peace-babyy
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Hey everyone, My name is Ashlee. I am 23 and live in FL. I am currently in cosmetology school and will graduate in October. I am currently at the worst I've ever been. I am about 250lbs. I am disgusted with it. I am mentally so motivated, but not physically. I have always been a bigger girl since 4th or 5th grade. When I was working all the time in high school I lost around 40lbs. I was about 190lbs. I was no where near my goal, but I would kill to be that now. I want to be around 150-165lbs. I randomly get so motivated and it dies off so fast. The time I lost 40lbs, I had recently broke up with my ex and lost the weight the unhealthy way. I wouldn't eat. I had one meal a day. I know that it isn't the correct way of doing it. I live with my parents and 2 sisters. They are all tiny, and my house is FILLED with sweets. It is so hard to diet when no one around here helps. If dad makes dinner and I don't want to eat it, too bad. There is nothing in the house that is healthy. I do not work because I am at school all day, and no guaranteed hours to leave. It made it hard to find a job. So I can't go buy my own food. I want to lose some weight before my move. My boyfriend lives in PA and after I graduate school, I am moving up there. He had lost lots of weight and I want to do the same. I know once I am there I wont have anything around the house that is bad for me. But I want to start now. Before my current boyfriend, my last ex, would never cook. We ordered out, ALOT. I gained 20+lbs. After we broke up, I felt disgusting. I need to change before any serious health issues. I am seeking help, I have no friends to help me with this journey. I am thinking about going to a gym. In the plaza where my school is, there is a Planet Fitness. I want to join, and after school, I can go do things in there. I love to walk but FL is so hot that I feel like fainting, or its raining. I guess I need to figure out and ask, What would be a good daily meal plan? I can't have any dairy or fish. Also, I guess what would be a good start for fitness. I guess I need pointers. haha. Sorry for the rambling.