nightlace
New member
Hey all. I'm a little bit nervous. I've been the size I am for too long now. As of this morning, I'm 235.4 lbs and only 5'5" tall. I'm a single mom and a college student. Work two days per week (leaving the other days for classes when they start back). The last time I was really down much was in 2002, when I worked out (cardio mostly) for an hour to an hour and a half in the morning and then did the same in the evening. I was also jogging at that point and completed four 5k road races during that time. The last road race I completed at that time, I weighed 191 lbs. I haven't seen under 200lbs since then. That's why I'm here. I've set a goal to lose 30 lbs before classes start back Aug 29th. I know it's a bit of a lofty goal, but I also feel that since I have so much weight to lose, the goal is doable. I have a BIG goal too but don't even want to think about it yet since I would really LOVE to get down to somewhere between 125-140 lbs in the end.
I'm really afraid that I will always be this size. And I'm tired of being this size. I'm not bad looking, but my weight affects how people interact with me and it affects how I feel about myself.
Thankfully, I've already got my gym membership and was going frequently until I had a tooth problem that put me in a lot of pain and the antibiotics made me sick too. But that's taken care of now so I don't have any excuses for not going on a regular basis and plan to get back in my routine. Sad thing is, when I was going, I gained two pounds despite eating well and working out hard. That was disheartening.
As far as my diet goes, it's not the most horrible or the best in the world. I'm not bad for eating much fast food. I quit drinking any soda with caffeine the last day of classes. Still have an occasional sprite which I now feel I will need to cut out as well to achieve this lofty goal of mine. I'm bad to eat sweets but have transitioned to eating hershey kisses - about 5 a day, spread out through the day. They are only 20 calories each, so I feel that this is not a bad calorie investment. I drink a lot of water and occasionally some hot tea (without caffeine of course). I do know that I will need to journal every single morsel of food that passes my lips, otherwise, I have a tough time with correct portions. I simply eat too much if left to my own devices without journaling it all. That is the only way that I will be able to keep my calorie intake at a reasonable amount. Oh, and I'm hypothyroid, but I am taking medication for it and it is at the correct level. Being hypothyroid does make the weight seem a tad more stubborn to bring off though.
Well, I think that's a pretty adequate and lengthy introduction. I'm going to figure out what breakfast is consisting of for today and get myself to the gym. I do know that I will definitely need the motivation and help that I believe this site can provide. In truth, I'm terrified that I will always be this size....Hope I can break through that fear and prove myself wrong
I'm really afraid that I will always be this size. And I'm tired of being this size. I'm not bad looking, but my weight affects how people interact with me and it affects how I feel about myself.
Thankfully, I've already got my gym membership and was going frequently until I had a tooth problem that put me in a lot of pain and the antibiotics made me sick too. But that's taken care of now so I don't have any excuses for not going on a regular basis and plan to get back in my routine. Sad thing is, when I was going, I gained two pounds despite eating well and working out hard. That was disheartening.
As far as my diet goes, it's not the most horrible or the best in the world. I'm not bad for eating much fast food. I quit drinking any soda with caffeine the last day of classes. Still have an occasional sprite which I now feel I will need to cut out as well to achieve this lofty goal of mine. I'm bad to eat sweets but have transitioned to eating hershey kisses - about 5 a day, spread out through the day. They are only 20 calories each, so I feel that this is not a bad calorie investment. I drink a lot of water and occasionally some hot tea (without caffeine of course). I do know that I will need to journal every single morsel of food that passes my lips, otherwise, I have a tough time with correct portions. I simply eat too much if left to my own devices without journaling it all. That is the only way that I will be able to keep my calorie intake at a reasonable amount. Oh, and I'm hypothyroid, but I am taking medication for it and it is at the correct level. Being hypothyroid does make the weight seem a tad more stubborn to bring off though.
Well, I think that's a pretty adequate and lengthy introduction. I'm going to figure out what breakfast is consisting of for today and get myself to the gym. I do know that I will definitely need the motivation and help that I believe this site can provide. In truth, I'm terrified that I will always be this size....Hope I can break through that fear and prove myself wrong
