CoachCrimson
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Hello everyone,
My name is Josh. I am addicted to food. I stand 6'3" (1.93m) tall, and weigh around 440 pounds right now.
OK, now that i got the Fatties Anonymous opener out of the way, here's my situation. I take medication for some mental health issues. Deeply rooted in these psychological problems is an attachment not so much to food, as it is to the satisfaction of eating to content. it has a lot to do with the way i was raised (mom bragged when i could finish off a big mac sandwich at the age of 3). Eating is now tied to all emotions in my life, everytime my emotions change (which is quite frequently with my issues), i turn to food to try to level things out. I am 23 years old now, and the way i was raised is no longer to blame for my current health. However, lifelong habits (i think habit is an understatement at this point) die hard, if they ever truly die at all, so needless to say, its been an uphill battle. In about 9 hours from now, I will meet with a counselor for the first time (first time about food anyways), in an attempt to start fostering some psychological changes. Just like all the other counselors, I am sure she will tell me that i need a community that i can share my thoughts with, and that is my purpose for being here.
Even though i have always been large, i was also always active and athletic. Played football 4 years in high school, threw shotput and discus 3 years in high school and 4 years in college. My competitive side always kept me in the weightroom, and I was always reading up on sports exercise and nutrition. My activity levels tended to keep me around 330-350 pounds. Since leaving college about 1.5 years ago, ive hit a period of inactivity, and am now at my current weight and in the worst health i have ever been in. Doctor says at the rate i am going, i will die of a heart attack before the age of 30.
My goals have nothing to do with aestetics (forgive my harsh spelling). I really don't care what others think about how i look, or about conforming to a social standard. What i care about is functionality. I want to be able to throw shotput and discus far again. I want to be strong. I dont want to be out of breath climbing a flight of stairs. I want a bodyfat percentage that i can be efficient with. I want to be healthy.
Overall, Im going to shoot for about 275 pounds (havent been under 300 since i was a freshman in high school). I want to get my squat back up to where it was in college (600 pound max). I want to improve my health so that my blood pressure is normal, so that im not showing signs of diabetes, lower my cholesterol, and just basically get all those blood test numbers back into their normal ranges.
Hopefully ill get to share some of my ideas while here, and get some good motivation and advice in return. maybe with some luck, some inspiration, and a whole lot of perspiration i can turn my life around for once and for all.
My name is Josh. I am addicted to food. I stand 6'3" (1.93m) tall, and weigh around 440 pounds right now.
OK, now that i got the Fatties Anonymous opener out of the way, here's my situation. I take medication for some mental health issues. Deeply rooted in these psychological problems is an attachment not so much to food, as it is to the satisfaction of eating to content. it has a lot to do with the way i was raised (mom bragged when i could finish off a big mac sandwich at the age of 3). Eating is now tied to all emotions in my life, everytime my emotions change (which is quite frequently with my issues), i turn to food to try to level things out. I am 23 years old now, and the way i was raised is no longer to blame for my current health. However, lifelong habits (i think habit is an understatement at this point) die hard, if they ever truly die at all, so needless to say, its been an uphill battle. In about 9 hours from now, I will meet with a counselor for the first time (first time about food anyways), in an attempt to start fostering some psychological changes. Just like all the other counselors, I am sure she will tell me that i need a community that i can share my thoughts with, and that is my purpose for being here.
Even though i have always been large, i was also always active and athletic. Played football 4 years in high school, threw shotput and discus 3 years in high school and 4 years in college. My competitive side always kept me in the weightroom, and I was always reading up on sports exercise and nutrition. My activity levels tended to keep me around 330-350 pounds. Since leaving college about 1.5 years ago, ive hit a period of inactivity, and am now at my current weight and in the worst health i have ever been in. Doctor says at the rate i am going, i will die of a heart attack before the age of 30.
My goals have nothing to do with aestetics (forgive my harsh spelling). I really don't care what others think about how i look, or about conforming to a social standard. What i care about is functionality. I want to be able to throw shotput and discus far again. I want to be strong. I dont want to be out of breath climbing a flight of stairs. I want a bodyfat percentage that i can be efficient with. I want to be healthy.
Overall, Im going to shoot for about 275 pounds (havent been under 300 since i was a freshman in high school). I want to get my squat back up to where it was in college (600 pound max). I want to improve my health so that my blood pressure is normal, so that im not showing signs of diabetes, lower my cholesterol, and just basically get all those blood test numbers back into their normal ranges.
Hopefully ill get to share some of my ideas while here, and get some good motivation and advice in return. maybe with some luck, some inspiration, and a whole lot of perspiration i can turn my life around for once and for all.
