Hi, I'm 18 years old, I am 5'3 and I weight 141.5 pounds. Ever since I was 13 I have been obsessed with dieting. At first, it started just as a joke and I stopped eating carbs, but then I got used to it and it became almost like a lifestyle. I used to believe that, in order to be skinny, I shouldn't eat them. I had been skinny my whole life so I don't know where that obsession came from, but anyway, then my hips and everything started to "appear" so I obviously became bigger, especially bigger than my friends. I never bought food in the cafeteria, I never ate junk food.. you get the idea. I wasn't as skinny as I used to but I wasn't fat either. At 14 I started taking ballet classes again and I was the fat one, or so I believed. One of my teachers told me I was, and I believed her. I started eating more and more and my weight started to go up... actually I never realized it until this year. Moreover, my entire family is skinny and I feel the pressure... sometimes they even make comments about how much I eat or something, I had to tell them to stop because it made me wanna cry... my frustation made them stop i think.. so now I'm doing this for myself. I don't want to be the fat girl, I don't want to see a chubby girl in the mirror, I want to feel good about myself, to be able to go bikini shopping and don't cry because I look awful in them. Two years ago I weight 127 pounds, and, guess what, I thought I was fat.. and now I weight 141 pounds. My weight has been going up and up and up and it's time to make a change. :]
thanks for taking the time to read this!
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