SkurvywithaK
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I like this gathering of the ages and sexes...i like the support, knds words and support that is spread on this forum.
Well, let's see now...I'm the typical 'fat' girl who is stuck in that slump...i have a closet FULL of my 'thin' clothes that i sadly grew out of but part of it was for the better. While in my last year of college i finally ended a relationship that emotionally FUBAR'd me...so all i did was make mild changes like eating an apple in the car on the way to school, snarfing a granola bar in between classes, drinking black coffee and before i knew it my co-workers were calling me skinny. I didn't notice and it wasn't until i went for a yearly physical that i saw i had lost 15 pounds. Huzzah! it felt amazing to see results from my diet alter and being referred to as a 'skinny minnie' was fabulous. So this made me even more aware of the item i put into my body whether it was food or a beverage.
side note...i have a short attention span the cute little 7-Up emoticons to the right of my screen make me smile.
So...back to what i was saying; i began to attend the gym 3-5 times a week and read every food label. I lost more weight and felt amazing but i became obsessive...to the point that i weighed myself daily, and going to the store to buy a few quick snacks for my desk drawer at work took me over an HOUR. I was reading labels and telling myself, 'you can't have this' and it was becoming an unbearable process. Even though i had lost almost 50lbs i def. had the phantom fat syndrome and saw a beast in the mirror or i would scrutinize my muffin top or point out my then mini FUPA...i was my own worst enemy.
When i met my boyfriend i was that girl who didn't leave the house w/o makeup or their hair done and i worried that he was going to think i ws too fat. I got a bad case of the happy fat syndrome and over the course of a year gained 20lbs...not bad...jeans got tight, but it wasn't anything i couldn't handle. Well...i foolishly stopped taking my meds (depression and anxiety) and everyone noticed becasue i was SO happy i figured i didn't need them and stopped. My father confronted me to tell me that i was consderably different...he had to point out i had a decent job, great guy and life was good. My doctor put me on cymbalta...it was a nightmare...made me miserable and everyday i wanted to be sad and sit home and eat ice cream and cheetos...so my 20 pounds went up to 30...and now up to 70.
Yeah...i can fluctuate 10-15 pounds like nothing and now i'm finding it harder than EVER to lose weight. A few weeks ago i went to a nutritionist to talk and she felt that because i do have PCOS and my weight is higher, that the insulin resistance is a big factor to my struggle. Plus...once you break good habits, it's hard to re-learn new ones if you cheat here and there. I'm on a low carb diet that involves reading labels but being aware of what you're consuming. I was great for a week and lost 6lbs in 4 days and then fell apart the next week. My motivation and willpower tends to fizzle out no matter how bad i want to just lose the 70lbs. Every day is a struggle, but this week has been great...just need to blow the dust off my elliptical and get to it!
I've noticed a lot on this forum that the before pictures contain no smiles, some scowls and frowns...but i LOVE seeing the in between and after pictures with the glow and confidence everyone has. You're all truly motivating and it's nice to see other my size and weight range who've gotten way down and not just fit people trying to lose those last 20lbs.
I wish everyone success through your journeys and i'm hoping this is going to push me along.
toots!
Kar
Well, let's see now...I'm the typical 'fat' girl who is stuck in that slump...i have a closet FULL of my 'thin' clothes that i sadly grew out of but part of it was for the better. While in my last year of college i finally ended a relationship that emotionally FUBAR'd me...so all i did was make mild changes like eating an apple in the car on the way to school, snarfing a granola bar in between classes, drinking black coffee and before i knew it my co-workers were calling me skinny. I didn't notice and it wasn't until i went for a yearly physical that i saw i had lost 15 pounds. Huzzah! it felt amazing to see results from my diet alter and being referred to as a 'skinny minnie' was fabulous. So this made me even more aware of the item i put into my body whether it was food or a beverage.
side note...i have a short attention span the cute little 7-Up emoticons to the right of my screen make me smile.
So...back to what i was saying; i began to attend the gym 3-5 times a week and read every food label. I lost more weight and felt amazing but i became obsessive...to the point that i weighed myself daily, and going to the store to buy a few quick snacks for my desk drawer at work took me over an HOUR. I was reading labels and telling myself, 'you can't have this' and it was becoming an unbearable process. Even though i had lost almost 50lbs i def. had the phantom fat syndrome and saw a beast in the mirror or i would scrutinize my muffin top or point out my then mini FUPA...i was my own worst enemy.
When i met my boyfriend i was that girl who didn't leave the house w/o makeup or their hair done and i worried that he was going to think i ws too fat. I got a bad case of the happy fat syndrome and over the course of a year gained 20lbs...not bad...jeans got tight, but it wasn't anything i couldn't handle. Well...i foolishly stopped taking my meds (depression and anxiety) and everyone noticed becasue i was SO happy i figured i didn't need them and stopped. My father confronted me to tell me that i was consderably different...he had to point out i had a decent job, great guy and life was good. My doctor put me on cymbalta...it was a nightmare...made me miserable and everyday i wanted to be sad and sit home and eat ice cream and cheetos...so my 20 pounds went up to 30...and now up to 70.
Yeah...i can fluctuate 10-15 pounds like nothing and now i'm finding it harder than EVER to lose weight. A few weeks ago i went to a nutritionist to talk and she felt that because i do have PCOS and my weight is higher, that the insulin resistance is a big factor to my struggle. Plus...once you break good habits, it's hard to re-learn new ones if you cheat here and there. I'm on a low carb diet that involves reading labels but being aware of what you're consuming. I was great for a week and lost 6lbs in 4 days and then fell apart the next week. My motivation and willpower tends to fizzle out no matter how bad i want to just lose the 70lbs. Every day is a struggle, but this week has been great...just need to blow the dust off my elliptical and get to it!
I've noticed a lot on this forum that the before pictures contain no smiles, some scowls and frowns...but i LOVE seeing the in between and after pictures with the glow and confidence everyone has. You're all truly motivating and it's nice to see other my size and weight range who've gotten way down and not just fit people trying to lose those last 20lbs.
I wish everyone success through your journeys and i'm hoping this is going to push me along.
toots!
Kar