Nibbit
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As suggessted by a fellow member (douknowJello), I'll be putting up my little journal now. 
I've never really discussed this issue outside of my family unit but I feel it will help to get this told, so thank you 'Jello' for the little nudge to post a journal. It's a little embaressing, but I am a changed person now so it is the past.
I have always had an extreme problem with weight on both ends of the scales. I had an eating disorder that was getting dangerous. There was a time I was very underweight, bulimic, and unhealthy. Then there was a time where I stopped the purging and just binged....leading to becoming overweight.
At this very moment, I just want to be healthy and have a healthy weight. I don't like going from one extreme to another and became tired of that. Thankfully, unlike so many others with eating disorders, I am almost at my goal and living more healthy.
Even when I had my eating disorder, I still ate very unhealthy and binged quite often, especially after the death of my father when I was 16 years old. It was after his death that my weight seemed to soar and I became overweight. I never professionly received help for my eating disorder so never found certifiable guidance on recovering entirely from an ED. My eating disorder was usually kept in check with my dad watching how I ate. Please note that I am not blaming my father for anything. He always wanted to help me. He was the one that got me on the right track.
But after his death I kinda fell off that track on eating healthy and began to binge again. But because I knew how he felt about my bulimia and purging, I somehow restricted myself from that most days. I kinda felt that even though he had died, he was there watching me (not to sound creepy). But every so often, I have a bad day and I let that ED side of me win. But I am proud to say that for many years, I have yet to return to that binging and purging side of myself. Its still always in the back of my mind, but I have a stronger will now and someone who supports me.
When I was 22, I met my dutchie boyfriend and by the time I was 23....he asked me to move to europe to live with him. He's always loved me for who I am and I appreciate that more than anything. He met me when I was overweight and never judged me. After moving here though, your diet is forced to change. Dutchies eat very differently than americans (as everyone can probably imagine). Most of everyone here in Holland are beautiful and thin. I felt out of place. My dietary habits had to change. This was a good thing for me! Robbie (my boyfriend) and his mother picked up where my father left off on my ED and other problems. It was also in this time that my vegetarianism began.
Vegetarian eating was something that had been on my mind for years and years as I loved animals and spent a lot of my life helping and working with animals. So after a few months of living here, my diet switched from a normal healthy diet to an even more healthy vegetarian diet. It was not much longer after that that I cut out all animal products and began to eat more naturally. Raw vegan food rules!!
I don't have any 'before and after' pictures ready as of yet (I love the before and after forum!), I want to wait until I am completely finished with my weight loss before posting those, but the diet alone has helped me shed a lot of weight in a healthy manner! As you can see from my signature, I have dropped 33 kilos or almost 73 pounds of weight. I am only around 25 pounds from my goal.
Other basic info:
My name is Mandie. I'm short, standing only at 5 foot 3 inches! I love animals, martial arts, anime, any culture different from my own, I am a tree hugger and love everything.
And thats me.
I've never really discussed this issue outside of my family unit but I feel it will help to get this told, so thank you 'Jello' for the little nudge to post a journal
. It's a little embaressing, but I am a changed person now so it is the past. I have always had an extreme problem with weight on both ends of the scales. I had an eating disorder that was getting dangerous. There was a time I was very underweight, bulimic, and unhealthy. Then there was a time where I stopped the purging and just binged....leading to becoming overweight.
At this very moment, I just want to be healthy and have a healthy weight. I don't like going from one extreme to another and became tired of that. Thankfully, unlike so many others with eating disorders, I am almost at my goal and living more healthy.
Even when I had my eating disorder, I still ate very unhealthy and binged quite often, especially after the death of my father when I was 16 years old. It was after his death that my weight seemed to soar and I became overweight. I never professionly received help for my eating disorder so never found certifiable guidance on recovering entirely from an ED. My eating disorder was usually kept in check with my dad watching how I ate. Please note that I am not blaming my father for anything. He always wanted to help me. He was the one that got me on the right track.
But after his death I kinda fell off that track on eating healthy and began to binge again. But because I knew how he felt about my bulimia and purging, I somehow restricted myself from that most days. I kinda felt that even though he had died, he was there watching me (not to sound creepy). But every so often, I have a bad day and I let that ED side of me win. But I am proud to say that for many years, I have yet to return to that binging and purging side of myself. Its still always in the back of my mind, but I have a stronger will now and someone who supports me.
When I was 22, I met my dutchie boyfriend and by the time I was 23....he asked me to move to europe to live with him. He's always loved me for who I am and I appreciate that more than anything. He met me when I was overweight and never judged me. After moving here though, your diet is forced to change. Dutchies eat very differently than americans (as everyone can probably imagine). Most of everyone here in Holland are beautiful and thin. I felt out of place. My dietary habits had to change. This was a good thing for me! Robbie (my boyfriend) and his mother picked up where my father left off on my ED and other problems. It was also in this time that my vegetarianism began.
Vegetarian eating was something that had been on my mind for years and years as I loved animals and spent a lot of my life helping and working with animals. So after a few months of living here, my diet switched from a normal healthy diet to an even more healthy vegetarian diet. It was not much longer after that that I cut out all animal products and began to eat more naturally. Raw vegan food rules!!
I don't have any 'before and after' pictures ready as of yet (I love the before and after forum!), I want to wait until I am completely finished with my weight loss before posting those, but the diet alone has helped me shed a lot of weight in a healthy manner! As you can see from my signature, I have dropped 33 kilos or almost 73 pounds of weight. I am only around 25 pounds from my goal.
Other basic info:
My name is Mandie. I'm short, standing only at 5 foot 3 inches! I love animals, martial arts, anime, any culture different from my own, I am a tree hugger and love everything
.And thats me.
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. I blame being a raw vegan! That is a fairly new diet change into my venture and I haven't drank any alcohol since being a raw vegan. And, in the past, I certainly could handle more than two glasses of red wine 
....just to keep them from being separated from each other. That was totally sweet 
