This is the first time I am saying outloud that I am not happy with the way my body is right now, I have always been that "love myself" whatever weight I am kindo f person, and I do love myself but I need to lose the weight.
I have already gone a long way with this.
When I was 14 and remember beingin the hospital after a silly broken nose incident while fighting with my sister over who's turn it was to use the phone, lol and the nurse told me my weight was 242. I wasn't concerned with my broken nose, they fixed it, but I realized I was too heavy at that moment. no one ever told me I was but I knew it at that moment. So I stopped eating junk food and drinking soda. The weight flew off. And I maintained a weight of 158-168 until my sophmore year in college, when things with my ex boyfriend started to go down hill (We had been together 4 years already) I gained it ALL back. Well he broke up with me for the gril he had been "talking" to the day after I graduated from college at a whopping 245lbs.
I was sick with lonleyness. He was a huge part of my life, but about 3 months went by, I got a new car, a new job, and got back into eating the right foods and no more take out at 10pm (which was what time he got home from work so we always ate late).
I got back down to 180ish. And have fluctuated between 165-180 ever since.
I have always told myself at 5'5" I should be around 130 and this time i am going to do it for real, no more excuses, no more I love my body the way it is crap, because I don't and I need to stop lying to myself. And now that I have finally admit that I think this is how I am finally going to get this weight off.
I work a lot, and am just about ready to close on a 2 family house and my apartment ( the one I will be living in) needs a lot of work. So I need to be extra careful that the late nights painitng don't turn into pizza at 11pm nights...
I finally realize that I can not eat whatever I want, I have to make sacrifices to get where I want to be. I have everything I have ever wanted in my life because I worked hard to get there, a college degree, a great job, that all took work, hard work and so will this.
So exercise, eating healthy and dedication, (the most important part) how I accomplished every other goal in my life.
I have already gone a long way with this.
When I was 14 and remember beingin the hospital after a silly broken nose incident while fighting with my sister over who's turn it was to use the phone, lol and the nurse told me my weight was 242. I wasn't concerned with my broken nose, they fixed it, but I realized I was too heavy at that moment. no one ever told me I was but I knew it at that moment. So I stopped eating junk food and drinking soda. The weight flew off. And I maintained a weight of 158-168 until my sophmore year in college, when things with my ex boyfriend started to go down hill (We had been together 4 years already) I gained it ALL back. Well he broke up with me for the gril he had been "talking" to the day after I graduated from college at a whopping 245lbs.
I was sick with lonleyness. He was a huge part of my life, but about 3 months went by, I got a new car, a new job, and got back into eating the right foods and no more take out at 10pm (which was what time he got home from work so we always ate late).
I got back down to 180ish. And have fluctuated between 165-180 ever since.
I have always told myself at 5'5" I should be around 130 and this time i am going to do it for real, no more excuses, no more I love my body the way it is crap, because I don't and I need to stop lying to myself. And now that I have finally admit that I think this is how I am finally going to get this weight off.
I work a lot, and am just about ready to close on a 2 family house and my apartment ( the one I will be living in) needs a lot of work. So I need to be extra careful that the late nights painitng don't turn into pizza at 11pm nights...
I finally realize that I can not eat whatever I want, I have to make sacrifices to get where I want to be. I have everything I have ever wanted in my life because I worked hard to get there, a college degree, a great job, that all took work, hard work and so will this.
So exercise, eating healthy and dedication, (the most important part) how I accomplished every other goal in my life.
