationships.

5. Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event?
I just want to lose weight to be happy with myself, but I did join the Valentines Day Challenge, so my mini goal for Valentines day is 125 lbs.

6. What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals?
Stress, poor motivation, bad habits.

7. Why do you think that you now have a weight problem?
I used to be a professional dancer and had to stop due to an injury which caused me to gain a lot of weight. I have also battled with eating disorders and this time around binge eating and bulimia have also contributed to my weight gain.

8. What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight?
Eating healthy and getting rid of bad habits such as snacking, stress eating, and eating whatever I want when I go out with friends.

9. Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight?
I have lost weight in the past. I did weight watchers once and had some success. Most of the time when I have lost weight though it has been in an unhealthy way, and I am determined not to let that happen again.

10. Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back?
A lot of the ways that I lost weight were extreme, unhealthy, and not sustainable in the long term.

12. Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time?
Yes. I am currently doing this right now.

13. Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook?
I eat at home often. I am not much of a cook, but I'm getting better.

14. How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go?
I used to go out and eat a lot (at least once a day), but since my husband and I are saving to move, we won't be eating out more than once or twice a month.

15. What are your three favorite foods?
Bean and Cheese Burritos, Cheese and Crackers, Salmon


16. What are your three favorite restaurants?
Elephant Bar, California Pizza Kitchen, Santanas Mexican Food

17. What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food?
Eat healthier foods. Drink more water. Limit my portions.

18. If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different?
I would be thinner, have a low body fat percentage, and be more toned.

19. Do you eat when you are not hungry?
Yes. I constantly eat when I am craving flavor, am bored, or am watching tv or reading a book.

20. Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)?
Yes, its horrible though.

21. Do you hide your food or eat in secret?
No

22. Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed?
Yes

23. Do you eat as a reward?
Yes

24. Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer?
Yes, all the time.

25. What do you normally eat for a meal?
Peanut butter jelly sandwitches, quesadillas, cheese and crackers, etc.

26. What type of snacks do you eat?
crackers, chips, chocolate.

27. In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing?
Nothing right now, but I am going to try to slowly get back into the swing of things as soon as my dang tattoo is done heeling.

28. Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym?
I work out at the gym as well as at home.

29. What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise?
Eliptical Machine, Weight Training, Spinning.

30. What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals?
I want to be happy and I want to have a better sex life (since I have gained weight, I am never in the mood and never feel sexy).

31. Do you have rewards for certain goals?
Not right now.

 

[Natsky]

I thought I would go ahead and answer these questions, so that everyone could get to know me a bit better.

1. What is your current height and weight?
5ft 4in, 134 lbs

2. If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be?
120 lbs

3. At what weight would you like to be at four months from now?
120 lbs

4. Why do you want to lose weight?
I want to feel good about myself and feel pretty. My low self esteem has had a negative impact on my relationships.

5. Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event?
I just want to lose weight to be happy with myself, but I did join the Valentines Day Challenge, so my mini goal for Valentines day is 125 lbs.

6. What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals?
Stress, poor motivation, bad habits.

7. Why do you think that you now have a weight problem?
I used to be a professional dancer and had to stop due to an injury which caused me to gain a lot of weight. I have also battled with eating disorders and this time around binge eating and bulimia have also contributed to my weight gain.

8. What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight?
Eating healthy and getting rid of bad habits such as snacking, stress eating, and eating whatever I want when I go out with friends.

9. Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight?
I have lost weight in the past. I did weight watchers once and had some success. Most of the time when I have lost weight though it has been in an unhealthy way, and I am determined not to let that happen again.

10. Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back?
A lot of the ways that I lost weight were extreme, unhealthy, and not sustainable in the long term.

12. Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time?
Yes. I am currently doing this right now.

13. Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook?
I eat at home often. I am not much of a cook, but I'm getting better.

14. How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go?
I used to go out and eat a lot (at least once a day), but since my husband and I are saving to move, we won't be eating out more than once or twice a month.

15. What are your three favorite foods?
Bean and Cheese Burritos, Cheese and Crackers, Salmon


16. What are your three favorite restaurants?
Elephant Bar, California Pizza Kitchen, Santanas Mexican Food

17. What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food?
Eat healthier foods. Drink more water. Limit my portions.

18. If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different?
I would be thinner, have a low body fat percentage, and be more toned.

19. Do you eat when you are not hungry?
Yes. I constantly eat when I am craving flavor, am bored, or am watching tv or reading a book.

20. Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)?
Yes, its horrible though.

21. Do you hide your food or eat in secret?
No

22. Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed?
Yes

23. Do you eat as a reward?
Yes

24. Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer?
Yes, all the time.

25. What do you normally eat for a meal?
Peanut butter jelly sandwitches, quesadillas, cheese and crackers, etc.

26. What type of snacks do you eat?
crackers, chips, chocolate.

27. In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing?
Nothing right now, but I am going to try to slowly get back into the swing of things as soon as my dang tattoo is done heeling.

28. Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym?
I work out at the gym as well as at home.

29. What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise?
Eliptical Machine, Weight Training, Spinning.

30. What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals?
I want to be happy and I want to have a better sex life (since I have gained weight, I am never in the mood and never feel sexy).

31. Do you have rewards for certain goals?
Not right now.

Hiya Katie, my diary is about my struggle, coming from ani_mia and moving forward to success. ITs not just losing weight that has to happen, its also getting a hand on how you percieve yourself, if you cant help that, than you will continue binge eating. And trust me, its not worth it. I used to have my favorite tooth brush that I would stick down my throat. Bringing definitely is not fun and such things can actually make you gain weight, my only problem now is that I binge, but dont purge. Thats where it gets hard.

You do seem to eat a lot of foods you probably shouldnt..... I would think of it as a lifestyle change and not a diet. Its how you will be eating for the rest of your life to lose the weight and maintain your goal, u know.


So I like to think of it as my lifestyle change. I actually binge because of constant stress, even in a relationship stresses I will binge, I dont have much of a sex life either and thats with how I percieve my body and depression. I try to hook up with my man, but it can be difficult with low selfesteem issues and extra weight. But I would really stop, try to stop purging, thats a start. And what you eat may be a problem. You seem to be eating quite a bit of foods that dont look so hot. That will make you gain weight. One think I trick myself with, is I buy strawberries and binge on fruit. Lately I havent been binging.. I have been eating, than not eating, which is making me gain more weight! ugh so I feel you there.

I am working out a schedule, which you might want to do. Work out when you eat breakfast, lunch, dinner, and two small snacks. I know they say dont eat at night, but I do anyway, so I just eat half a blueberry bagel with smart balance butter

do you see where I am going....

You can do this... We can do this ... its gonna take a lot of will power and might, but you can do it hun. Nobody really writes in my diary, because I am talking about issues as the one you have brought up in your diary, but I will make sure to pop into your diary... I know how it feels when they dont reply in your diary....

best wishes
always
till next time
natalie jo

 

[katiedid]

So today was another good day. Still no working out, but my food intake was pretty good:

Breakfast:
1 bagel with spray butter (320 cals)

Lunch:
Tuna sandwich (270 cals)
3 ounces of baby carrots (40 cals)
String Cheese (80 cals)
Small piece of chocolate (30 cals)

Snack:
1 ounce of tortilla chips (120 cals)

Dinner:
5 ounces of tilapia (125 cals)
1/2 cup of rice (170 cals)

Dessert:
Skinny cow ice cream sandwich (140 cals)

Total: 1300 cals

I'm pretty proud of myself, and I drank lots of water today as well. I'm on winter break so its hard not to eat while I'm sitting at home and my husband is working, but I am finding other things to occupy my time.

Also, I had a job interview today. I think I made a good impression and am going to go back in for a 2nd interview, so hopefully all will go well. Having a job will also keep me on my feet more and keep me from being lazy at home, lol.

Hiya Katie, my diary is about my struggle, coming from ani_mia and moving forward to success. ITs not just losing weight that has to happen, its also getting a hand on how you percieve yourself, if you cant help that, than you will continue binge eating. And trust me, its not worth it. I used to have my favorite tooth brush that I would stick down my throat. Bringing definitely is not fun and such things can actually make you gain weight, my only problem now is that I binge, but dont purge. Thats where it gets hard.

You do seem to eat a lot of foods you probably shouldnt..... I would think of it as a lifestyle change and not a diet. Its how you will be eating for the rest of your life to lose the weight and maintain your goal, u know.


So I like to think of it as my lifestyle change. I actually binge because of constant stress, even in a relationship stresses I will binge, I dont have much of a sex life either and thats with how I percieve my body and depression. I try to hook up with my man, but it can be difficult with low selfesteem issues and extra weight. But I would really stop, try to stop purging, thats a start. And what you eat may be a problem. You seem to be eating quite a bit of foods that dont look so hot. That will make you gain weight. One think I trick myself with, is I buy strawberries and binge on fruit. Lately I havent been binging.. I have been eating, than not eating, which is making me gain more weight! ugh so I feel you there.

I am working out a schedule, which you might want to do. Work out when you eat breakfast, lunch, dinner, and two small snacks. I know they say dont eat at night, but I do anyway, so I just eat half a blueberry bagel with smart balance butter

do you see where I am going....

You can do this... We can do this ... its gonna take a lot of will power and might, but you can do it hun. Nobody really writes in my diary, because I am talking about issues as the one you have brought up in your diary, but I will make sure to pop into your diary... I know how it feels when they dont reply in your diary....

best wishes
always
till next time
natalie jo

Hi Natalie,

Thank you for taking the time to say all of those nice things. It really helps to be able to relate to someone who is going through the same thing. My husband is so supportive, but he doesn't understand what it feels like to have an eating disorder and have such a distorted body image. I agree that a lifestyle change is the way to fix it as well as improving my self image. I'm trying to start each day by writing down 5 things about myself (physical or nonphysical) that I am feeling good about that day. It helps start my day with a positive outlook on my life. I will definitely start reading your diary. It will be really nice to support each other through this. You are right! We CAN do this and we CAN be successful

You were right about me eating the wrong foods! As you can see above, I have started changing my diet a lot and am trying my best to stick to it. Whenever I eat healthy I start to feel better about myself so hopefully, the longer I eat healthy the better I'll feel and eventually my self esteem will improve a lot.

Anyways, its a long journey and a gradual process, and I think that the best thing I can do for myself is accept that and not expect instantaneous results. I my outlook on my decision to change my life is pretty positive right now, so I'm hoping to keep it that way.

Best Wishes,
Katie

 

[Natsky]

hiya Katie,
Sounds like you have a lot of good stuff happening. Another interview to a job, awesome, way to go!! and your eating looked great. And your caloric intake looked darn good.

Keep up the good work. I hope I reach a point where I have a schedule eating times and what not. Kicking my butt right now, because I never remember when to eat, or to eat, or eat too much. You know how it is.

But I think I may right down the times I want to eat at. Basically there are times I am hungry, now I just need to excute the times and schedule. Already cut down on portion sizes.

You did damn good today hun!!

I am so happy I have someone who can relate with the eating disorder stuff. Some peeps just dont get how one starts a habit or such and what not. Peeps are sensitive. Thanks for writing in my diary, I really appreciate it. and I enjoy reading yours. Yours is so positive.

I am reading so many fantasy young adult novels its crazy. Do you have anything in particular you are reading? I am reading "Dark Ground", it isnt new and its kind of strange, but all the books I read are strange and the one I will be writing is going to be strange. Strange cant be all that bad, I think it rocks! lmao

Well I hope you are having a fantastic night!!
best wishes
always
natalie jo

 

[katiedid]

Hi Everyone

Today was a pretty good day except for my 3 hours at the dmv which maaaajorly sucked. I have to go back tomorrow morning too. Ugh. Other than that it was a good day though. I got to spend time with my hubby since he had the afternoon and evening off of work.

We are planning to make a big move in about a year, so we went window shopping for some stuff for our new place which we are going to slowly start collecting so that we can redecorate when we move. It was fun spending the time together and picking things out together for our home. When we did our wedding registration a few years back I picked everything myself and he wanted nothing to do with it, so this kinda makes up for it My birthday is coming up in a couple months, so I may spend my b-day money on some of the stuff we picked out today.

Today my eating was okay. I kinda screwed myself over with a mini cupcake, but that was the only bad thing I ate. I am sorta bummed that I went over 1300 cals though. Oh wells. Better luck tomorrow.

Breakfast:
1/3 of a Coffee Light Frappicino (40 cals)
Cup of Fruit (100 cals)

Lunch:
6 inch subway turkey sandwich on wheat w/ veggies (280)
Baked Lays Chips (140)
Mini Cupcake (161)

Snack:
Cheese Quesadilla w/ lowfat cheese (250)

Dinner:
Rice (170)
Chicken (140)
Steamed Veggies (70)

Total: 1330

hiya Katie,
Sounds like you have a lot of good stuff happening. Another interview to a job, awesome, way to go!! and your eating looked great. And your caloric intake looked darn good.

Keep up the good work. I hope I reach a point where I have a schedule eating times and what not. Kicking my butt right now, because I never remember when to eat, or to eat, or eat too much. You know how it is.

But I think I may right down the times I want to eat at. Basically there are times I am hungry, now I just need to excute the times and schedule. Already cut down on portion sizes.

You did damn good today hun!!

I am so happy I have someone who can relate with the eating disorder stuff. Some peeps just dont get how one starts a habit or such and what not. Peeps are sensitive. Thanks for writing in my diary, I really appreciate it. and I enjoy reading yours. Yours is so positive.

I am reading so many fantasy young adult novels its crazy. Do you have anything in particular you are reading? I am reading "Dark Ground", it isnt new and its kind of strange, but all the books I read are strange and the one I will be writing is going to be strange. Strange cant be all that bad, I think it rocks! lmao

Well I hope you are having a fantastic night!!
best wishes
always
natalie jo

Hi Natalie

I find that staying positive is the best way to get through this. I have battled with depression before and it runs in my family, so I know that if I let myself get to that place, I won't be able to do this.

Eating less at the beginning of the day helps me eat the correct amount throughout the day. I am really strict with my calories for breakfast and lunch and then more liberal with my snack and dinner. That way, at the end of the day I can use up whatever cals I have left and not worry about not being able to eat because I ate to much earlier. Maybe that would help you as well.

Right now I'm reading "Good in Bed" which is not a fantasy or young adult novel, but (actually its kinda ironic) its about a fat girl's struggle to find her place in the world, confidence with herself, and develop a love life. It talks a lot about how other people see her as pretty and she doesn't see herself that way which is something I really need to work on.

Anyways, I'm gonna pop over to your diary and see how your day went.

Goodnight!
Katie

 

[Natsky]

Hey Katie, thanks for the great advice on my diary. But I have a question, did you calculate how much calories you need to take in? because Ive heard on here that most women should be taking in 1400 to 1600 calories. Did you talk with your therapist or calculate your caloric intake you need for your activity and age?


just wondering and worried.

You might want to check out the sticky threads and find the calculator that tells you how many calories one is supposed to take in.

Im sorry if bringing this up offends or bothers you, just 1300 seems so small. But you are a small person and maybe 1300 is right for you.

but anyway I am happy for you and your husband. It must be so much fun thinking or the decorating you will get to do in your new house, and it is nice to have the male counterpart get involved lol

or hubby lol

I wish My bf and I could get married, but under ssdi and ssi, we would get less money than we do now, and as of now we barely make it by. And I am permanently disabled and so is he. He works a little, but it sucks, because people dont like him at work. And its not anything he did, just his aspergers. He has a disorder, all that brain chemical stuff, and he gets it held against him. its sucks. He is a very good worker, always early, very trustworthy, excellent. He leaves for the bus at seven thirty, makes it to work by eleven and sometimes the truck with the papers doesnt even arrive until one pm or later, but anyway ... ugh


but I am happy you had a great time with your hubby. Sounds like you have a healthy relationship with him. Very healthy and thats always good, especially if your anxiety can spike a little.

And dont worry about the cup cake. I eat one piece of chocolate once or twice a week. I find it keeps me from going overboard if I ever get my hands on anything yummy.


best wishes to you hun ...
keep trecking ...
your on the right path...
always
natalie jo

 

[Natsky]

Hiya Katie,

Whats up? How are you?


Just wondering if you are alright? How is the possible job going?

Anyway I almost slipped up and u know. I ate uncooked cookie chocolate chip cookie dough... yuck ..

now I have been sick all day ...

I gave all the chocolate away to this old lady down the hall for her grandaughters... pawn it on them ... lol

anyway I am looking up and not going to think negative ..bought fruit today...

already tasted the sweet taste of clementines and I bought green grapes too... good stuff...
it felt good

ttylater
hope to hear from you soon
natalie jo

 

[katiedid]

Hiya Katie,

Whats up? How are you?


Just wondering if you are alright? How is the possible job going?

Anyway I almost slipped up and u know. I ate uncooked cookie chocolate chip cookie dough... yuck ..

now I have been sick all day ...

I gave all the chocolate away to this old lady down the hall for her grandaughters... pawn it on them ... lol

anyway I am looking up and not going to think negative ..bought fruit today...

already tasted the sweet taste of clementines and I bought green grapes too... good stuff...
it felt good

ttylater
hope to hear from you soon
natalie jo

Hey Natalie

I'm doing good. I kinda screwed up with my food the last few days, and ate around my maintenance level the past two days. I didn't gain any weight though, so I'm not too upset about it. I weighed myself today and this past week I've lost about 5 lbs, so I'm pretty happy. I know that the first week you usually lose a lot and then it slows down after that, but it still makes me happy to see the numbers drop

You have some will power to give away chocolate! Chocolate is my absolute weekness I'm trying to wean myself off of it, but I've still been having a small portion a day. BTW, don't feel bad about the cookie dough. Cookie dough is my favorite (though I know soooo bad for me). I'm sorry you got sick though. What a bummer

Good job buying fruit! I bought some when I went grocery shopping yesterday and it is sooo yummy!

The job hunt is going well. I got called back for a 2nd interview so that's good news. Its scheduled for Tuesday.

Anyways, I have a b-day dinner for my grandma tonight, so I'm gonna try to be good. My mom is cooking the dinner so it shouldn't be too bad. I'm going to post up my calorie intake for the day when I get home this evening.

I hope things are going well for you!

Katie

 

[Natsky]

Hey Natalie

I'm doing good. I kinda screwed up with my food the last few days, and ate around my maintenance level the past two days. I didn't gain any weight though, so I'm not too upset about it. I weighed myself today and this past week I've lost about 5 lbs, so I'm pretty happy. I know that the first week you usually lose a lot and then it slows down after that, but it still makes me happy to see the numbers drop

You have some will power to give away chocolate! Chocolate is my absolute weekness I'm trying to wean myself off of it, but I've still been having a small portion a day. BTW, don't feel bad about the cookie dough. Cookie dough is my favorite (though I know soooo bad for me). I'm sorry you got sick though. What a bummer

Good job buying fruit! I bought some when I went grocery shopping yesterday and it is sooo yummy!

The job hunt is going well. I got called back for a 2nd interview so that's good news. Its scheduled for Tuesday.

Anyways, I have a b-day dinner for my grandma tonight, so I'm gonna try to be good. My mom is cooking the dinner so it shouldn't be too bad. I'm going to post up my calorie intake for the day when I get home this evening.

I hope things are going well for you!

Katie

Heya Katie,
Sounds like its been all around good two weeks... congrats on the loss so far ..good job!!

Good luck on Tuesday .. hope it works out

Im sure you will be fine and the b-day party. Dont be too hard on yourself if you eat a bit too much of the yummy ... it is a b-day ...

Well things worked out for me ... I absolutely hate chocolate or anything too sweet, other than my fruit and clementines .. I swear those sweets are just bad for me ... they just ...ugh I have been totally turned off from them ...

Anyway ..
I shall ttylater
have a nice evening


always
natalie jo

 

[katiedid]

Hi Everyone,

Sorry I haven't been around for the last few days. I have been super busy and unfortunately my eating has been bad. The birthday dinner at my mom's house was pretty fattening. Saturday night, my husband took me out to dinner, and I ate more than I should. Then on Sunday we had a batmitzva to go to and of course the food there was so bad for me! Ugh, yesterday I needed to grocery shop and didn't have a chance to until last night, so I had to eat whatever was left in the house so it was hard to watch my calories. I am feeling pretty gross, so today I'm going to try to stick to just fruits, veggies, and some grilled chicken (no heavy carbs or starches) and drink lots of water. Hopefully this will help me flush out my system and get back on track.

I'm proud of myself for making the effort to get back on track because in the past, once I mess up its hard for me to get back on track. I just need to remember that its a journey and a slip up doesn't mean that I failed.

Anyways, I'll post my calories later tonight. Have a good day everyone

 

[katiedid]

Okay, so today I did good! It feels good to be back on track. Here's what I ate:

Breakfast:
None (I know that's bad, but I woke up feeling sick).

Snack:
Fruit Cup- 100 Cals
Small Piece of Chocolate- 30 Cals

Lunch:
California Rolls (sushi)- 250 Cals

Snack:
Carmel Light Frappuccino- 160 Cals
Baked Lays- 120 Cals

Dinner:
Steamed Veggies- 140 Cals
Grilled Chicken Breast- 150 Cals
String Cheese- 80 Cals

Total: 1205 Calories
Dessert:
Small Peach- 35 Cals
Skinny Cow- 140 Cals

 

[katiedid]

Hi Everyone

I had a somewhat busy day today. Did lots of laundry, ran errands, took my dogs to do park, and then did some chores around the house. I got a call back from my interview though and all I have to do is go in and take a drug test and hopefully I'll have the job Cross your fingers for me! I go in to get more color done on my tattoo tomorrow, so wish me luck on that! I'm really excited

Food-wise today was another good day:

Breakfast:
Fruit Cup (100 cals)
English Muffin with light butter and jelly (200 cals)

Snack:
1/2 Cupcake (150 cals)

Lunch:
Tuna Sandwich (210 cals)
Pretzels (110 Cals)
Popcorn (140 cals)
Peach (35 cals)

Dinner:
Bleu Cheese and Cranberry Salad (280 cals)

Snack:
Bowl of Cereal (150 cals)

Total: 1375

My total is higher than I would like, but definitely nothing to be upset about.

 

[Natsky]

Hi Everyone

I had a somewhat busy day today. Did lots of laundry, ran errands, took my dogs to do park, and then did some chores around the house. I got a call back from my interview though and all I have to do is go in and take a drug test and hopefully I'll have the job Cross your fingers for me! I go in to get more color done on my tattoo tomorrow, so wish me luck on that! I'm really excited

Food-wise today was another good day:

Breakfast:
Fruit Cup (100 cals)
English Muffin with light butter and jelly (200 cals)

Snack:
1/2 Cupcake (150 cals)

Lunch:
Tuna Sandwich (210 cals)
Pretzels (110 Cals)
Popcorn (140 cals)
Peach (35 cals)

Dinner:
Bleu Cheese and Cranberry Salad (280 cals)

Snack:
Bowl of Cereal (150 cals)

Total: 1375

My total is higher than I would like, but definitely nothing to be upset about.

Katie I think you did awesome with your calories. A woman, supposedly is supposed to take in 1400 to 1600 calories a day. I am sure 1375 is a good way to go. I did a little no no today, I ate at friendlies. but I only had half a sandwhich melt and half an ice cream ... my man and I shared, and we barely got any french fries. It feels good to just go in every two months ...

But I weigh less. I report my weight in tomorrow, hopefully it will stay down. Going to work on the bike at home.

but anyway have a wonderful day and evening ...

Your doing awesome!!

always
natalie jo

 

[Natsky]

Hiya Katie,
I hate to ask this, but its so easy to do "But have you fallen back into ...well u know?"

I can understand .. you just slip back into it ..get depressed ... dont write on the diary because of it ..

I hope your ok ...
write soon ...

worried about you .. I know how it is ..

best wishes
always
natalie jo

keep trecking ...

 

[Natsky]

Hey you,
How are you doing? Did you jump off the wagon and not so feeling good about it?

I kind of have been not eating during the day and binging at night. And now I have been trying to eat calories, but not enough, on top of exercises for forty minutes a day..... so I have been doing no nos... and than Now when I eat I get stomach pains, because I am not used to eating ... so I ate three eggs with a cup of milk, and that stuff doesnt sit well with me, but I always here its good to eat and man oh man am I paying for it. First of all, I am lactose intolerant .. so needless to say because I starved myself most of the day and I am not used to eating and now I am hungry and I wait and wait and than I eat and I have great pain .. I have decided I am going to ease food back into my life, figured out how to eat five meals, with out going over the calorie count that I am supposed to be eating, actually a little less, but only 205 calories less than what I am supposed to eat and than If I work of the usual 205, which is really strange that my work out, works off the same restriction I have put on myself and if I exercise at least I can add a little something sweet to my diet and not make a horrid mess... so on to eating and being healthy it is .. well thats my story? plus I think adding a sweet will be good, because my sugars have been almost too low ... yikes ..well that all my story ...

so whats yours?

I hope your doing well and are healthy and good and in a good place. You can write me via Im if you want ... through Weight loss forum. I will just make sure I check my messages .. good luck hun
always
your friend
natalie jo ((hugs))