Amy1992
New member
Hello!
It's been such a long time since I've been on here last. I'm back here because this forum proved that I can lose weight (which is what I'm finding hard to believe at the moment). Since I've last been on here things have gotten dramatically worse, seriously. I've been in a deep spiral of chronic depression for the past four years, looks like it'll be a life-long thing too and on meds for life. I had to quit my job because I had a breakdown. I've gained around 6st in total, maybe even more. I lost my auntie through cancer who was a mother figure to me and a best friend. The only decent thing that has happened to me is finding my soul mate, Simon. If i didn't have him I seriously doubt I'd be posting this right now.
With my depression it's extremely hard to find an ounce of motivation to even get out of bed, never mind losing weight. I have a cross-trainer in my bedroom collecting dust, and I constantly shout inside my head "Come on Amy, even if it's 5minutes" I can not bring myself to do it.
But now I actually want things to change and by golly it's going to be painful, difficult and extremely stressful for me but I need to do this for myself and for Simon too. I don't have money to join clubs like Slimming World and Weight Watchers but I'm planning to use the basic guideline and use the free recipes etc ... I also read through my old posts of when I lost a stone in a month and will take tips from my former self!
I really feel like I need to ease myself into this now, exercise will be done but in small amounts and build it up slowly or I'll end up collapsing.
Regarding food, I have an extremely unhealthy relationship with it. I'm in a vicious circle of; eating to make myself happy for a small amount of time, then I feel guilty that I gorged myself and I then eat again to make myself happy. I really need to break out of this but I keep using excuses for eating healthy.
The main thing I'm lacking is support, my family have never been there for me and Simon, well he tries bless him but he's fit and healthy himself and has this annoying extremely positivive attitutde that I can literally climb a mountain tomorrow.
Anyway, I'll cut this post now. You'll hear from me soon, sorry for the down-of-a-post!
Amy.
Me at a not so healthy weight but happy with my look.
I think I was in the 11-12st's here.
Me now, I feel disgusted at this picture and can't believe I'm posting this.
I think I'm 17st 9lbs, I'll have to check this.
It's been such a long time since I've been on here last. I'm back here because this forum proved that I can lose weight (which is what I'm finding hard to believe at the moment). Since I've last been on here things have gotten dramatically worse, seriously. I've been in a deep spiral of chronic depression for the past four years, looks like it'll be a life-long thing too and on meds for life. I had to quit my job because I had a breakdown. I've gained around 6st in total, maybe even more. I lost my auntie through cancer who was a mother figure to me and a best friend. The only decent thing that has happened to me is finding my soul mate, Simon. If i didn't have him I seriously doubt I'd be posting this right now.
With my depression it's extremely hard to find an ounce of motivation to even get out of bed, never mind losing weight. I have a cross-trainer in my bedroom collecting dust, and I constantly shout inside my head "Come on Amy, even if it's 5minutes" I can not bring myself to do it.
But now I actually want things to change and by golly it's going to be painful, difficult and extremely stressful for me but I need to do this for myself and for Simon too. I don't have money to join clubs like Slimming World and Weight Watchers but I'm planning to use the basic guideline and use the free recipes etc ... I also read through my old posts of when I lost a stone in a month and will take tips from my former self!
I really feel like I need to ease myself into this now, exercise will be done but in small amounts and build it up slowly or I'll end up collapsing.
Regarding food, I have an extremely unhealthy relationship with it. I'm in a vicious circle of; eating to make myself happy for a small amount of time, then I feel guilty that I gorged myself and I then eat again to make myself happy. I really need to break out of this but I keep using excuses for eating healthy.
The main thing I'm lacking is support, my family have never been there for me and Simon, well he tries bless him but he's fit and healthy himself and has this annoying extremely positivive attitutde that I can literally climb a mountain tomorrow.
Anyway, I'll cut this post now. You'll hear from me soon, sorry for the down-of-a-post!
Amy.
Me at a not so healthy weight but happy with my look.
I think I was in the 11-12st's here.
Me now, I feel disgusted at this picture and can't believe I'm posting this.
I think I'm 17st 9lbs, I'll have to check this.
